*Casper's POV*

I lay awake in my bed... It is currently 2:00 am... The rest of my family has gone to sleep, and I start to feel the demons rising up in my chest, and I thank God that they are sleeping and won't be able to hear my demons come rising up through my mouth... I feel them as they claw and scratch their way up my throat... But I stop them and I take a deep breath to silence them... I feel their clawing at my lungs and it burns like the fires of hell... My lungs feel stretched and swollen, and I feel as if I let go, I will feel better but I know I can't because then my demons will escape and then my family will hear...But finally I can't resist the urges to release and breathe, so I let out the deep breath, and when  I do, nothing but a silent whispered cry comes out... I can feel the pain and the aching soaring through my chest like a bird spreading it's wings... It spreads through the pit of my stomach and throughout my body...It hurts so bad and all I wanna do is scream and sob, but for now all I can do is sit in this pit of despair with a pillow over my mouth to muffle the silent screaming... When my demons finally ease up on my lungs and my heart, I remove the pillow from my mouth and I feel weak with relief... My eyes hurt and my face is tight from all the dry tears... I finally drift away to the place where my nightmares disappear... When I wake up the next morning I have a headache, my throat hurts, my eyes hurt, and I'm weak... I take 2 aspirin.... and the saddest part about my night, is that no one will ever know so that they can come and save me, and I will come home and when I go to bed, I will repeat everything that I did the night before...My life is built on restless nights...