"I know! I know, but it's way harder than you think..." Jimin grumbles as he opens a bag of chips and pours it into one of the empty bowls.

"I can only be harder to keep it in, you guys were so close before?" Taehyung almost questions the other. He's trying to force Jimin to get it together and talk with Namjoon. He wants to tell that Namjoon likes him too, but he isn't too sure of it.

"I know..."

Taehyukg sighs and grabs some of the bowls, heading out the kitchen to the living room. Jimin pouts and turns back to fill up some more chips.

He knows he has to do something, but it's just so damn hard! He ruined it and he doesn't know how to fix it. His heart was already broken, so it's not like he's feeling more depressed that before on that point. But now... he lost a dear friend too.

That's where it hurts.

"You'll get wrinkles if you keep your face like that," a new voice emerges in the kitchen.

Jimin sighs but let's his face fall back to its normal self, now getting some stuff to make dip for the chips.

"You already have them," he mutters back annoyed. He's not in a good mood today, so it's easy to piss him off.

"Mmm I don't know about that, but your mood definetly does," Jungkook fires back. Jimin just walks back with some ingredients and ignores the other.

Jungkook shrugs and goes over beside him, lifting himself up so he's sitting on the table. He doesn't know why, he just likes sitting on tables.

"I'm not in the mood for you to annoy me right now..." Jimin mumbles.

"I know, you're not in the mood for anyone - that's why I went in here," Jungkook explains and grabs a chip to munch on. Jimin frowns at him.

"What do you mean?"

"With that mood, you're just going to hurt someone because you're mad. But since we don't really pay attention to each other, I don't really care that you get mad at me," the younger states.

Jimin goggles at him, wondering how there could ever come something slightly wise out of Jungkook's mouth. To Jimin, the younger is just a selfish, pretty city-boy who cares about no one but himself. He probably is on the outside, but he has been showing more of his inside lately and it's... surprisingly nice?

"If you get mad at some of the others, the night is going to get ruined, no one wants that. You have even made Tae frustrated, so let's keep it there," he finishes.

Jimin stares at him for a while, wondering if the other is sick or something. Then he laughs slightly and smiles.

"Thanks Jungkook's that's... surprisingly nice of you," the smaller says. Jungkook just shrugs and grabs another chip. He doesn't want Taehyung to be mad or have the night ruined just because Jimin is being a pussy.

And deep down, he might even consider Jimin something close to a friend. Therefore, getting him and Namjoon together would bring him a little joy too.

"You know, I really do believe he likes you," Jungkook says. Jimin frowns up at him, seeing Jungkook's legs swing back and forth in the corner of his eye.

Jungkook sighs and starts explaining what he told Taehyung. Taehyung told him to keep it a secret, but who is Jungkook to take orders from others?

He gets in on how Namjoon was caring for him and looking at him in a way that's definetly more than friendship.

Jimin's eyes just grow bigger and bigger for each word, not believing what Jungkook is saying.

Whay would he stop him if he really did have feelings for him?

"I don't know what to believe anymore," the boy sighs, letting a hand rest over his eyes.

The chips and dip before him id done, but he still doesn't have the guts to grab it and walk into the living room. Definitely not after hearing this!

"What do I do?" he asks. Jungkook seems surprisingly educated on this matter.

"Stop being a selfish brat. You're only avoiding him because you don't want to get hurt, yet you're hurting both of you by keeping this tension. If you really love him, you'll bear that pain yourself."

Auch, that was a burn.

But it was pretty well-said. Everything Jungkook stated is right, Jimin is just being selfish. That's not an easy thing to change.

"You're very bold, you know that right?"

"Why do you think so?"

"because you could have said that nicer, and you're such a brat yourself!" Jimin fires back with a giggle.

"Born to be, bitch," Jungkook says and jumps down from the counter, grabbing some bowls on the way in. Jimin looks after him and takes a deep breath.

Maybe he really just should get it over with.

_____

The night went on with not much trouble. The boys all enjoyed themselves, talking over the movies and laughing at all kinds of things.

It kept going like that for a while, the only person being tense as a ever was Jimin. He wanted to talk with Namjoon. For the first time in forever, he actually wanted to be with the other, just the two of them.

So when the other boys a little lost in discussing a certain part of the movie, he descreetly walks over an taps Namjoon on the shoulder. The said male gets surprised to see Jimin approach him.

"Can we talk? For a minute?" he mumbles, seeing Namjoon's eyes almost light up at the words. He has really wanted to have this conversation with Jimin, but he didn't want to be annoying by asking Jimin all the time.

He nods his head and stands up. With only a small glance at others who are still fighting, they leave the room and heads outside.

It's getting darker now, the moon is already visible on the sky and it leaves a nice blue tint over the lage fields.

They stand beside each other and stares ahead, not saying a word. They just enjoy the comfortable breeze that makes their hair wave a little.

"So, I guess I'm supposed to start," Jimin sighs and looks down. He feels Namjoon's eyes land on him, waiting for him to talk.

"I-I'm sorry for... 'jumping' you like that. It was not okay and I was drunk and all that but... I guess I can't run from the fact that I have a crush on you and I always have had. That's why I have been avoiding you, I was scared it would destroy our friendship completely... I'm sorry," he jumps straight to it.

It's like a weight really has lifted from his shoulders solely because he finally let it out.

Namjoon nods and look back over the fields. Silence engufles them, a few minutes pass where they just stand like that.

"It's okay, I like you too," Namjoon suddenly states.

Jimin maybe did know this from what Jungkook told him, but that doesn't stop his heart from basically jumping up his throat and run around happily.

"Then... why did you push me back?" this time, Jimin turns so he's facing the other, waiting for an explanation.

"First of all, you were drunk, it wouldn't have been okay... second of all... I- I don't know how to say it," he sighs and fiddles with his hands.

He really does love Jimin. He has for a long time and has always just been to shy to actually make a move. Now there's another reason.

"Why? What's wrong?" Jimin asks.

"It's... It's hard to explain..."

Jimin looks at him with puppy eyes before he slowly raises his hand and places it on the elder's soft cheek.

"You can tell me," he whispers as they slowly lean closer. Namjoon has a pained look in his eyes when their lips meet.

They work together, biting and sucking on each other's lips, and sooner even letting their tongues meet to fight for dominance.

Jimin is almost crying from happiness at the feeling, letting his arms wrap around Namjoon's broad shoulders.

"It's okay, you can say it," Jimin adds in whisper when they pull apart and rests there foreheads against each other.

Namjoon bites his lip before nodding sadly. He hates this.

"I-I'm moving to Amerika," he says.

Jimin goes silent and feels how his heart aches painfully. America? Forever?

"How long?" he speaks his thoughts. Namjoon leans in and gives him a long gentle peck on the lips.

"I don't know. I might never come back," he explains. "that's why... that's why I pushed you back. I didn't want to love this," he points between them, "to just give it all up in the end. That would break my heart too badly."

Jimin bites his lip and hugs the other. This sucks. This really fucking sucks.

"Well figure it out. Don't we always figure it out somehow?" Jimin whispers. He feels Namjoon hug him tighter before replying.

"I hope so."