The Consent

Warning: PG-13.

   WEARING a black sports bra and black yoga pants, pilates was my partnered for today's workout routine. I was in a gym doing my workout routine for the week. Nang tumigil ako para magpahinga, naisipan kong buksan ang Instagram account ko just to see what's going on.

I saw a post about Hazel on Instagram. She was with her classmate in Fashion school. They were pointing their fingers at the mannequin with their creation: a dress.

I'm so proud of her. Pangarap niya lang 'to noon, and now she's slowly achieving her dreams.

I checked my private message, which was bombarded with messages from different people. As usual, gumawa na naman ng panibagong account ang stalker ko.

Mabuti na nga lang at hindi na siya nagsesend sa akin ng mga picture ko. Maybe he got tired of stalking me in person, so he was supervising me in chat. He even threatened me that I was only his. Ang kapal ng mukha, 'eh.

I was scrolling down on my feed when a random photo crossed my feed. It was a photo of a flower made of Lego toys and it was inside the transparent bell jar. I didn't think twice about sharing the photo on my story with a captain 'This is so cute! I want!'.

Nang matapos ko 'yon ishare, nagpatuloy na ulit ako sa aking workout routine. Pagkarating ko kaagad sa unit, nagpahinga lang ako saglit bago naligo.

It was a mundane Saturday for me. It was my rest day from all of the photoshoot and events I had for the weekdays.

Dahil nagcrave ako sa ice cream, I decided to go out and visit the convenient store across the building. Dahil hindi naman malayo ang pagitan ng convenient store at ang Silvermoon tower, hindi na ako nagpalit. I'm just wearing my dolphin shorts and a blue tank top. Dahil crop top 'yon ay labas ang tiyan ko hanggang pusod. Then, on my feet is my birkenstocks sandals.

Ayos lang naman ang suot ko, wala naman akong kailangan ikahiya.

Dumiretso kaagad ako sa freezer at kumuha ng isang magnum at isang mas malaki pero cheap na ice cream. Tapos kumuha na rin ako ng apat na siopao kasi nabibitin ako sa isa. Two or more will surpass my hunger.

Pagkarating ko sa unit ay nilantakan ko na kaagad ang mga binili ko habang nanonood ng movie. Then, when the dinner came, nagluto lang ako ng cheesy ramyeon tteokbokki dahil nagcrave ako bigla sa Korean food.

Nang matapos kumain, pumasok ako sa kwarto para magshower. I was inside my room, blow-drying my hair, when my doorbell buzzed. I unplugged the blow dryer and quickly stood up to welcome whoever was the person outside. My mouth parted when I had face to face with no other than Croisx.

"Oh, hey! You're visiting me again! Don't tell me you miss me?" It was supposed to be a tease, but I cut my tongue when he slowly nodded while his eyes were serious.

"Yes, I miss you.  .  ." he answered truthfully.

Hilaw akong ngumiti. "We just met earlier! You miss me that fast?" I asked in amusement.

He didn't twice on nodding. My smile widened, revealing my pearl-white teeth as my eyes remained on him.

"I-I always miss you. Every second and minute," malambing na aniya.

I licked my bottom lip before I bit the lower part of it. "Have you eaten dinner?" I asked instead, shooing the topic.

He shook his head. "Can we eat together?" he asked sheepishly.

Sinulyapan ko ang dala-dala niyang brown bag bago binalik sa kaniya ang tingin. I smiled before answering. "Sure! Ano bang dala mo?"

"Korean food. I-I saw your story earlier, you're craving in Korean food." Inangat niya ng bahagya ang dala-dala.

My heart swells in his effort. "You noticed that? That was 5 hours ago!" I muttered.

He scratched the back of his head before he nodded. "Y-Yes. And I wanted to eat with you." pag-aamin niya.

My smile widened. "That's so sweet of you!" I commented, making him blush. Napangisi ako at binuksan nang mas malawak ang pinto. "Come, let's dig that out."

Napatitig siya sa akin nang matagal bago dahan-dahang tumango. Pinapasok ko siya sa loob ng aking unit at pinaupo sa sofa. I sauntered towards the kitchen to get us drinks and utensils.

Kimbap, Bibimbap, Tteokbokki, bulgogi pizza ang laman ng brown bag na dala-dala niya. Kumain na ako pero nang makita ko ang bitbit niya ay nagutom ulit ako. While eating, I scrolled through Instagram as I let him watch his favorite series on the TV.

I scrolled more while drinking my water when I saw a post about me.

I almost spat it out when I saw who posted it. Croisx posted my photos on his account! It was a stolen photo of me while sitting in front of him. The background was in his favorite Japanese restaurant.

I scroll down just to get welcomed by his caption 'My best view'. My cheeks abruptly felt burning upon seeing it. Pasimple akong lumingon sa kaniya, his full attention was still on the TV screen. Gladly.

May iilan na nagcomment sa post niya at binasa ko 'yon lahat. I was shocked, but at the same time, an unfamiliar fluttering feeling rose in my chest, knowing that I was the person he was referring to in his post. Damn it.

I got curious if he posted more about me, so I immediately stalk his account. He already gathered 500 followers, but I'm still his only following. My eyes laid on his bio, and I couldn't help but be filled with curiosity as I read it all over again: Solely for my rainbow.

What possibly is the meaning of it?

When Croisx finished watching, I composed my face into a serious one. Our faces were inches apart when he glanced at me. Umiwas siya ng tingin at naubo ng mahina. The corner of my lips lifted before I placed my phone on the coffee table. When Croisx glanced at me again, I urged him to continue eating so we could finish the food.

"I-I have a question," he asked hesitantly.

I beat my chopsticks in the air. "Fire away."

He frowned. "Do you think of me as a kid? Sometimes I-I feel like you're just treating me like I was your younger brother," he confronted me.

I choked on my drink and almost spat it out from coughing too much.

"Fuck, no! That would be incest." I answered after recovering.

"So you don't see me as a kid?"

My eyes narrowed. "I don't kiss kids." binitawan ko ang hawak na chopsticks at umupo paharap sa kaniya. "You're an adult, Croisx. You may be younger than me, but you're an adult." I answered. "And I don't kiss someone I don't like."

I stilled. What the fuck? Khrizanta, saan nanggaling 'yon?

"Then, can I court you even if we're already together?"

My eyes blinked in dazed. "What? You want to court me?" I asked in confusion and curiosity.

He nodded. "Yes. I want to court you. Still, even we're already together."

"Why? Why do you want to court me?"

He gulped nervously.  "I want to take our relationship slowly." 

Tumitig ako sa kanya at sumalubong sa akin ang malamlam niyang mata. My eyes remained on him before I took a sigh and looked away. Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ko, 'eh! The consequences of my wrongdoings!

"I don't want you to court me," I answered with finality.

Nalaglag ang panga niya sa naging sagot ko. Napaiwas siya ng tingin sa akin at napakagat labi.

I let out a long, heavy breath. "Croisx, I don't like the take-it-slow type of relationship. If you like me, then take the risk. If you get hurt, then get hurt. Getting hurt is inevitable in life and pain is a part of reality." I muttered frankly.

"B-But I want to court you," aniya, nasa kabilang banda ang tingin, namumula pa rin ang magkabilang pisngi. "I want to pursue you. I want to win your heart. I-I want to treat you like a princess and shower you with flowers and stuff," he explains as he looks back at me.

Tumango ako, pinapakitang naiintindihan ko ang gusto niyang iparating.

"But you can do all that while we're in a relationship. You can shower me with flowers and stuff If you want to. You don't have to court me to win my heart."

He licked his lips before he gulped nervously. "I-I shouldn't have said that," He let out a exaggerated sigh after his statement.

My fingertips abruptly brush over his hair. "It's alright. I love how honest you are," I reassured. "If you want to ask more, go on. I'll listen." I nudged him.

His face washed with guilt. "When I've done something that bothers you, tell me. So I can apologize and learn," he muttered.

I nodded, studying him for a moment before I spoke, responding to him. "I will. You will also do that for me. Communicate with me when I've done something that bothers you, or you don't understand." I commanded.

Bahagya nang umaliwalas ang kaniyang mukha.

"Yes po, babe," he answered politely, which made me smile.

Nang natapos kaming kumain, we immediately cleaned the living room. He came back to the living room before me because I still peed.

His eyes followed my every move as I walked over to the sofa. I sat beside him and noticed him gulp. 

Nang magtama ang mga tingin namin, inatras niya kaagad ang mukha niya sa akin at umiwas agad ng tingin, habang namumula ang magkabilang pisngi.

I let out a loud laugh as I crossed my legs. "You still blush around me, huh?" I muttered when I leaned over to his ear.

He jolted a bit, frowning.

Napaiwas siya ng tingin sa akin at napahawak sa kaniyang dibdib. "Oh, Goodness. My heart is pounding so loud again," he mumbles.

Napakagat labi ako at mas lumapit pa sa kaniya. "Be honest with me. Tell me, what you want," I whispered.

He gradually tilt his head on my direction. Our face are only inches apart from each other. His eyes dilated, igniting a small fire into a wildfire.

"I-I want to kiss you," he admitted, almost a muffled as his ears were turning red.

I can't help but smile as I look at him. I bit my lips harder to stop it from getting wide.

"What's stopping you? hmm?"

His lips twitched. "Your consent," he whispers. "I don't have your consent." 

My lips parted slightly, but I managed to pull myself together after a moment.

It's just a simple gesture from a gentleman but it really warms my heart.

"Then, I'm giving you my consent," I uttered and shut my eyes, so he won't feel gauche when he kiss me.

I could feel and smell his warm breath gradually, getting closer to my face. I was expecting him to kiss me on my lips, but then his lips landed on my forehead. My eyes immediately opened as I looked at him in offence.

"That's not how you kiss your girlfriend!" I grumbled, almost made a face.

His Adam's apple moves in tension.

"H-How?" he stuttered, as always.

I tugged his chin, lifting it towards my direction so his eyesline met mine. "If you're going to kiss a girl, you must look straight into her eyes."

"But you're the only woman I'll kiss," his voice became unstable.

My eyes rolled, dismissing him. "Fine. Look at my lips." I commanded. He obeyed. His throat bobbed as his eyes focused on my bare lips. "Kiss me," I quietly commanded.

He licked his lips before it captures mine in a quick yet gentle kiss. I let him cupped my face as his lips work faster, almost hungrily.

I straddled his thighs and found my legs stretched in between him. My throbbing crotch directly met with his.

Croisx gasped and pulled away, looking at where we were now pressed up against one another.

"Khriz!" he spat, looking at me with worry in his eyes.

I wanted to grunt, but I just smiled. I caressed his face and slightly lifted my torso, not putting all my weight on him. "Do you trust me?"

He nodded cluelessly, and a burning desire slowly flickered intensely in his eyes.

"Do you feel uncomfortable with me on your lap?"

"A-A little," he muttered anxiously.

"Do you prefer me sitting beside you instead of your lap?"

He shook his head. "N-No. Just stay on my lap." he requested.

"Then, relax," I mumbled. "We will do something other than kissing. You may touch me while our lips are occupied with each other." I stated and studied his reaction.

"Are you. . . Are you okay with me touching you?" he asked in confusion and worriedness.

"Yes," I said straightforwardly. "Tell me if you feel uncomfortable."

He gulped and nodded nervously. I encircled my hands around his neck and locked it.

"Khriz. . ." he groaned when my whole weight was on him.

I smiled sweetly and brushed his hair. "Relax. I'm giving you the consent to touch me." I give him a peck on his lips. "You can touch me," I whispered hoarsely before claiming his lips again.

My tongue slipped into his mouth and tasted the wave of spiciness from the food we just ate. He took a sharp breath as I continued to brush my tongue against his before I felt him kissing me back.

Our lips fought slowly as our tongues battled for dominance. He was getting better in kissing, and I'm loving it. Naramdaman ko ang kamay niyang marahan na humahagod sa likod ko.

His hand was burning, but the feeling of his rough hands on my skin sent a burning waves of pleasures in my folds. Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya at ipinasok sa loob ng aking suot na damit.

I pushed his hands upward, letting him touch my breast over my bra. I moaned in satisfaction when I felt his hands harden over my chest.

I let him cup my breast with his big palms while guiding him on how to fondle my peaks.

Nararamdaman ko na ang paglalim lalo ng hininga niya at ang kanina pang nabuhay na parte ng kaniyang katawan.

I made my hips slowly roll above him. He inhaled sharply as we continued kissing each other hungrily. I knew he was new to all of this. I'm pretty sure he never felt this before but he's doing great. So fucking great.

I pulled away from his lips when we both ran out of breath. His eyes blinked drowsy, full of passion.

"Move your hips against mine," I whispered hoarsely. "Follow my movements." I did it a few more times, rolling my hips to his crotch, teaching him.

He gulped and let out a shaky breath. "H-How. . . Like this?" An electrifying shock spread throughout my body when his hips bucked up, pressing his crotch harder to mine.

"Oh, yes. Like that." I chewed my lips to suppress a moan clawing at my throat.

He moved his hips in sync with mine, causing a perfect rhythm of friction. I swallowed hard. "You're doing great." My voice was becoming breathless as he kept with the pace and pressed his hands even harder on my right boob.

My lips started to give him a wet kiss on his neck before it went to his lips, kissing him desperately and hungrily.

A moan escaped his lips as he kissed me harder while I moved my hips faster. I was only wearing a dolphin shorts, and so the fabric of his pants worked perfectly through the thin material I was wearing.

I bit my bottom lip harder when I felt the huge bulge of him against me. Waves of pleasure pulsated through me when he jerked his hips to press against mine harder. While his hand was fondling my boobs like a professional.

Oh fuck, I could feel my panties getting soaked.

"Fuck." I cursed under my breath when we moved faster and harder. My femininity was throbbing so badly whenever a low groan slipped from his red lips.

"Shit." Croisx suddenly let out a guttural grunt, his entire face down to his neck, and even his ears turned cherry red.

I didn't know he cursed! It sounds forbidden to hear him curse, knowing how innocent he is!

"Ahh.  . . K-Khriz." He dipped his head on my neck and moaned. I abruptly felt soaked under me.

I licked my lips and slightly withdrew from him to look down. I saw the wetness leaking from his grey jeans.

Geez. I just gave Croisx Silvestre his first-ever orgasm. I made him cum from dry humping.

"You had your first orgasm," I stated without permanence.

Damn, you did great as a teacher, Khrizanta. A little voice said at the back of my mind.

His lips parted while looking at his jeans. "Shit," He cursed worriedly under his breath in panic. He immediately carried me onto the sofa before he ran towards the bathroom.

I puffed a breath and cautiously walked to where he was. I knocked on the door. "Hey, having an orgasm is normal, alright?"

The door remained closed, but I could sense he was leaning on the door while covering his entire face.

"What we did. . . And what happened to me was new for me. . ." he sounded terrified and embarrassed when he answered through the door.

I leaned on the door, pressing my ear onto the surface to hear him more.

"I know, and it was okay," I assured. "An orgasm is what usually happens when you reach the peak of sexual arousal. And every guy and even women will have orgasm whenever they reach their sexual pleasure." I explains.

"I-I know." he muffled. "B-But this is my first time feeling it," he whispers.

"I know, and I understand you." I guaranteed him. "I won't judge nor shame you," I added sympathetically.

There was a silence for a moment. Before the door slowly opened, revealing him. Nakatakip ang kamay niya sa kaniyang suot na pantalon. I bit the inside of my cheeks to stifled a smile. His face was red like a tomato.

I reached for his hands and held them. "There you are!" I chirp, lightening the mood with a smile.

His eyes remained on me, giving me a comforting, heartwhelming feeling. He squeezed my hand. I gave him a small yet sweet smile, reassuring him that he didn't need to feel ashamed.

"It's okay. You don't have to feel ashamed. I won't judge you, silly." I reassured, and ruffled his soft hair without removing my sight on him.

"Thank you for not making fun of me," he mumbled softly and brought my hand to his lips, planting soft kisses on the back of my hand. 

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