The week of break was traumatic for me, there happened to be times where I'd freak out. I didn't want to tell any of my friends but Draco knew the moment he saw me walk in without my usual smile or lately fake one. But that's not the only one who noticed Theo began to notice and shortly after the rest of my friends began to worry and notice. So I was forced to tell them all, the truth about what's been happening to me and why.

"I can't believe you didn't tell me potter was the reason" Draco said shocked

"One of them" I said sadly

"Still, we should hurt him for it" Theo said

"No it's ok, I'm just keeping a distance for now but keeping my eyes open and aware of my surroundings" I said

But shortly after that talk I remembered I promised Harry I'd meet him for studying. So I bid my friends goodbye and lied to them about where I was actually going or who I'd be with.

"Sorry I got caught up, it won't happen anymore" I said rushing to the table Harry was at

"Your ok, I was just getting here too" he said honestly

"So what did you need help with again?" I asked

"Potions but can I ask you something first?" He asked

"Umm yeah what's up?" I asked

"You've been avoiding me, was Ron right about you, are you ditching me for some reason" he asked

"It's not you Harry it's something back home happened and I've been distant with everyone I barely just told my other friends, but I don't want you to worry I'm not avoiding it's just home life isn't easy right now is all" I said

"Oh ok, I'm glad Ron wasn't right then" he admitted

Oh if only you knew the really reason I've actually been away. Ron might be wrong right now but someday he will be proven right. And that day may come sooner than I like which is going to suck so much. And we began studying I helped him correct his mistakes but suddenly halfway in. I felt like I was being watched and when I looked around I came up with Astoria Greengrass eyes in the distance.

She's the snitch, she's been telling people, my parents about the is. Merlin what the fuck, i absolutely despise the girl. Does she even know what she's got me going through after sharing this to others.

"Harry I'm sorry I've got to go we can pick up tomorrow if you'd like" I said grabbing my things

"Oh yeah sure, maybe you can help me with charms too?" He asked

"Yeah sure" I said and rushed in the direction Astoria was hiding

I caught her and grabbed her by her hair causing her to hiss in pain.

"You have no idea what your doing right now, you don't know what I go through because you tell my family shit" I said shoving her down

"You deserve it freak" she snapped

I punched her and we got into it, but I pushed her down and punched her again and again. And when I whipped my lip that she cut open I realized I let my pent up anger out. I left, grabbing my stuff and rushing back to the common room without a care what happened to her.

"Oh my lord Lottie what happened?" Theo asked

"Astoria she" I began to panic

"What did the bloody brat do now" Daphne hissed

"She's the one telling my parents I caught her spying on me, I got so angry I just lost it, I....shes hurt, badly" I said rambling

"She deserves it" Daphne huffed

"She's the reason I get hurt" I teared up

"Why did you freak so badly?" Draco asked as him and Theo helped clean me up

"I went to help Harry study and tutor him, I'm sorry I lied I just wasn't sure who was saying anything, not that I thought it was one of you" I said

"You got to stay away from him Cara Mia" Theo said

"I know but, he's supposed to be on our good side or trust me for whatever reason and I'm meant to keep him in line, father said so" I rushed out my words

"Oh darling" Draco said as tears now filled my eyes