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At seven o'clock, Bang-PD met all of the members in their living room, where most of their discussions happened. Namjoon had caught up Taehyung and Jungkook on Yoongi's situation, so they weren't shocked when Jin explained it to their manager or Yoongi.
"Oh my gosh, what happened, Yoongi-ssi?" Bang-PD asked as he quickly stood up from the couch, seeing Hoseok hold Yoongi's hand as they entered. Once they sat down, Yoongi put his head on Hoseok's shoulder. "Jin hyung will tell you." Hoseok announced. Jin cleared his throat after thinking for a while.
"Yoongi-ya attempted again, and we all feel as though it was time to bring it up to you." Jin explained. "Attempted what?" Bang-PD asked. "We never told him..." Namjoon whispered to himself, but the others heard him. "When you first became our manager, and we told you Yoongi hyung was sick in the hospital?" Namjoon told Bang-PD. He nodded. "I remember he wasn't there the first day I met the rest of you." He glanced over at Yoongi, then back to Jin.
"Well, he wasn't exactly sick...Yoongi-ya struggled hard with depression, and when you became our manager, that was the morning after he had self-harmed very badly." Jin could see Bang-PD's heart breaking through his eyes at the new information. "It was all so much back then. We were all nervous to say anything. Yoongi-ya didn't want us to say anything anyway, so we never did. But we're telling you this all now, because it happened again this morning." Jin told him, taking deep breaths the more he remembered the first time.
"You attempted to..." Bang-PD turned to Yoongi, who he felt as though he had helped through tough times. Now it was all falling into place; times when he would catch Yoongi breaking things in his studio, times he was there at godly hours in the morning, and even sometimes where he heard through the door, heavy cries. When Yoongi wore long sleeves on hot days, he excluded himself from social events...
Yoongi couldn't pull himself to face his manager. He knew he was heartbroken, and he didn't want to hurt anyone anymore than he already had. "We wanted to let you know because we were hoping you could reach out and find someone for Yoongi-ya to talk to while still able to continue his work." Jin returned conversation and saw tears in Bang-PD's eyes.
"O-of course..." Bang-PD sniffled and wiped his eyes. After all, he was also growing up with his band.
"Also," Jimin cleared their throat. "I'm going to be getting surgery in two months for my chest. On my next doctor visit, I should be going on testosterone hormones as well, to start... transitioning." They announced. "What's wrong with your chest?" Bang-PD asked. "Well..." Jimin clearly didn't want to say, and after a minute, their manager finally put pieces of the puzzle together. "Oh," was all he said, again.
"Sorry, this must be a lot for you," Hoseok spoke up, feeling overwhelmed himself, and he had been there to see everything. "No, I'm alright, I'm just... I feel horrible, I had no idea these things were happening, I wish there was something better I could do for all of you." Bang-PD announced, sighing. "I'm sorry..." Yoongi suddenly spoke, which caused everyone to turn to him. "No, don't be sorry, Yoongi hyung, it's okay. We love you." Hoseok quickly shut down Yoongi's bad thoughts, bringing him closer. Yoongi cuddled into Hoseok, not sure what the next step was. He never wanted to talk to a professional, but he didn't want to feel what he was feeling now for the rest of his life.
For the rest of the meeting, Yoongi laid on Jung Hoseok, staring into nothingness and thinking hardly anything. He couldn't identify what he was feeling - if he was feeling anything in those minutes. The pain in his face had gotten worse and on his hands. He regretted everything from even thinking about hurting himself, to physically fighting Jin, and now telling his manager. It was all so overwhelming for him. All he wanted to do was hide away in a bed, safe under the covers. About two hours later, Bang-PD left.
Hoseok looked down at Yoongi and found him cuddling himself, his arms wrapped around his torso. "It's gonna be okay, hyung. We'll protect you." Hoseok told him, brushing his hair away from his face. Yoongi sniffled, now crying silently. "Jin hyung, I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry for everything -" "Yoongi, it's okay..." Jin got up and sat next to Yoongi, then hugged him. "We love you, and we're never going to stop loving you. We'll fight this battle with you forever, okay?" Jin told him. Yoongi sat up a bit more and took Jin's hand into his bandaged one. Yoongi took a deep breath, and two tears leaked from his eyes, trailing down his cheeks. "I love you."
It was hard to say. The others could see Yoongi struggle to bring it up his throat from his chest. He then started sobbing, breaking again and resisting Jin's touch. The other four made their way over to Yoongi and formed a group hug around him, all collectively holding him.
They stayed like that for a while, never once letting go. They relaxed in each other's presence, praying for better days.
"This might not be the time," Hoseok spoke up first. "But this just gave me really interesting inspiration for a song." Namjoon and Jin chuckled, and Yoongi was calming down. "What would you call it?" Jimin asked, hidden in his shoulder. "Sea, definitely." Hoseok decided. "Wow, you haven't even started, and you already know what you want to call it." Jungkook formed a small smile, feeling relieved. Everyone carefully broke the hug, and Yoongi was wiping his tears.
Taehyung then did it for him, and Yoongi allowed it.
"I can start it another day. Right now is more important to me." Hoseok told Jungkook. The youngest leaned over and kissed him on the cheek.
"And I miss you guys," Yoongi choked up, using his shirt to clean off the rest of his red face. "If you will take me back, I want to be back in the relationship." He finished, looking up. "And it's not because I feel excluded, I actually want to be in the relationship." Yoongi explained. He was showered with kisses, and Namjoon was the one who captured his soft lips. "Of course, hyung." Namjoon nodded, looking softly in the older one's eyes.
"We will love you forever."
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