Idk what this is this isn't a creative writing or a poem this is just my feelings at the moment. And I'm scared. I'm scared you're gonna come home and not want me anymore and just stay with me until you find someone you want. And you'll admire while I admire you. I'm lonely. I miss you. I need your warmth Teddy bear. I need your cushion. I need your support and love. I need your reassurance. My self esteem has deminsished to nothing because your words are what holds me high. Even if I never saw the beauty in myself you do. I miss you. I miss being happy. You took this depression out of me and now its back. And the one person I want to vent to about it I cant. I don't want to let you know how much I'm hurting. Or how I cry when you have to hang up. I wanna be strong for you because you've always been strong for me but I'm just not strong enough..  I miss you endlessly baby and I cant even find big enough words to hold how much I'm hurting. I miss you. I love you. Always and forever. No bad dreams 122315.