"You can't hangout with him anymore Lottie" pansy said softly

"I don't want to block him out and prove Ronald Weasley right" i growled

"So this isn't really about harry is it?" Daphne asked

"It's about them both" i said

"Stop lying to yourself, you want to prove Ronald wrong, make him realize not all Slytherin's are evil isn't that right" Theo said

"I just don't like being labeled, i don't want people to see evil in us" i said softly

"But that's all their ever going to see love" blaze said

"I know that now, harry he didn't grow up like we did i thought maybe" i began

"You could change his views" pansy said weakly

"Yeah, but i might be wrong" i said as they finished cleaning me up

"No more fights ok" Theo said kissing my forehead

I nodded weakly and we went to our separate dorms and i stayed awake all night because i feared the nightmares i now got often.

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Time skip
Summer before third year

Loretta's POV

I knew what this summer was going to be all about, father was pushing me and beating things into me. He whipped me for the first time last night when he found out from Astoria Greengrass what i had done to her and with Harry. He beat me so badly i passed out five times before i was finally healing slowly and able to get off the concrete floor and move myself to my room. All because i was helping Harry Potter, and now deep down i resented harry for this, for being hurt just simple for helping him with potions class and charms, even herbology and so forth. He was struggling and it was both a choice to help and since i was one of the top in my classes i had to do it. I tired to explain that to my father, but he only beat me more for giving attitude and talking back to him.

And again perusal mother did nothing, but today was different, something big was going down and I couldn't think of what. I couldn't understand why mum was having me dress nicely, i didn't understand why the workers and house elf's were busy rushing around. It wasn't until mum came and got me later did i finally understand what was going on then. I was the only child in a room full of adults and at the head of the table was the dark lord himself, but weaker than years prior.

"Come child" he said

Now at the age of fourteen I had duties to uphold, reputations to keep in tact and nothing else mattered. Be good, do good, listen, follow instructions and nothing more or nothing less. And as I approached him he grabbed my forearm and smiled evilly at me. I wondered where my friends were, were their parents going to make them do this as well, but then Theo and Draco walked in nervously.

"Welcome, Loretta Greenwood is our first contestant to get the dark mark" the dark lord said

What no, this can't be happening, i looked at Theo and Draco trying not to panic or disobey my father. But in the moment i tried to take my hand from his grasp and he forced me to my knees then put the mark on my arm. Teary eyed i didn't dare let them fall as i walked weakly towards my parents and sat beside my mother with my head down. I scratched at the mark aggressively, but it wasn't coming off nor would it ever. After that night i cried in my room cutting at my mark, but i only left scars behind and healing slightly, but not enough. Blood covered my sink and bathroom counter as I stared at myself teary eyed in the mirror.

I wanted to end it all, wanted to die then and there, my life was over as it is, but now i was in a life sentence that I couldn't take myself out of without death. Suddenly Draco and Theo appeared on my balcony so i rushed to clean up as they entered but they saw.

"It's not going anywhere Cara Mia and we know that" Theo said showing his with a weak smile

"I don't want it, i don't want to do this" i cried in Draco's embrace

"It's going to be alright darling were here, were with you, and I'm sure Lorenzo, blaze, pansy and daphne will be next" Draco said

"Why...why did they do this to me" i asked

"We have no clue, power maybe" Theo said sadly