"Thank you Alpha's of the northern region." Announced Council member Edward, one of the oldest known wolves in our region.

"I would like to announce the fall of Alpha Gabriel, his ignorance, temper and rage will no longer affect our packs thanks to Alpha Gabriella Aquila of the Blood shed pack." Everyone in the room clapped as Raven stood up and bowed.

"And who may this young lady next to you be?" Edward asked.

It seemed as though time froze when his eyes landed on me. I knew he was trying to avoid eye contact but he was having internal conflict. his grey eyes landed upon my blue ones sending mixed emotions my way.

"This is Felicity Blackwood, Beta of the Bloodshed pack." Raven announced nervously.

It would of been considered a disrespect if I hadn't gotten up to introduce myself, the table was hiding my pregnancy but I could hide it no longer.

I slowly stood up and watched as Xavier's eyes darted toward my round belly. Anger flashed in his eyes as he balled his hands into a fist, breathing heavily. I looked down in shame.

"Ah Ms. Blackwood, how far along are you?" Edward asked.

He was making matters worse with this question. My brother Chris was staring at me with guilt in his eyes, Stacy was whispering things in Xavier's ear to calm him down but it wasn't working.

"Five months." I whispered.

At that moment Xavier got up from the table and left the room.

"He went to go get some fresh air, he's sorry for the rudeness." Stacy quickly said.

I noticed on her neck, Xavier's mark, it stood big and proud on her neck but it shouldn't be there, it should be with me.

I sat back down with my head hanging low, oblivious to the meeting going on. I was just too lost in my thoughts until I heard the words.

"Gabriel will be sentenced to execution for his crimes in his pack, creating war and his ignorance."

So I was right, Gabriel would die before he ever saw his child. I want to be there when it happens, to look him in the eyes and watch the light fade from his eyes. I am the one who survives and he is the one who dies.

"Felicity?" I looked up to see Raven staring at me curiously.

"Huh?"

"I asked were you related to the Beta Blackwoods of the Bloodrose Woodland Pack?" Edward asked.

I thought about that for a moment. Do I really want to be considered their daughter after all they've done to me?

I looked up at my brother who was looking at me with pleading eyes. The same eyes that looked at me with anger, the same eyes that watched and were entertained by my beatings.

"No, I have no relation to them whatsoever." I said firmly.

I watched as Chris's head hung down low at my words. He should be ashamed. No matter how guilty he feels or how sorry he is, I can never trust him.

"Felicity I need to talk to you." Raven whispered in my ear.

"Not now." I shrugged her off.

"It's very important." She sounded concerned.

I was dealing with my own problems but I didn't want to leave my friend hanging, her problem was my problem.

"What?"

"I found my mate."

At that moment the words were ringing in my ear and I smiled. I was happy for her, she could finally be happy with someone and not have to worry about Gabriel killing them.

Ten minutes later the meeting was over, Xavier never came back to the meeting and once we left the room, Raven pulled me into the bathroom.

"I'm rejecting him." She said.

"Don't you dare break his heart like that, he has done nothing to you but love you the moment his eyes landed on you." I growled.

"But what about you? He has done nothing but beat you these past few years." She said annoyed.

At that moment I was confused. Who was she talking about? Then it hit me.

"Is your mate my brother?" I asked quietly.

She nodded her head as it hung low.

"Raven go back to the hotel room, we can talk there but I need some air." I said quickly.

She nodded her head and headed toward the door.

"I'll call to bring another car for you." She said as she walked out the door.

I walked away from her and was greeted by my brother.

"Anaïs I-"

"I don't want your apology and I don't want to talk to you, you turned against me when I need you the most and you tortured me. I don't want it anymore, if you still believe I am the killer of Daniel, the one I loved then just go away." I turned my head.

I heard a sigh as Chris began walking away, he will never believe me no matter what, I took one of his best friends away but he forgets that he was the love of my life.

Until now.

I walked out the back door and was welcomed by the warmth of the sun. My head was spinning and I felt nauseous about everything happening.

"Ansïs." I heard a husky growl call my name.

I turned around to see Xavier walking toward me with a pained expression. He looked so vulnerable, hurt, pain regret clearly showing in his eyes. He was battling with something and I could tell. He stopped a foot away from me but I wanted him closer, I wanted to feel his touch and only his touch.

I stepped forward but he stepped back causing me to frown.

"Do I disgust you? Are you mad at me? Does my pregnancy bother you?" I choked out.

He hasn't said anything but my name but yet his actions were hurting me.

"I thought mates were supposed to give each other love, not pain but that's all you've been doing for five years." He whispered.

His grey eyes told me he felt sadness, his body language told me he felt pain. But his voice told me he felt weak.

"What do you mean five years? We only found out we were mates a few months ago." I said confused.

"Alphas are different, senses are heightened, stronger, powerful, they can even detect their mates at a young age. You tore my family apart and you didn't even know it." He said with a pained expression.

"The connection wasn't as strong as it is now but I felt it but at that time Daniel announced you two were dating. I tried to tell him but he labeled me as jealous, I hated seeing you to together looking love struck because you were mine! I argued with him, I pleaded with him, I begged him to leave you alone but he didn't listen. Our relationship died and we drifted farther apart because of you and you didn't even know it." He collapsed on the ground with his head in his hands. But I couldn't move, I was too overwhelmed.

"My last words to him before he died were I fucking hate you, do you know what that's like? Living with that guilt, it's horrible, I was depressed for months, my happiness was draining and all I felt was anger towards you, if you stayed away from us we wouldn't have fought and those wouldn't have been my last words." I watched as tears slid down his face as he talked, I felt his pain and it was strong.

"When I rejected you it hurt, I don't believe you killed my brother but you still took the other half of me, even after you left you were still hurting me. I wake up with bruises, a hot searing pain inside of me, a thousand knives cutting away at my skin, I didn't know if someone was abusing you but it felt like it and I wish I was there to protect you but you ran away because of me." He growled.

"Xavier what did you expect?! You rejected our bond! I couldn't stay there knowing you rejected me but accept my whore cousin who we used to laugh at!" I shouted but cried at the same time.

It was too many emotions for me to handle, I didn't know what to think or do at the moment.

"You marked her as yours, as your mate and Luna-"

"I WAS FORCED TO MARK HER AS MY LUNA! Do you really think I want her to be my one and only?! For all the years you known me do you really think I would do something like that?! My parents forced me to mark her! I made a mistake and told them about you being my mate, they forced me to mark her. Just because I am the new Alpha doesn't mean my parents no longer have power over me. Even after everything we've been through I still need you!" He screamed at me.

Xavier was always the tough twin, fought for what he loved and never showed vulnerability. Right now I was experiencing something new.

"Now I find out you're having a fucking child with someone else!" He rubbed his face to get the tears away.

"I-" I couldn't bring myself to tell him I was rapped. I don't want him to think that it's his fault, that he could of saved me even though he could have. I'll take the fall even if it means appearing like the bad guy.

Felicity! There is an emergency at the pack we have to go now!

I heard Raven mind link me.

"Xavier I'm so-" I looked up but noticed I was all alone.

Just like how he felt.