Rain pounded against the cabin, I had barely spoken, dragging my bags down the stairs. I left a few things in the room, I hoped that Austin would find them and come after me, if he really cared he would do anything to have me in his life wouldn't he?

I knew I was being selfish, I knew I had done something that I could never forgive myself for, how could I ever expect him to forgive me for it.

I wish I had never gone into the car, I wished I had never fallen into the trap of the people I had trusted with everything.

" your father is waiting outside for you he wants to say goodbye," my mother mumbled, making her way out the front door as she pointed to the back. I nodded, giving her one last glance before I slid the glass aside, rain sliding down in sheets.

" don't sit out here dad, you will get sick," I barely was able to mumble those words, before a lump formed in my throat, my eyes burning with the need to cry. He shook his head not saying a word, still staring ahead.

"I don't want to leave, I really don't," I started, tears now sliding down my face. My dad reached out, grabbing my hand, he still didn't look at me, his hair soaked. Did he really not want me to go? "I love you dad, I'm so so sorry, for everything, I wish I could have been a better daughter, I wish I could have changed everything and that none of this would have ever happened. I love you more than anything else in the world." I buried my face in his shirt, not caring that he was drenched, he wrapped his arms around me, I hadn't realized that he had been crying too, that was why he didn't want to gaze at me.

He was just as broken as I was, we needed each other to make us feel complete.

" your mother loves you, and she needs you," my father lifted me back up, gazing into my eyes, "Austin will be okay, I know you two tried to hide it from me, but it's no secret you two cared for each other. Maybe another time, or maybe in another lifetime. He just needs some time."

" do you think he will ever forgive me," I knew it was selfish to be talking about him when I was saying goodbye to my father. Dad nodded, wrapping his arms around me once again, a ghost of a smile came over my features, that sons of butterflies dancing around in my stomach once again.

" let me go see if I can find him I know how much he denies that he wants to say goodbye." I nodded at my father's words, rising up from the steps to walk back into the house. I was silent, it was a simple place, but with it came so many harbored emotions.

This was the couch I had been sitting on, the very first time I had gazed into those eyes, these are the stairs I had ran down so many times. How could I just leave it like this?

I shut off the living room light taking one last heartbreaking glance before I turned,  stoping out the front door. My mothers slick silver rental car sat in the driveway, rain sliding down the windows.

I couldn't leave yet, I hadn't said goodbye to Jason or Austin. I needed to store sometime maybe I could figure a way to stay.

I had to.

I came to this place once before

And now I'm leaving it once more

I've seen these trees so many times

My heart has committed so many crimes

I would wait here forever to see your face

When I think of you I will think of this place

I will give this place a heartbreaking glance

And with it I will remember my country romance

"Well hurry up, we are going to miss our flight," Brady called, his voice mixing in with the pitter patter of the rain.

I had to see him one more time, I just had to soothe my heart that much more.

"Come on sweetie, I know it's hard but you have to leave now things will get better when you get back to California." I nodded, maybe my mom was right maybe all of this would be a distant memory and I could get back into the swing of things.

Maybe I would make new friends and somebody would fall into my life, not like Brady but somebody more similar to Austin

But how could Austin ever be replaced?

I trudged  through the rain, counting the seconds one, two, three, four, five.

It couldn't be, my heart would always belong to him, I would give up anything to be with him.

When I was 18 I would come back here and I would find him. That was after all only six months away. I would graduate high school and come back here

He would be healed by then from the pain and he would want me, I just knew it, it just had to be true.

But after all did he want me did he really want me after what I had done how could somebody want somebody like me?

Six, seven, eight, nine, 10.

"Come on, we need to be on our way, what are you waiting for, don't tell me about one blonde guy who lives here." I blinked, my eyes linking with Bradys he was right, why should I wait for somebody who isn't waiting for me?

Rain slapped itself against my face, splitting into a million pieces when it hit the floor, wind whipped against my face, sending my hair flying into a million pieces.

I opened the car door, a dull pain slicing threw my heart. My door shut behind me, and I glanced out the window, silence swelling around us. Nobody dared speak, we all listened to the constant pat of the rain against the window, my mother sliding down the same path Austin had taken two hours ago.

I glanced back to see my dad standing in the doorway, the dogs at his feet. He stood there all alone, I let my face fall against the glass, and just as the girl had, I decided to utter a silent prayer.

Please, let me come back, and please, let me see Austin

Trees whipped against the window, the branches cascading back into the brush once again. The sun had gone all the way down now, our headlights illuminating the pathway. My phone lit up against my face, the time reading 9:47 PM.

I laid back against the seat, shutting my eyes, I was really leaving, I was leaving the place I had really wanted to call home. Brady turned the radio.on, grumbling when a 50s song came on.

When I fall in love

It will be forever

I pulled my knees up to my chest, as I finally let the tears fall once again. My heart shattering into a million pieces.

Or I'd never fall in love again

We rounded a corner, my mom grumbling about the terrible roads, when something caught my eye. It was a pair of headlights, coming down the street, there were never cars that would come down the street. I wondered who it was as I laid my head against the window, letting my eyes fall shut. The road was so narrow that my mom had to pull to the side to let the person slide by, I whipped my Eyes open, my mom's voice sounding through the car.

" isn't that that blonde kid? Her son. I really am sorry all of this happened, he seams like a nice kid, his mother was my dear friend after all, you know she had come down to see me."

I blinked,  my mothers words sending a shiver down my back. What did she mean her and his mother were friends? I had never really care to hear her side of the story because I had been so caught up with everything. I would often not even come home at night when I was there.

"What do you mean he was his mom, she was you're friend," I jumped up, "stop the car." My mom laughed, as I realized that the car already was stopped. I glanced over out my window, the shadow of his face coming into view.

His face

It was Austin.

I pried my door open, enough to slide out into the rain. Austin wasn't even looking at me, as he tried to pull past us, without hitting branches, and without trying to make any emotion in his face. I knew that he knew I was right there.

I walked over to the drivers side, pounding on his window. He stopped the car, his eyes dead of emotion as he turned to me.

"What," he rolled down the window, he acted as though I was the worst thing he had ever seen, I didn't blame him though.

"Austin, you know I would take all of this back if I could, I wish I could change the past, I wish I would have never ran into that car." I pleaded with my eyes, robing for any emotion.

He shook his head. " I wish you had or have never ran into that car either, because then I wouldn't have to be here with you right now." He pealed my hands from his car, and I watched with painful eyes as he drove off.

I fit so perfectly into you're life

Everyone thought we would be husband and wife

My heart was full not a doubt in my mind

You were always so gentle you were always so kind

But

My biggest mistake was losing you

And the fact that I had wanted to

Now I'll sit at home and sing my sad song

And wonder how it all went wrong

They say I am the one to blame

Is that why I feel so much shame

Two hearts who wanted to stay

Two hearts now drifted away