Song: Scars- Allison Iraheta

After our session with Sarah, we go back outside. Everyone is staying to eat lunch. They have tables lined up with food and other tables with chairs to sit several families at a table. Mostly it is just parents her but there are a few that brought other children with them. I find Zayden and his mom within seconds. They resemble each other a little. I wonder if his sisters look anything like her. I was shocked that she did not bring them. Then again he did mention that they were just little brats and of course the step dad wouldn't come because they for sure do not get along. I run up next to him and touch his shoulder.

He turns around and smiles widely at my appearance as if I saved the day. I thought he was going to place his arm around me but instead he reaches for my hand. It feels so warm and interlocks with my fingers as if we were made for each other. I was shocked that I didn't even pull away, instead I let him pull my in to him. "Hey...this is my mom...mom this is Coralie." He tries to smile but I can tell he is a little nervous about me meeting her. He really hasn't talked that much about her and I know he hasn't mentioned her anything about me.

She's actually really pretty and now that I am up closer I can see that they even have the same eye color. She forces out a smile. "It's nice to meet you Coralie. I see that my boy is making a few friends here again. I hope he doesn't break your heart like he does all the other girls he has been with." She says it like she knows that somewhere down the road he is going to hurt me and it's sad really to think that way about her own son. 

Zayden's face turns a light shade of pink and I can tell he is a little embarrassed with what she said to me. I haven't asked about all the other girls in his life before and really it doesn't really matter all of that is in the past. Besides we are not even dating so why would he break my heart. I can tell he is lost for words so I think quickly to change the subject.

"Nice to meet you as well...do you guys want to sit with us?" I look at my parents for approval even though I didn't ask. I'm glad that they were walking up in that moment and didn't hear his mom's comment on him breaking my heart. My parents look at each other then agree without having to say a word out loud. And then my dad quickly introduces him and my mother to his mom. When he goes to introduce Carter, he on the other hand rolls his eyes and he is not happy about it and doesn't even bother saying a word. I get that he only wants to protect me. Brothers!

We get in line and grab a plate. I can feel Zayden rub up against me and my stomach get a zillion butterflies. I have to fight back the sensation. We all grab whatever we want and then grab a drink and find a table that is big enough for the six of us. My dad sits at the head of the table and on one side my mom sits along with Carter. I sit across from my mom and Zayden sits beside me then his mom on the other side. My dad wants to pray and asked all of us to hold hands. So my dad is holding my left hand and Zayden is holding my right hand. It feels rather awkward in that moment. I try to keep my head bowed down but I keep wanting to glance up to see what everyone else is doing.

After the prayer everyone starts eating. I can't get Zoey out of my head. I just feel that something is wrong. I keep looking around for Zoey but she is nowhere to be seen. I feel so distracted. "Hey have you see Zoey?" I ask Zayden and he shakes his head no.

He also looks around and shakes his head again. "I saw her earlier but not since she had her parents visit with Sarah."

"It didn't go well at all...she came out really upset and was crying. She said she needed to be alone for a little while."

"Yeah...maybe she just needs to cool off some...she will be alright." He grabs my hand and tightens his grip around it to reassure me that everything will be ok. I try to take a few more bites but my stomach is really not wanting anything right now.

"I don't know Zayden she was really upset," my voice cracks just a little because I as so worried about her. I keep looking around hoping to see her off to the side somewhere.

My mom must have been listening to our conversation because she buts in, "Who dear...the girl that was in Sarah's office before us?"

I look across the table back at her. "Yeah...she found out that she's pregnant and she was going to tell them today with Sarah."

"Pregnant!" She lets out a long sigh. I watch as her eyes go wide in disbief. "Oh my goodness, she is so young. How old is she?"

She is more worried about her age than the actual issue here. She can't be serious. "Uhmm...seventeen...does it even matter. She was in love. Things happen and it's not like it's the end of the world. They are planning on getting married. He does love her after all."

"Coralie don't be rude to your mom she was just asking," says my dad sternly.

I let go of Zayden's hand and take a quick sip of the lemonade. "If she was just asking...she would have said- 'oh I hope everything is alright', not 'how old is she'."

"Coralie I really didn't mean to say it that way," my mom says with watery eyes with that sound of guilt in her voice.

I glance across the table up at her and then happen to glance at Carter and my dad and then back to her. "Maybe not but things happen for unknown reasons, I mean if I was pregnant would you be upset? Would you say, 'Oh goodness you're just so young...your life is ruined'."

Both of my parents stop eating and look up at me then towards Zayden, then back to me. I already know what they are thinking they don't have to even bother saying it out loud.

"Oh my God Seriously." I gasp as I look at Zayden then back to my parents. "We are friends. We are not having sex...we're not even dating for crying out loud. And even if we were it would be none of your business."

Zayden's mom looks like she is getting ready to pop him in the back of the head but puts her arm down after hearing me explain that we are only friends. Carter looks like he is ready to kick Zaydens' ass for something that never happened. And my parent's jaws drop to the freaking ground. I feel like they don't believe any of it. And maybe there is a reason why they don't believe me, I mean hell look at everything that I have done in the past. Ok so we were holding hands that doesn't mean shit. And there is no reason to look at him the way they are.

I stand up from the table, throwing down my napkin onto my plate. "I'm just saying I could have gotten pregnant...I didn't...but I could have then what? Would you treat me different because of a few stupid mistakes? No one is fucking perfect we all have are flaws; we all have scars. You might now be able to see them but they are there and they will always be there."

I push my chair out so that I can leave...and I do without even looking back at them. At first I'm walking and then I take off running. I can hear everyone calling after me but I don't stop. I can't stop. I need to get away from all of them, including Zayden at the moment.