i'm just trying not to drown;
since the storms that lie ahead
crash much harder than the raindrops
that kiss me at this moment

with a sinking, dreading feeling
i know

the worst is yet to come

and though i'd rather turn away
bury my face in my pillow
slam the door
blast some music in my ears
and shut out the world

the world doesn't care about my struggles
and that's the truth.

i have to learn how to swim.