All I Want Is Her
Song: If our love is wrong- Calum Scott
Zayden:
As soon as I got out and back home with my mom, I start looking for a job. I want to find something that deals with the public, somewhere that I hope I could just look up and she would be right there watching me. My plan is to get her to move in with me once I get my own place. There is no way in hell I would bring her here. It has nothing to do with my mom, but my step-dad and my bratty sisters will just ruin everything. I've been trying to keep track of when she gets out so that I can go see her.
I keep calling the number she gave me but it keeps saying, 'the number you have reached is no longer in service'. You got to be fucking kidding me. My stupid step-dad had the internet disconnected. He kept telling us that it causes too many issues and we don't need to worry about social media. Seriously dude...I'm almost eighteen. I mean my two younger sisters are too young to be on social media but damn it's not like little kids don't use it every day. Not only that but I forgot to mention to her my username has nothing to do with my name. I am such an idiot, how could I forget something like that?
I tried using the computers at school but they won't allow access to social media either...go figure. When I go over to one of my friend's house, he is nice enough to let me use his computer. She has a Facebook but she hasn't used it in a few months. I can't find anything else about her. So I look up her dad's name because it should be easier to find since he is a lawyer and all. I find all the information I need and it just so happens to be a good drive from here. I have no other choice than ask a friend for help.
"Bro...you think you can give me a ride?"
"Sure man...where too."
I show him the address. "Yeah...I guess but dude that's a good forty-five minutes to an hour from here and that's if I drive fast."
"I'll l give you gas money." I hold up a twenty and of course he snatches it from my hands.
"Road trip it is..."
We almost miss the driveway and we have to back up and then turn in. The gate just so happens to be open so we drive on in. The driveway is longer than I thought it would be and within every freaking second my heart starts to speed up and my palms are getting all sweaty. Why should I be nervous...hell she might not even be home.
I get out of the car and knock on the door and wait...my heart keeps thumping. I think I'm going to pass out. I knock again this time a little louder just in case they are in the back somewhere. When the door opens I was hoping it was her but sadly it's her dad. I hold my hand out for him to shake it but he doesn't take my hand. Instead he comes all the way out and shuts the door behind him as if he is trying to keep whatever inside from seeing me.
I clear my throat, "Mr. Alexander...sorry to bother you...but I was hoping to talk with Coralie. Is she home?" I say a little nervously.
"Yes she is and no you may not...she is resting right now." His eyes glance up towards the second floor of the house and he gives it away where her room is.
"Ohhh! Well sir look it was a good drive over here and I know she is probably tired but is there any way possible I could at least say hi."
"Look son...I'm sure you are an alright guy and all...but she just got home and whatever this is between the two of you needs to end here...now."
"But...I am just a friend...we are only friends and I really need to see her. I promise I will not stay long or do anything rational; I just need to her for a second."
"If she was just a friend...you wouldn't have come all this way. You wouldn't be trying so hard to get to her."
So I tell him the truth. "OK your right, I love her sir. She is like my everything. Mr. Alexander I am begging you please just let me just say hi to her."
"I'm sorry you are going to have to leave now." He pulls out his wallet. "How much will this take?"
"Excuse me?" I look at him like he has lost his freaking mind.
"How much for you to go away...a hundred...two hundred?"
I step back from him and glare into his eyes. "I don't want your money." I can't believe he just asked me that. My love for her is priceless, why can't he see that.
"And I don't want you seeing my daughter, so how much will it take for you o go away and pretend like the two of you never met."
I get a little defensive, "Excuse me sir but she's old enough to make her own decisions."
"She's only sixteen...she doesn't know what she wants and I believe you are older that her right...how old are you?"
"I just turned eighteen; why does that even matter?"
"She is underage...that is what matters. I don't want to have to press charges but if that is what it will take to make you leave her alone, I will."
Now he wants to press charges against me, this guy is a joke. "Look dude...I'm not here to start trouble...I just want to see her; I'm not going to hurt her."
"Well your right about one thing...you're not going to hurt her because you're not going to be anywhere near her."
Parker gets out of the car. "Come on man let's go!"
"I came all this way just to see her...dammit I want to see her." I tighten up my fist, pumping them up, ready to fight. I want to punch the shit out of him. How can he even think for one minute that I am not good enough for her. Just because I look different and not all richy like doesn't mean shit, my love is real for her, it will always be real for her.
"I know man but I think we need to be going now." He keeps pulling me back. He is talking me down because he knows that what I really want to do right now is kick her dad's ass and storm up to her room and whisk her away from this place. She deserves to be loved by someone who really loves her.
I glare at her father as I walk around to the other side of the car. As we are driving away the only thing I can think of is hitting the dashboard with my fist.
"Hey...watch it man...that's my car you're killing."
"Sorry bro...it just pisses me off you know." I huff and let out a scream. "Fucking rich people always thinking they can buy people off. She has been home for over a week now and I still haven't been able to see her."
All I do is work the rest of the week and by the time Friday rolls around I'm just too tired to give a shit. I keep hoping that she will come in. Surely they are not going to keep her confined to that house. I wonder if I can go during the day while he is at work but I have a feeling they have sent her back to school. I guess I could always go and scope out the schools to see if I can spot her.
I'm in the middle of fixing someone's order when I happen to look up and see Carter with some guy. I only met him the one time but I know that is him. I watch as they carry the food tray to a table with two girls sitting there waiting. They are laughing about something. The one turns her head just right and holy shit it is her. I have been waiting for this moment. I want to call out to her but for some reason all I can do is stare at her. God she is so freaking beautiful.
I watch them talk and eat together, sharing fries and laughing she seems so happy. I don't know if I have ever seen her smile so big...ear to ear...she just gleams. She seems so happy. When they are done, Cater throws the food away for all of them and when he comes back a girl jumps on his back and starts laughing but then I can't believe my eyes Coralie jumps on the other guys back for a ride. Her face is priceless; she is all lit up and she seems to be having so much fun without me.
Who in the hell is this guy. Seriously! She's out a freaking week and already seeing some asshole, what the hell. She promised me that she would wait. I promised her I would wait for her. Dammit and here she is fucking around with some guy. The longer I watch the more pissed off I get. I should have known it was all a lie. I was probably just there for the time being because no one else was there. I watch them until they are out of my vision and even then I can still see her.
I don't bother going straight home after work; instead I go to Parker's house and hit a joint.
"I thought you gave this shit up man." Parker says taking a puff and handing it back over to me.
"Me too...I just need to calm my nerves man. I saw her tonight."
He stops and looks at me like I must have imagined that I saw her. "Aaaaannnnnd...you didn't talk to her?"
"Hell no! She was with some other dude."
"What the fuck man...here you need some more of this shit."
It doesn't take me long to feel my body going numb...God I miss this feeling. When I get home, they realize that I am higher than a kite.
My mom is super pissed off, "I thought you gave that shit up? How could you do this; how after everything we have been through...how?" she just keeps going on and on about it.
I wave her off. "Mom it was just a joint."
Then my step-dad has to step in like always. "I told you...you start that shit again and you're out of here."
"Fine...I'm gone I don't need you. I don't need this shit; I don't need anyone." I go to my room to gather up a few things then start toward the front door.
My mom is freaking crying as usual, "Honey don't go...where will you go?"
"Does it fucking matter! I can't stay here not with him here; can I?"
She tries stopping me but I don't let her. I end up at Parker's for the night. And all I can think about is Coralie...her smile, the taste of what I had. What could have been mine and now it's gone. She is gone.
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