"Don't hurt her, please Tom don't hurt my wife" Jamie begged

"The same one your punishing for staying with you over Sirius black" Matteo scoffed

"The same one you threatened to kill if she didn't let you do what you've been doing to your own daughter" Tom hissed

"You let it happen, you chose yourself over me, what kind of mother are you" I growled and used my magic to throw Tom off

I gripped her throat pinning her to the couch as my magic took hold. Everyone and everything around me vanished and it was only red I could see. No one here to stop me, no one could change my mind about what I wanted to do. But as I was about to hurt her I felt soft lips attach to mine. I froze, dropped her and my vision cleared to see Tom gripping my face kissing me roughly. I growled and pulled him closer kissing him right back feeling the bond between us grow.

He let go and then Matteo turned me and did the same solidifying the bond with him as well. I felt like and invisible string tied together and I wanted more, no I absolutely needed more. When he pulled away my eyes flashed golden I could tell by the sparkle in their eyes when I connected mine with theirs.

"We didn't know how else to pull you out" Matteo said

"What do you mean, pull me out of what?" I asked confused

"You were about to kill her" Tom said softly

I looked at my mother who had fear in her eyes as she held her neck gently rubbing it.

"No i" I began but didn't finish as I stormed out teary eyed rushing off

Like I usually did when upset I went to the well down the pathway near my garden. I sat down in front of the water and silently cried, how did I almost kill my own mother. After everything she's done there's no one else to call my mum. I looked into the water at my reflection and gasped in horror as I saw a devilish side of myself.

"You can't escape the inevitable" a voice from behind said

I turned to see someone I haven't spoken to in some time, someone I remember now. Images flashed in my head at the event that happened those years ago when I was eight years old.

"Tristan?" I said sadly

"I'm still your friend despite you having killed me" he said

"No I...I didn't mean it I swear" I cried

"I know that, but you have to accept the bond with your mates or you'll go mad like Black did, years without your mate drove him insane more than anyone in Azkaban" he said

"Tristan, I...I'm so sorry I hurt you? I'm sorry I killed you it wasn't my intention" I said looking at his ghostly figure

He came closer and knelt beside me, brushing my hair behind my ear and I leaned into his touch. His brotherly touch that I had missed so much I didn't even remember blocking it out.

"Their looking for you darling" he said

"Loretta" Tom's voice filled my ears

"Damn it Loretta stop running" Matteo said

I watched as Tristian bid me farewell and then my mates found me.

"Loretta if you run again we won't have any other choice but to punish you doll" Tom said kneeling in front of me gripping my chin roughly

"I...I've killed before" I said weakly

"The spell wore off" mum said

"What did you do?" I asked her shocked

"You were so down on yourself, you wouldn't eat, sleep, study or anything then you began hurting yourself after losing Tristan you lost a piece of yourself, he was your guardian and you hurt him, but we had no other choice but to lock those memories away, it seems the spell broke when you hurt me" mum said

"I.....mum I killed him, I almost killed you" I growled standing now

"Lottie" she's said gently

"No I'm....i can't" I said and went to run once more but Matteo grabbed my throat and looked down at me

"Running isn't an option anymore princess" he growled deeply