Song: You mean the world to me- Freya Ridings

Zayden turns around to leave. Of course I call after him but he keeps on walking. "Zayden...don't go...wait," I yell. I look back at Carter and just shake my head. I can't believe this is happening. Of all the times he has to show up the moment Carter and I are talking about a part of my past. I run after him and dad stops me. "Coralie...what's going on here?"

"Nothing...I'm sure you heard anyway...excuse me but I have to talk to Zayden." I tell him and push on past him. By the time I get outside he is already in his car. He starts up the engine but I jump behind the car so that he has to either stop or run over me and I know for a fact that he will not run over me.

"Will you move?" he yells.

"No! Because I don't want you to leave." I stand up there with my arms crossed in front of my body.

"Move...dammit," he yells more angrily this time.

"NO!"

He gets out to the car and comes around to the back. "Please move...I don't want to hurt you." He places both hands on my upper arms as if to pick me up to actually move me. However I stay pretty rooted to the ground. I search for his facial expression to try to understand how he is feeling and all I see is a mixed emotion or hurt and pain and it hurts knowing that I caused this. He should never heard any of that conversation between Carter and I. I lose all track of thought when I notice him staring at me and then he quickly removes his hands as if he hurt me in some way.

I quickly look away and sigh, "Fine...I'll move." And I do. However I am so afraid that he is going to leave and never come back and I just need to be able to explain myself to him. There is no way in hell that I am going to just let him walk out of my life, not now, so I walk over and jump in the passenger side of the car.

He comes over to the door to open it but I quickly lock myself inside. I lock all the doors and now he can't even get in at all. "Seriously get out," he sounds really upset now and his anger builds up and he slams his hand against the window.

I shake my head and freaking tears start to come a little faster as my bottom lip starts trembling. "Nope! Take me with you," I cry out.

He shakes his head and goes into the house really frustrated as he stomps all the way. A few minutes late, I watch him come back out and get behind the wheel. He slowly backs out of the drive and drives slow; however once we are on the main road he slams on the gas, flying down the road. He is trying to scare me. We end up in the middle of nowhere.

He gets out but I don't so he comes over to the door and opens it for me. "Well are you coming?" He gestures for me to get out.

"I don't know...where the hell are we anyway?"

"Just get out," he orders me and I feel this lump rise in the back of my throat. I know he won't hurt me; he loves me too much for that. But the moment my feet hit the ground I feel this sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach.

I roll my eyes at him in frustration. I follow him into the darkness. He still hasn't said anything. How far is he planning on walking because it is so freaking dark out here and the only light is from the full moon above us. Not only that but now I have a feeling he might just leave me out here all alone in the darkness. This would be his way to tell me that he can't deal with this any longer.

He is so quiet and it is really making me mad. "Oh my God! What the hell is wrong?" I raise my voice at him. "Why did you take off like that?"

He grits his teeth and I can tell he is trying to find something to hit. Ok so he is pissed. I get it, he heard me talking to Carter but it has nothing to do with him.

"Who else have you slept with...was it before or after we met?"

I look back at him like he has got to be crazy. "Are you freaking kidding me...is that what this is all about? Does it even matter?"

"Fuck yeah...it matters." His voice cuts me like a knife. I jump back and glare at him. As I look back at him, I realize that it's me that cutting him with that knife. I never meant to hurt him.

I look down at the ground and then up as if searching beyond the stars for answers. I sigh heavily, "Before...alright. I haven't been with anyone since I met you." I want to reach out for him but I have a feeling that he will only back up farther so I keep my distance.

"Then what the hell was that all about...who did you have sex with?"

"It was way before us...look before...before I was messed up alright. I told you I was doing drugs and other shit...to make the pain all go away."

"What other shit?" He growls under his breath.

I huff and take a deep breath. He knows all of this and I really don't want to have to explain anything to him, but I do. "After Derrick...I just wanted to die alright. I thought maybe I could block out all the pain...the thoughts in my head...I wanted everything to go numb. I just wanted to forget."

I sigh heavily. "There was this guy at school...he hooked me up on shit. Stuff to make me forget and it worked for the most part but I wanted more...in return he wanted more as well. He wanted me to do things that I'm not proud of doing but I did it to get my fix. And then he...took pictures of me doing things to blackmail me. Said if I ever ratted him out he had the pictures to use against me."

"Is that it...anything else I should know about?"

I shake my head and then nod slowly. "I was at a party one night and he was there. He hooked me up and introduced me to other shit. I was not myself; I promise it wasn't me. I ended up in bed with this guy who apparently gave me something called Special K...I didn't know what it was but he said it would take it all away. I told you all of this in one of the sessions, don't you remember. Anyway it did take the pain away...maybe too much because I was not there, you know. He took pictures of me naked...posted them all over the net...sent to everyone's phone bragging about it. Everyone had seen them. That is one of the reasons why my parents moved out to the middle of nowhere hoping moving me to a new school would help. Little do they know...people there have seen them as well. Look I don't remember any of it. If it wasn't for the pictures I wouldn't even believe it myself."

He doesn't say anything.

"Zayden...you know what it's like being messed up." I start sobbing and sniffle a few times. "Believe me...none of it mattered...it wasn't really me anyway. The only thing that matters to me is you...you! I don't give a shit about anything else." I keep trying to wipe the tears with my hands but they keep coming. I can't lose him.

He comes closer to me, but I look down at the ground. I don't want him looking into my eyes. His hand reaches form my hand with care and tilts my head up for me to look at him. Then he wipes away a few of the tears that just won't stop. "I'm sorry...I over reacted. It's just...I want to be the one that touches you. I'm sorry I flipped out...I heard you telling Carter about fucking some guy and I lost it...I guess I'm a little jealous."

"Jealous...of what? It wasn't me...Cora took over on those days. Actually she took over for a while after Derrick done what he did. I'm slowly taking back over my life." I touch his cheek with both of my hands and look into those lost eyes of his. "Zayden you have me...I'm right here."

If the moon wasn't out, I wouldn't be able to see his face. My eyes have finally adjusted to the darkness around me. I watch him stare back at me as if he is searching into my soul. I know he wants me. He reaches for me, grabbing the back of my neck, pulling me in towards him. Hot passionate lips invade mine and I'm fading into his world...our world.