how do I pretend I'm not properly pissed?
how do I flip my hair and move on?
how do people do that?

fake happiness?

how can I do that
when whatever I feel
charges and pounds through my veins

like electricity?

how can I do that

when all of me is going to spill out on the countertop
because I've bottled this up longer than I can bear?

how can I do that
when I'm breaking down like rations
in a war?

I wish I could run like a bullet
far away from here

far away from you

I wish I could erase everything
about you that occupies

a space in my brain

I wish I could curl up into a ball
until I crumble into dust
and let time sweep me away

I wish it were over