2021 Edit: Lmao this is gross. I've matured much from this point, and now think this is super weird. I justified Chara's age by thinking to myself " Oh! He's been in multiple timelines, so his real age is all those together!" But now I just realize how strange it was that I had to justify his age at all. I won't judge those who read this book, but please know I'm not like this anymore. I made this book years ago. This thing is also filled with uncredited artwork, and nightcore music ;w;

Before I get this started I just wanted to share my art and see what you think of it ☺️

First we shall start off with the ship

This is the first time I drew cross

IDK I JUST WANTED TO SHARE

Cross chara POV
Lately , I feel like I'm missing something .... my heart desires something with Cross. Not sure how to explain it but I feel like around him I'm most comfortable.I think about it then look at what I've done in the past ... he can't forgive me. This fills me with the deepest sadness,I've apologized so many times but when I do Cross just looks away and stays silent.Cmon Cross give me some kind of sign.

It was just another day... wondering what to do .....Cross was out hanging out with Epic on the porch. Ok I have secret hobby's but do not tell Ink sans . He would try to hang out with me .. Not saying he's annoying just that I feel intimidated around him. Ok, I like to draw  with no one looking . I'm scared of judgment. And ,...wait if Cross won't give a sign I'll just give him a sign of my own!I started writing down my feelings in my sketchbook.... " Cross why aren't you talking to me , I want to be friends ! I actually care about you . You make me feel safe !"Tearing out the paper I hid it under my pillow as cross and epic came in. I honestly don't want Epic around when I show him the paper. "HEY BRUH"
"Greetings" I say trying to show no interest in him and looking at cross . He looked tired "Hey , chara is it alright if epic stays tonight" "sure...." Damit , why epic ...I'll just ask cross for alone time... " Cross , can we talk in private?" I asked as we walked to our room . I closed the door ,got the paper and showed Cross .He took the paper , glanced at it " Chara....I just don't want to talk about the past is all .... and I do care about you marshmallow. " WHY DID YOU CALL ME THAT !?"with a tint of blush .Cross started to laugh with the classic "heh heh heheheheh" " idk just wanted to say it anyway I'm sorry I didn't talk to you sooner" he ruffled my white hair . We hugged and went back into the living room with Epic . Could have sworn I saw Cross blush a bit ............ wait ...... no... he wouldn't like me that way . I chuckled to myself .

( YAY I FINISHED MY FIRST CHAPTER! 425 words )