to be able to write with a pseudonym was really the introduction of what it was like to create an avatar. your writing could resonate with another writer, and vice versa, and you would never know who the other person was. but you would imagine them and you would wonder if this stranger with whom you shared such a deep connection could be a person you knew in real life. and when the writing stops, it's just like losing a close friend to distance, to life... you hear one day that that friend passed away awhile ago and you never knew.

i'm sorry. i miss my friend. and i'm trying to write to you even though it's hard

because i know you'll never write me back.