Song: Can you hold me- NF and Brit Nicole

Zayden:

I try to go by to see her as much as possible. I'm so glad that her parents are finally getting use to me being around. Tonight I left work earlier than usual. When I get to her house, her dad answers the door but he seems a little off, like something is wrong. Maybe they had an argument again or something. I walk through the house with him and before he even opens the back door I can hear her voice...her and Carter are in a heated discussion. She sounds really pissed off.

Maybe I wasn't supposed to hear the conversation. Maybe I heard wrong. No...what the hell. She was with someone else. Carter looks over at me; then she slowly turns around. She looks really upset as her eyes are bloodshot from crying, but she looks more angry than anything. When she sees me, she looks ashamed of what she just said as if she got caught doing something wrong. I don't know.

All I can think about is turning around and leaving. So I do. I hear her calling after me but I just keep on walking. I can't think about this right now. I want to be the only one that ever touches her...me...not some other piece of shit.

I start my car up and thankfully I decide to look in the mirror before backing up or else I would have hit her because she is standing right behind the damn car. I yell at her to move.

"NO!" She yells back. "Because I don't want you to leave."

"MOVE!" I say more determined.

"NO!"

I get out of the car and walk around the back. "Please move I don't want to hurt you." I go to grab her by her arms and her body tenses up as if she is afraid that I am going to hurt her. I quickly let go of her.

She moves out of the way but gets into the car instead. You got to be kidding me...and of course she refuses to get out. I go inside the house to let her parents know that we are just going for a drive to talk and that I will bring her back home. When I come back out she is still sitting there so I get in behind the wheel and take off.

I don't know what to say to her. Actually I'm scared that I will say the wrong thing and it will only make things worse. I park the car in this open field along the road because honestly if I keep driving like this I know I will end up wrecking. I get out of the car and pace back and forth in front of it. I look over at her and she is still sitting there so I go over to the door and open it up.

"Well are you getting out or not?"

She does and follows me. I have no clue where I am walking to but out of nowhere she yells at me. "Oh my God...what the hell is wrong? Why did you take off like that?"

Because I am jealous...because I want to be the only one that ever touches you. That is what I want to say to her but instead it comes out all wrong. "Who else have you been with...was it before or after we met?"

She looks shocked. "Does it matter?"

"Fuck yeah it matters." Because for one I'm really pissed off right now.

"Before alright." She says in the saddest voice ever. I don't hear what else she says because I want to know what the hell happened back there.

"Then what the hell was that about...who did you have sex with?"

So she tells me more about her past. It pisses me off that these guys have taken advantage of her when she was weak and fragile. If I ever find them so help me...I'm liable to kill them. She tells me about doing the drugs...some that she didn't even know what they were. She just wanted to numb the pain...she was talking so fast and crying. I know I have heard about it in a few of the group sessions but shit.

"You are the only thing that matters to me."

The moon light shines down on her and I see the shimmering tears streak her soft cheeks. I hate seeing her upset. I wipe a few of the tears but they just keep flowing.

"I'm sorry...I over reacted...it's just...I want to be the one that touches you. I'm sorry I flipped out. I heard you telling Carter about fucking some guy...I'm jealous."

She defends herself. "It wasn't me...Cora took over on those days...Zayden you have me...I'm right here."

I reach up to grab the back of her neck to pull her into me, smelling the scent of her hair. I look into her yearning blue eyes. I want her. I want all of her. I kiss her sweet soft lips and feel her melt into me. I pull back but don't take my eyes off of her. I just don't know if I can wait or not.

"Please don't leave me," she whispers softly.

"Precious...I won't leave you." I bend down to pick her up and carry her back towards my care. Once there I sit her on the hood and stand between her legs. All that is on my mind is being with her. I grab the bottom of her shirt and left it slowly above her head and toss it to the ground. I kiss those lips and then trail down her neck kissing her soft velvety skin. I un-hook her bra with one hand and she lets it fall to the ground. I hear her gasping when I take her breast inside my mouth. Her hands grab a hold of my head and she plays with each strand lightly.

I want more of her...so much more and it takes everything in me to pull away.

"Don't stop," she croons as she leans her head back practically begging for me.

"Coralie..."

"Please...don't...I want this...I've wanted this for so long now."

How in the hell do I say no to that? How can I stop myself? I have been wanting to be with her for so long now. I have held back for so long because I am so afraid that I might hurt her and I will never be able to forgive myself if I do. 

"You sure you want to do this right here?" I ask again just to make sue.

"Zayden...shhh!" She puts her finger on my lips. "Stop over thinking about it...I want you...you want me...so just kiss me already."

I take her into my arms, kissing her hot, wet, passionate lips. I trail down her neck towards her breast. Before I know it my hands are working on her jeans, trying to get them to unfasten. I pull them off and I hurriedly take off my clothes. When I stop for a second to look at her, I'm speechless. Her skin glows in the darkness of the night. God she is beautiful.

Coralie:

He takes my lips and kisses me with so much passion. How can I say no to him? He pulls off my shirt with ease and the cool night air gives me little chill bumps all over my body. Within seconds my bra is off and he continues to kiss me...touching me like he has never before.

He pulls away and I know he wants to stop...to do the right thing but I crave him...I want more.

"Don't stop," I whisper to him. I have wanted him for a long time now but a part of me was just so afraid to take to the next step. 

He says my name and I love the way it rolls off of his tongue, "Coralie..."

"Please don't...I want this...I've wanted this for a while now." I don't lie to him. I don't want to hold back any longer. 

"You sure you want to do this right here?"

My fingers quickly goes to his lips and then my lips replace them. "Zayden...Shhh!"

He kisses me fiercely, but not like forceful...a good intense feeling. He doesn't hurt me in anyway. His hands trace the shape of my body until they land on my jeans and then he starts to unfasten them. I let him pull them off and I don't finch...I don't stop him.

He only stops touching me long enough to take off his clothes and then turns around to put on the condom. When he turns around his eyes glaze over as he stares at me like he can't get enough of me. I can feel the want in his eyes. I get a good look at him and his chest is glimmering with sweat already from the warm night air and the moon beams down making him look luminous in the night.

We look at each other and we both start to smile at the same time. He stands between my legs. "Are you sure?"

I nod my head and he takes me right there on the hood of his car. I look up into the starry night and just so happen to see a star fall so I make a wish silently to myself... 'I hope he will love me like this forever.'