tw// this chapter contains shop lifting

kelsea's POV

         the next morning, kelsea woke up in her bunk. she felt dizzy and looked around, grabbing her phone and getting up out of bed she saw corbyn sitting at the couch with three of the four other boys.

"morning kels" corbyn spoke up noticing her waking up, "you feel alright ?"

kelsea nodded and scratched her head and went into the bathroom, washing her face and then flushing the toilet after she used it and walked out of the bathroom.

"we're in virginia kels." jack said looking at her

"cool yay my favorite place" i shrug my shoulders

"do you miss it or ??" zach asks

"can you not??? i just woke up. chill the fuck out" i spat at them

"take your meds kelsea now." corbyn threatened.

"wow i love feeling threatened by my own brother." i gave him a sarcastic smile.

"kels. behave or you'll stay with mom and remember what she told you." corbyn said again

"can you for real not right now?" she said and stumbled at the counter, feeling dizzy and her eyesight going blurry.

"shit." corbyn said and ran to my side

"don't touch me, i'm fine. " i said to him but couldn't even see his face

"you're clearly not. you need a drink sit down."

i sat down at the counter as he handed me a glass of some red juice.

"you should probably stay in here today till you feel okay. " corbyn said to me

i felt my heart beating rapidly as i swallowed my pills and drank the juice, i just nodded.

          after a few hours i had been watching tv all morning. i looked at my phone and my instagram and imessage were kinda blowing up.

dms were filled but i don't know who was messaging me.

i went to my texts

lauren was spamming me

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : gurl fid u fr say that nasty shit to emily

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : text me back right mow or i swear to god

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : fucking bitch

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : youre coming tonight or i swear to god

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : atp fuck u

i panicked , what did i even do????

me : what are u talking about

       right after i sent that she read it and called me on FaceTime.
I picked up.

"emily showed me the fucking screenshot. i told u not to tell. shes mad at me now" lauren rolled her eyes while walking through the hallways.

"i- i didn't say anything to her i blacked out last night at the concert i just woke up two hours ago i don't know what's going on"

"go to your dms and screenshot it right now don't lie to me either " she said quietly to her phone  "send it to me cause the bell just rang i have to go"

she then hang up

i went to instagram and i had no messages with emily from yesterday

i screenshotted the last we had and sent it to lauren

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : wtf this shit mad confusing

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : are u in va?? can my mom come pick u up?

me : uhh i can map it to the school

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : good idea sneak in the school

me : sure

         i groaned and got up. grabbing a backpack and stuffing it with my essentials and running off the bus, in my exact outfit from yesterday . at this point i don't care how i look. i'm comfortable anyway.

i looked around and ran into a CVS, running though the aisles. i found a scooter and grabbed it as i ran to the employee section running out the back doors. i had no money to pay for it and i need a way of transportation i quickly got on the scooter and rode away as fast as i could. hopefully no one saw me or i'm fucked.

i stopped on the scooter and mapped my way to the school. as i got back on and texted lauren : on my way.

she texted back an okay

i continued my ride to the school, looking around, i'm so nervous. this feels weird. what will i do when i get to the school

i started panicking and stopped on the scooter again, pulling out a water bottle from my backpack and taking a sip as i saw the school up ahead

           i started receiving calls from corbyn, he must also be at the bus again.. i quickly put his calls and texts on dnd. as i reached the school i texted lauren : " uh so i'm here. can u ask to go to the bathroom and leave? i'm behind the trailers i don't know what i should be doing "

i sat down on the grass with the scooter against the trailer

finally five minutes later. lauren texted me.

lauren 💖💘💝💓💞 : okay coming.

phew she's coming, she will tell me what to do

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          lauren was in class as her phone buzzed and kelsea said she was here, she asked her teacher if she could go to the bathroom, he told her yes so she walked outside with her backpack and snuck out the side door and ran to the trailers .

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"kels!!!!!" lauren screamed as she saw her friend.

"oh my god i'm gonna cry." i said and got up and ran to hug lauren

"this feels so weird i missed you so much" lauren said and hugged her right  "stay at my house remember the plan let's still do it okay? i love you & my mom said it's okay, i made up some sob story to her, she thinks your a junkie but i told her you haven't relapsed in weeks, your mom just doesn't want you home. so you can stay with us. told you i'm good."

"woah cool, okay sure. that works, corbyn is spamming my phone and he's so annoying i can't be on that bus anymore maybe i'll go back after tour but i don't know. do you think mr maynard would let me go back to school here?" i asked

"he might contact your mom though... we will figure that out later okay, for now go to my house and you can chill and get ready for emily's party, my mom doesn't get home until five, so i will be home before her okay? i love you be safe." lauren said to me and i nodded

"okay yay!!!! i'm so excited, honestly i just want to get through today and tomorrow can be a mystery" i smiled and hugged her again

"me too i should go back to class, mr porter probably gonna think i'm having bathroom issues" laur laughed and ran off "see you after school ok i love you!!!!!" she yelled as she ran through the doors

i grabbed the scooter and started riding to her house. i'm getting hungry i need food

i stopped the scooter and looked through corbyns texts, i turn off read receipts and i had over 10 missed calls from mom and corbyn. they don't even give a fuck about me so why now

why even try with me i'm unlovable

i'm not worth caring for

i'mm broken. i am not worth fixing

the tears streamed down my face as i finally reached laurens house. i have one friend i guess