Song: Uncover-Zara Larsson

Two weeks in...I'm about to lose it. Literally lose it. The walls in my room feel like they are collapsing around me. No phone. No IPAD. No Computer. NO ZAYDEN! I'm surprised they let me keep the small radio in my room and if I want to watch TN; I have to go down stairs and watch with them. No thank you. I would rather die in my room all alone than be near them.

My bruises are starting to heal and you can barely tell that I was even hit now. I haven't heard from Zayden at all...of course how can I it's not like I'm allowed to go anywhere.

I refuse to make real friends at school. I mean I'm not rude or anything like that. I talk when someone talks to me...small talk that is but that is it. I just don't care to make friends. I know it's not good for me and I should have that one special friend but I just can't, not right now anyway. I still think of Zoey. She was a real friend. Never judging, always understanding - she got me.

It's been two week, two long miserable weeks and two more to go. I'm not going to make it...she is on the edge of coming out and she will not shut up. She is constantly talking in my head, mostly when it's really quite all around me. I talked to my new therapist about it but he just says, "It will be alright...everything will be ok." I mean WTH...who is this guy. He is a waste of my time.

We have a pep rally today. I don't really care to go. Why, why does anyone want to watch rich preppy ass girls dancing half naked, dancing like they are some strip club and boys go crazy over them. Makes me want to gag. But I'm here anyway...watching. Not really watching them dance it more like staring off into the unknown universe...my universe...blocking everything out that surrounds me. I have to blink several times because I know my mind is playing tricks on me as usual, but when I focus I see him on the other side of the gym watching me. A smile forms on my face. He is gesturing for me to meet outside. I watch him as he walks right out of the gym.

How did he get in here? I stand up and go down the bleachers. No one says anything to me until I get to the doors.

"Where are you going?" The male teacher blocks me from going out the doors. 

"I need to use the restroom; I'm going to be sick." I hold my stomach like I'm about to puke.

"Ok...hurry back though." The male teacher holds the door open for me and I walk out hurriedly.

"OK." I quickly tell him and don't even bother looking at him. 

I get out in the hallways and look back at the door and the teacher that stopped me is too busy watching the cheerleaders so instead of going to the restroom...I walk out.

I look around but I don't see him. I know I saw him; he has to be real. I turn back around and there he is leaning against the building. He walks over to me and grabs my hand. He doesn't say anything as he leads me away from the gym. We walk until we come to the edge of the woods and he stops to smile at me. 

"Come with me." He says as he pulls me along into the thickness dense wooded area. We follow the path all the way to a clearing. He stops again this time pulling me into him. I don't know who kissed who first but it really doesn't matter because when our lips collide the world stops all around us and it's just us in this universe. "I want you to come with me," he says softly in my ear. "I want you...more than anything in this world."

"I can't just leave...my dad will be here to get me at three."

"I don't care about your dad. I want you dammit...say you will come with me," he says with an urgency to his voice.

I look out over the field and towards the sky. I would love to take off with him at this very moment but where would we even go. I don't want to hurt his feelings however I feel like I am about to. "And go where? I can't just run away."

"Why not?"

My eyes cast the ground. I don't want to see the hurt behind those eyes of his. "Zayden...I can't."

He let's go of me and walks a few steps away from me. When he looks back at me, I see the hurt in his eyes. "I thought you loved me."

I never meant to hurt him. I love him to much to do that but I know we will never make it out there, not right now anyway.  "I do love you. I want to be with you. I do...but I can't just run away."

"Why the hell not?" he seems really upset with me and I flinch. I don't care for the tone he is using. He has never gotten aggressive with me. I know he would never hurt me but the way he is acting at this very moment scares me.

"Because...I'm fixing to be seventeen. I have a year left of school. I can't just up and leave."

He throws his hands up in the air. "I don't know...if I can do this...I can't live day after day not seeing you."

"I have two more weeks...give me two weeks. I won't be grounded and we can see each other. I'll find a way." I find myself begging him to just wait for me.

"Coralie...I need you now. I want you now, not later."

"You have me." I reach up touching his chest. I look into those freaking emerald green eyes. "You have me." I tell him again and kiss him his soft heated lips.

"I want more...I need more...I don't know if I can do this."

"Please!" I start crying. My mind starts racing back and forth and freaking Cora wants to scream out at him. I know he wants more but I don't know if I am ready for that next step. What if I panic and he sees the real me and then he doesn't want me anymore. I want more; I just don't know if I can physically do more. "I need you more than anything. I can't live without you either..." I fall to the ground sobbing in my hands. "This is hard on me to you know."

He sits down beside me, wrapping his arms around me.

"Don't leave me...please just don't leave me." I keep crying as he pulls me into his chest and holds me.

"I'm not going to leave you...I'm sorry...please don't cry. I hate seeing you upset." He reaches down and kisses my lips again. "I should never said that, please don't cry."

Zayden:

Her dad threatened to throw me in jail. And I know he is capable of it. I try so hard to stay away from her but I just can't she was meant to be mine. I can't go to her house because he makes sure the gates are locked. She has been practically locked up in that house...except for school of course. So I do the only thing I know; I go to school. I fit right in and no one ever notices me. I been here all week but she doesn't ever notice. She is not herself. She seems so sad and lost. I can't see her like this anymore I just can't, maybe I just need to break it off and let her move on.

Today they have a pep rally and as I sit across the gym from her. I can't help but watch her. Everyone around her is cheering and laughing but she is zoned out. I wonder what she is thinking; she just seems so sad and lonely. I'm surprised when she looks my way and that smile breaks my heart. I sign for her to meet me outside. When she comes out, I just want to wrap her in my arms and pull her so close me to never let her go. God she breaks my heart. I have to get her away from here; I have to get her far away. I grab her hand and she follows me without saying a word.

I don't want to break her heart anymore and I keep playing it in my head how to break it off but I don't want to. I want her and only her. God she smells so good. I don't want to release her.

"I want you to come with me," I whisper in her ear. "I want you...more than anything in this world."

I'm a little shocked when she says she can't. "I can't just leave...my dad..."

"I don't care about your dad. I want you dammit...say you will come with me." She goes on about not being able to just leave. "I thought you loved me."

"I do love you. I want to be with you...I do but I can't just run away." Her eyes start to tear up.

"Why the hell not?" I don't mean to sound pushy and greedy but I just want her.

She tells me she wants to finish school and she wants to wait. I just don't know if I can do it.

"Coralie...I need you now. I want you now, not later."

She tells me that I have her but it's not the way that I meant. Yes I want her but I want so much more. "I want more...I need more...I don't know if I can do this."

She rambles on and on and then falls to the ground by my feet. I knew I would make her upset. I knew it was going to happen. I kneel down then sit beside her and wrap my arms around her while she cries.

"Don't leave me...please don't leave me," she begs.

"I'm not going to leave you...I'm sorry...please don't cry. I hate seeing you upset." I hug her tightly.

I walk her back towards the school. I hate letting her go. I wish she would just go away with me. I watch her as she walks away from me and all I can think about is how long will this last?