I wanted to run, i wanted to leave and never return, but my wolf and the inner beast inside. Well my thoughts were all about them, i wanted them so damn badly and part of me needed them, but that was the attachment talking. I growled and turned away from them and ran, i ran fast without a care in the world, i ran for a while before stopping and howling in sadness and pain. I couldn't dare understand why they wanted me, why i was forced to do the things i was forced to do from the start of my birth. When i stopped i saw something in the distance, i sniffed the air and knew exactly who it was, it was Sirius black. He was the only one i could speak to in this form, i approached him slowly and carefully before he noticed and turned to face me.

"I heard you howl of pain, what's wrong child?" He asked

"I'm being used, by my parents, by Voldemort, by the Riddle brothers and i hate it, I'm powerful and that's all they want from me" i said

"I know Voldemort well enough to know that's all he wants, but what if his son's are different, what if they actually want you, did you let them explain?" He asked

"Well no, but Si, what if, what if they are using me too, i don't want to be in pain anymore, I just want to be gone" i said

"Don't wish death upon yourself dear" he said

"Why are you here Sirius?" I asked

"For you and harry, i knew your parents in school, your mother was the sweetest girl and i crushed on her, but your father was a bully, a mean boy until he found out he was soulmates with your mother" he said

"Soulmates don't exist Sirius" i scoffed

"You feel it, deep down you know I'm right, you feel attached to them, a need for them like no other and you can't explain it nor can you run from it Loretta, you need them and they need you, it might appear they want your power, but they actually will die without you as well as you without them, Loretta you must try, try to accept your fate unlike me, i know my fate whether i like it or not I'm going to die" he said

"Don't say that, i won't let you die, I'll stop it" i growled

"It's my fate since the day i lost my soulmate, she's waiting for me Loretta and i miss her deeply, but it's going to be okay, you protect harry even if he doesn't want to see it, Loretta your an amazing person and you need to see past the pain, past the trouble you endured and see the light at the end" he said

"You have to go, their coming" i said panicked

He darted off and i looked over the cliff edge and stepped closer, if I just jumped then maybe.

"Loretta stop" Matteo shouted

"Loretta don't" Tom said pleadingly

"We should have explained it, we just" Matteo began

"Didn't know if you felt it or if you understood it" Tom said

"We can't tell you how sorry we are but your ours, we don't care how powerful you are, it's you we want nothing else" Matteo said nervously

I looked between him and Tom, Tom's eyes were showing worry, nerves and guilt within them, Matteo had hurt, pain and nerves in his eyes and expression. I whined and stepped closer to them, lowering my head and laying down on the floor waiting for an explanation from them.

"Were soulmates Lottie" Tom said

I shook my head, it's not possible, they have to be lying to me right?

"We can prove it if you let us" Matteo said stepping closer to my wolf form

"But you have to let us into your mind, your thoughts" Tom said

I growled, no way, i didn't want them in my head anymore than they already have been.

"Lottie please" Matteo begged

Why did it hurt that he seemed in so much pain, maybe it was ok, maybe they weren't lying to me.

"Loretta I never beg, but I'm begging you just let us in" Tom said softly

He was vulnerable, he was being vulnerable with me, i huffed closing my eyes and forced the wall i built to fall. Whimpering softly as i did so, the memories and pain filled my head and theirs most likely as i reminded myself of what father did to me. What he wrote letters about, what he'd do if i disobeyed him or anyone of authority in our inner circle. And then images that weren't mind flashed before me, images of pain like mine, but what stuck out to me was bigger.