Song: Hold me down- Halsey

I try looking for Harley and when I see him in the hall he shakes his head no. He is not planning on meeting me. Carter just had to get in the way; why couldn't he mind his own freaking business. I can't go through the day without it. So what if I'm addicted it's my freaking body. My body is shaking and I just need the little fix, just a little. I'm in first period and I can't focus on whatever the teacher is talking about. I dig out my phone and start to text him. My freaking hands tremble with each touch.

Coralie: Sorry about my brother...

Harley: Can't talk

Coralie: Harley please! Don't let him get in the way

Harley: Sorry babe can't do it

Coralie: Fine...I'll get it somewhere else.

Harley: Don't do that

Coralie: So meet me in ten

Harley: Where???

Coralie: Back stage of the theater

Harley: OK

I'm in Biology. We are just sitting there doing or morning work. The teacher is at her desk doing who knows what I stand up and walk up to her desk and I ask the teacher if I can be excused to go to the restroom. "Excuse me Mrs. Davis; I really need to go the restroom."

"You know the rules." She continues to look down at the papers that she is grading.

Screw the damn rules; why in the hell does it even matter? I make up a lie. "I know but, I think I started my period can I please go." I say really nicely in hopes that if I am nice enough maybe she would excuse me. I start to think that if she doesn't that I will just go anyway, either way I was meeting up with Harley regardless of the consequence. 

She rolls her eyes at me while handing me the pass to be in the hallway. "Ok but hurry back."

I smile and go quickly, practically running down the hall. He is already there when I get there. I can tell by the way that he is acting that he was irritated with me for not being there earlier. 

"Hey...sorry." I feel like I need to apologize for everything, for my brother, for being late, for just everything. I have no clue how I could ever make up everything to him. I know he is missing out on class just as much as I am.

"Cora."

"Look how about I buy like a week or two supply then he won't see us together." I have been thinking about this for a while now. The only thing I can think of is to just buy a week or twos worth. 

He looks down at me and shakes his head. "You don't have that kind of money," he sneers. 

I pull out a hundred dollars in twenties and hand it to him, forcing them into his hands.

He smiles wickedly at me. "Ok but I want a little more, a little something extra for getting my ass jumped."

I swallow as I fill my lungs and then slowly exhale. "Fine...what do you want?" I dreaded to hear his reply. 

He looks me up and down and reaches out to move the strand of hair from my face. "You!"

I roll my eyes at the request. Guys they always want more. This is not me. I am not the girl who just gives it up to anyone like it doesn't even matter. I can't believe I'm saying this, "No pictures...no videos."

"Ok, no phone." He places his phone inside his jacket pocket, hiding it from view.

We go to a closet that is in the back part of the theater. It's pretty dark in here and I can barely see him so even he did manage to get out his phone all the pictures would be dark. Coralie is not with him...its Cora and she is the naughty one, the girl who doesn't mind being kissed, doesn't mind having hands on her. She lets him have fun with her body as if that's all it is, just an object. There is nothing else there, no feelings, nothing at all. When we are done he grabs my wrist hard and whispers in my ear.

"I'm not scared to show the pictures...make sure your brother stays the fuck away from me...understand." His voice gets rougher as he talks. I know he is pissed about getting jumped, hell I am just as pissed off, Carter should stay out of my personal life.

"OK." 

"Cora, I'm not playing." And I know by the sound of his voice that he is not playing around. 

"I get it...let go of me." I almost snap on him, letting her take over. The other one that doesn't mind hurting someone or killing them if that's what she has to do.

He hands me the packet. "Here's a good two weeks worth, just so you know don't take all of them at one time and thanks for that...I needed that this morning."

I snatch the pills from him. I never make it back to Biology and I'm late getting into English. I have to explain where I have been. Guy teachers don't want to hear about periods so I start to tell him and he waves me off. Yay!

I notice Carter watching me throughout the day, so I try to be as normal as possible but I can't help if I'm in a really good mood. I'm not saying one should just start popping pills to be happy. I know it is wrong. I was taught so much better than this. Hell my dad is a lawyer, my mom is a nurse; I should know better right but something inside of me is not right and it's like every little thing inside of me is twisted in knots and I'm not sure I will ever get them aligned again the way it should be.

When I get home, I pop some energy pills to keep my ass awake. I know if I crash like I normally do he will know that I am for sure on something. He will know that I went to Harley anyway even when he told me not to. I know he will rough him up more and I will have hell to pay. By the time ten o'clock rolls around I hit hard, crashing for the night.

I barely get out of bed the next day, but I pop a pill before going downstairs. I don't bother taking a shower, however I do brush my hair out. Carter is already at the table eating breakfast and he is staring at me. I know he is trying to figure out if I'm still taking anything.

"I'll take you to school today," he says with a slight smile just enough to please the parents.

"Carter that's so nice of you," mom says as she brings over a glass of juice for me.

"But Miranda is picking me up," I protest. She always picks me up and they know it. Of course in the past week we have also started having a few words with each other.

"Let your brother take you, besides it'll be good for you two to spend some time together." My dad folds up the paper, placing in down on the table before looking up at the both of us. I huff but don't bother arguing about it. What is the point in starting a fight so early in the morning.

I refuse to talk to him the whole way. I let him listen to his music and I know he is just trying to get me to say something to him but I continue to bite my tongue.

"You know I care about you right. You can't ignore me forever you know."

When we pull up in the school parking lot, he parks the car and I go to get out but he grabs my arm pulling me back in. "Coralie...what the fuck is going on?"

My brother rarely cusses so I know he is getting really pissed at me. "Nothing...and stay away from Harley he has done nothing to me."

"How about you stay away from him." He snaps back.

"Fine...I will but promise me you will leave him alone."

He just looks at me for a few seconds debating on what to do. So I snap on him. "Promise me dammit."

"I promise."

I get out and go straight to class. Throughout the day I notice certain people watching me. Carter's friends. Dear lord I can't even go to the bathroom without him finding out. What the hell. Coralie will stay away from Harley....but I can't promise Cora will.