I suck at presenting.

I hate attention ;-;

It's probably just some trauma or sth from when I was younger maybe.

Every time we have to present, I literally freeze up in front of the whole class. I literally will just turn into one of Medusa's victims.
I can not make eye contact with anyone while I present or else I'll feel awkward and would probably break down of embarrassment xD

BUUUTTTTT

IF ITS SOMETHING IM PROUD, AND KNOW A LOT ABOUT *cough* ANIME&MANGA *cough* I LITERALLY WILL GIVE ANYONE A FIVE HOUR SPEECH IF I HAVE TO. MY DETERMINATION FOR IT HAS NO LIMITS.

But if it's schoolwork, I'll turn into hard stone and freeze up.

I probably will not speak my presentation writing and keep silent for about 10 minutes until the teacher finally had enough and starts it for me xD
I'm a pain in the neck to some because of my low self esteem lmao

One time, in literacy class, we were told to write a speech pretending to be Katniss and it's supposed to be directed to the game makers about your love for peter when his leg is horribly injured.
I finished it.
But when it came to presenting.......
It did not end good.

I WAS FIRST.
LIKE WHY.
I HATE BEING FIRST. AND LAST.

AND I WAS TOLD TO GO UP TO THE FRONT OF THE CLASSROOM TO READ IT OUT.

So I did.
And I literally just stood there for a whole 20 minutes staring into blank space. Oh yeah, I started tearing up a bit too xD

A tear ran down my face actually.
Only one.
Wow.

The teacher told me I could sit down on the chair beside me so I did.

Then, I shoved the book into my face and mumbled words.

The teacher was fine with it even though no one AT ALL heard what the hell I was even saying.
So I went back to my seat.

Everything else was normal.

Ugh we have a presentation on Wednesday.
I can't even anymore.

Lmao I'm done
I'll just sing "Just be Friends" with my heart out on the day instead of reading the text xD

(Because DenNor feels) ;-;