This is basically a second
part to another one of my
one shots called "Silent Echos"
requested by AngelNinja5.
Enjoy my Reider's!
Fluff fluff fluff!!
Word Count: 2056
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Y/N and Spencer had finally finished their work day, this last case being particularly strainful on her being since it was a case involving children and she had to watch as they lost the little boy.

The Unsub Tony Ronaldo shot the poor boy point blank in the head before blowing his own brains out after. He used a shotgun and it was a gory sight, she couldn't get it out of her head.

That picture being imprinted into her brain made her sick. So sick that she couldn't dare eat anything, knowing she'd throw it right back up.

And she couldn't sleep. All she did was have nightmares about it over and over, each way she tries to save the boy it ends the same and she wakes up to herself throwing up again.

She knows Spencer's had to notice it because she hasn't been staying at his house as all not wanting him to worry about her not being able to handle the case. She knew this was a part of the job. But it still got to her more than she wanted it to.

Spencer notices her staring out the window of his car on their way to his apartment, the distraught look on her face made him know something was wrong. And the fact she's pretty much been avoiding being over at his house much, he also noticed shes not been eating.

He decided he would confront her about it once they get to his house, hoping maybe if he talks to her about it she'd open up and maybe start to be okay. Spencer really doesn't want to lose her.

He already has a pretty good idea of what was bugging her though, the poor girl was there when that monster killed little Nick and then himself. With a shotgun for heaven sake.

Spencer wasn't in the barn when it happened, he was around the back of it searching the field when he heard the shots. Himself not having to see it happen but only the aftermath.

Plus it's only been a little over a month since his girlfriend had been kidnapped.. When you throw all of that together she's probably going through a rough time. Hopefully he'll be able to help her even a little bit.

The whole car ride Y/N was slightly panicking, hoping that he wouldn't figure out that she hadn't been eating or feeling too great.. but her boyfriend's a profiler, so it's highly likely he already knows. Then again it might actually help to talk to him about it. He is great at comforting her and making her feel safe after all.

Spencer parks the car in his driveway once they get to his house, shutting it off after and looking over at Y/N. She was so lost in her thoughts that she hadn't even noticed they'd arrived at his house.

"We're here baby." He says quietly, to not startle her.

She snaps out of her thoughts "O-Oh, sorry I was lost in my thoughts" she stutters out.

Spencer places his hand on her shoulder, rubbing it gently "It's fine dear, don't worry."

Y/N meekly nods before opening up her door and unbuckling her seat belt, getting out of the car and shutting the door. As she does she glances over at Spencer who's doing the same.

He walks up to his front door and unlocks it, opening the door and waiting until she walked in to close and lock it again, both of them kicking their shoes off at the door.

They went over and sat on the couch after, Spencer looking over at his girlfriend who was seemingly lost in her thoughts yet again. He noticed that's something she's been doing often and she hasn't even been talking as much as she normally does.

Spencer wraps his arm around her gently, noticing she she was slightly jumpy as well seeing that she jumped when he put his arm around her.

She quickly turned her head to look at Spencer hoping he didn't notice her jump when he did that.. gosh what had gotten into her? Y/N has never been so lost in her thoughts that she was jumpy when her boyfriend put his arm around her.. she knew when she looked into his eyes that he knew something was up.

He was going to ask her, she just knew it. And she'll have to tell him. Was she ready to talk about this yet? She thought about it for a moment, realizing that it actually might be better to talk about it instead of keeping it all bottled up.

"Y/N.. do you want to talk about what's wrong? You've been so lost in your thoughts the past week and you've been jumpy. I don't think I've even seen you eat much or anything at all in awhile either.. I'm worried about you." Spencer finally says, grabbing ahold of her hand and squeezing it reassuringly with worry lacing his tone.

She looks down at their hands, lacing her fingers in his and never looking up before she takes a deep breath "Uh, actually, yes. I'd like to talk about it."

Spencer nods, squeezing her hand again gently "Go ahead love, I'm listening. Take all the time you need too."

Y/N takes one more deep breath before she starts "A-After being kidnapped and I went back to work a week later things seemed fine. It still got to me a little bit though every time we were working a case, especially one where the victims were being tortured..." she paused and took another deep breath before continuing, holding Spencer's hand so tight.

"A-And then.. oh, god, and then poor Nick.. h-his brains splattered all over the barn walls... a-all over ME and then Tony's right after... it felt like a nightmare I so badly wanted to wake up from. I couldn't save him. Spence I can still feel their warm blood all over me. I can still see their brains all over that damn wall every single time I close my eyes." She feels her warm tears start rolling down her cheeks.

"I can't sleep because when I do I have nightmares of it all. I can't eat or I throw up. I'm a mess.. you deserve so much better than that.. I don't deserve you.." she trails off at the end, looking away from him and not meeting his eyes.

"Oh my gosh baby... you should have told me sooner. You should have talked to me. I know I can't take all of what happened away but I can try to make you feel better. You most certainly DO deserve to be with me. You're everything I've ever wanted. So what if you're a mess right now? You're only human and after what happened it's no surprise you're the way you are right now. Let me fix you, or at least be there for you in your time of need. You don't have to be alone for this." Spencer says comfortingly, pulling her into his lap before wrapping his arms around her.

The minute he does she wraps his arms around him so tightly and finally bursts into tears, burying her head in his chest as she does. He gently rocks them back and forth, humming soothingly in her ear as he did.

Y/N's tears finally started to stop, the closeness of Spencer and his scent plus the humming and his calming words all just made her feel better, it made her feel safe. As Spencer continued the humming and rocking her back and forth she could feel herself drifting off for what felt like the first time in two weeks.

Spencer noticed her breathing has slowed and her crying had stopped and he knew she had fell asleep. He slowly and carefully laid on his back on the sofa, trying not to wake up his sleeping girlfriend.

Y/N was laying on his stomach once he finally got laid down, he then grabs the blanket off the back of his couch and gently covers her with it. Spencer stays awake to just hold her close to him making sure she didn't have nightmares. And if she did, he was right here for her.

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After some time Spencer must have dozed off because he wakes up the next morning with her still laying on his chest, sleeping soundly still.

He grabbed his phone off of the coffee table and checked the time, seeing it was 10:30am on a Saturday. Hotch gave the team the weekend off, thinking they could use it after the stressful cases they've had.

Spencer still didn't dare move, so glad to see that his girlfriend was finally getting some much much needed sleep. Moving didn't matter to him right now, what mattered was her well being so the fact that he had to use the bathroom actually didn't bother him.

About an hour later Spencer felt Y/N start to stir around in her sleep, her beautiful bright E/C eyes open to meet his chocolate brown ones. As she realizes she finally slept without a single nightmare, she lets a soft yawn slip past her lips. It was because of him.

"Good morning my beautiful baby." Spencer says quietly to her, knowing she's probably still a little sleepy.

She smiles for the first time in two weeks. It was because of him. Her light in this horrible darkness. "Good morning Spencer Reid" she says, her smile never leaving her lips.

Spencer notes that for the first time in two weeks, she smiled. Oh how he's missed it these past few weeks. His breath hitched in his throat, him having to take a deep breath in afterwards while looking into her eyes.

Y/N's smile got brighter, blushing as she caught his breath hitch. "Thank you Spencer Reid. You are always my hero and calm in all of this darkness. I slept the best I have in months. And it's thanks to you." she says, moving her hand out from the cover to gently boop his nose with a little giggle. "I love you so much Spence."

"I love you so much too Y/N you too are my light in this darkness. I'm so glad I have you. Now.. could you maybe try to eat something for me baby? I could order a pizza or make you anything you want." He says, running his fingers through her hair softly.

"Pancakes and bacon?" She asks, loving Spencer's cooking. Oh why did she take so long to come to him? Next time she wouldn't wait.

"That sounds perfect, but we have to get up first" he says chuckling softly.

She blushes, somehow just not noticing the position they were in. Y/N yawns softly before pulling the warm blanket off to reveal the cold air of the room, she shivers a little bit and rolls off of him and onto the floor. She laughs a bit and stands up before stretching.

Spencer just laid on the couch and watched her in amusement, so happy to see his girlfriend happy. And it was because of him. He finally got up, stretching a bit himself.

She walked into the kitchen with Spencer following behind her, getting everything he needed to make their breakfast out and turning the stove on, smiling over at his girlfriend who was sat on top of his counter beside him while he cooked the bacon and pancakes for them.

Y/N watches him as he cooked, just loving his company as she hummed quietly, she leaned over carefully and kissed his cheek with a smile before reaching behind her to grab the two plates for him, hopping off the counter and sitting the plates where she recently sat so he could easily put the food on the plates.

Spencer finished cooking their food and put it onto their plates before carrying it to the table where she had their silverware sat before sitting down. She then sat in the chair across from Spencer and smiled at him before they started eating their breakfast.

And she could finally hold something down. This would all be okay, all because of him. Spencer Reid. Her amazing, dorky, loving boyfriend.

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