Drowning in Guilt

I climbed, jounced, and caused a fall,

That is what I did.

Guilt, remorse, consternation,

That is how I now live.

My mixed emotions engulfed me in fire.

My new found guilt is building like a spire.

My actions were wrong,

And my fear is strong.

I tell myself that continuity is key,

All too easy is seems,

But I don't think such a fantasy is possible,

After everything I've done to make you fall.

Pushing you from that tree,

With the jealousy eating me,

Not only did I crush your dreams,

But I tore our friendship at the seams.

Before my malicious deed,

I had asserted to myself you were not what you seemed.

I was convinced we were not equivalent,

And that competition was only relevant.

I was blinded you see, oh dear Finny.

My judgement clouded by envy and jealousy.

I could not see that we were collaborators.

I could not see that we were partners, friends, pals.

So forgive me,

For all my wrong-doings.

Your forgiveness could set me free--

Could help us reconnect the bond that was torn!

This incident is eating me alive,

I try to swim to the surface to survive.

Just throw me the life preserver of forgiveness,

Or I fret that I'll be drowning in guilt.