Important notice at the end and it is not a rant. 

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I couldn't help but feel desired with his wanton touch. I wondered if I was doing it for, Carol anymore. But, then his words about not being loyal to me echoed in my brain. And, I knew I have to stop this.

"I would like to have some sleep, and then we need to see your friend at night. Don't we?" I pleaded but his hands never let me go,

"Have some mercy, woman." He said all the while nibbling on my neck like I was his favorite snack.

"Please," I requested again.

"Fine," He responded a little disappointed but then took me to some room carrying me in his arms and only let go of me to place me on the bed while I was busy looking at the décor of the room. 

It was the same room on which we agreed previously. But there was a huge portrait of me on the right wall and I was speechless. My hair looks great in that portrait and it was a picture of me when I was still in college. This man was really something. I don't know if he stole that picture of me from Facebook or, he actually got into my place to get this. I don't know if I was supposed to feel annoyed and moved by this.

Shut up, Jane, He said, no to fidelity. What is left in the marriage then? I tried to reprimand me. But everything was so overwhelming. I was pregnant and the father of my child was an idiot, manipulative bastard and a walking sex god.

The chain of thoughts broke the moment Alex pulled me in his arms and I felt his toned body against my back. It was so wrong; I was not supposed to feel like this. He was a sin and far from perfect and with all of my desires I was just asking to be hurt again.

But all I could feel was his mouth lost in my neck. "It was so suffocating without you, I don't want to experience anything close to this ever," He whispered all the while leaving small pecks on my neck while his arms held me even tighter. I felt so weak yet so confident in his arms. I wish I could choose you, Alex. Or you could be less arrogant. Because this time I will never choose to stay with a person who is all about himself. Not this time,

I turned to him and look into his eyes. I tried to find if these were any of his lies again. Maybe I could have caught his lies in those claims if his mouth didn't decide to devour mine, the next moment. This time I realized that he never let me look into his eyes much. What was he afraid of?

I kissed him back. I knew it was so pathetic of me but I loved him. I feared his reaction coming here. I thought that he might throw me out of his place but he didn't. He had everything but wanted me and though I know I shouldn't feel this way it made me feel beautiful.

Saying him yes was easy but I knew what I was trading in exchange. I have been there once. Waiting at home when you know that your husband is somewhere fu*king some wh*re is not something I want to experience, ever.

"You can sleep love because tonight I am not letting you sleep even for a second," He whispered and for some reason, I knew it will happen. But I wasn't afraid. And I feared this thing in me.

My zipper was undone and the dress has gone giving his hands more liberty to explore me. Well, it was the last thing I remember before giving myself to sleep.

Waking up I found myself under the covers and looking up I saw him staring at me. But my innerwear intact informed me that he decided to wait until I get some sleep. We just lay there looking in each other's eyes. I don't know why but I liked it. I have craved for such intimacy for so long.

"We can work through this. Don't worry," He said,

"You realize that I can't do this, right? You are asking for too much," I replied, He huffed and didn't reply.

Though I tried to avoid him, he knew his ways to get me under the shower. Telling him about my pregnancy crossed my mind but I don't know why I couldn't voice my thoughts. The steamy shower, his hard chest, and grey eyes were a huge turn on. All my body craved was the forbidden sinful fusion. I wasn't thinking anymore when his hands knead my buts and pulled me even closer. The moment he scooped me in his arms and rested against the wall a shiver ran down my spine.

My hands roamed in his hair in anticipation of what was going to happen next. His mouth sucked on my neck hard the moment I felt his huge length invading me. He claimed me really slow and I gasped to suck on the air hard. My legs were wrapped tightly around his torso when he kept on claiming me. He felt hard as stone while his grunts sound insane.

I don't know for how long we were there but his tongue was dominating mine when I felt him cuming inside me. A loud moan escaped my mouth while I shivered with an orgasm. I didn't look into his eyes afterward. I was insane to ever do this with him again. 

The moment I placed my feet on the floor I felt so weak that I knew I would have been on the floor if it was not him holding me and keeping me straight.

"These look different than last time." He said weighing my breast without any expression while a little gasp escaped my lips.

"Don't do this," I scold him,

"I mean they are even more perfect," He said rubbing his neck as he gets out of the door while I sobered up,

"Look at this with another view, I will be the most loyal husband in this whole fu*king world. I will be honest if I hooked up with someone," He said in our heated conversation in his car. I was thankful for the screen between us and his driver.

"I will pass," I said looking in his eyes. Why do I feel like that being pregnant gives you just extra courage?

"It's fine, we have a lot of time to figure this out," He said setting his bow for the second time looking in the mirror ahead while I was donning a long blue dress with matching gloves. He tried to make me wear his engagement ring that I denied.

"This is what you think," I muttered.

"You are really not helping, Jane. I am trying to build something here," He replied.

"We can try an open relationship," I suggested. It made sense. I was pregnant with his baby and love to be in his arms but I can't accept him as a husband if he is going to w*ore around.

"Never! I can't accept anything that would keep you open for any prospective relationship." He said and I look at him like he had grown two horns.

"You do realize that I am not like you," I almost burst this time. He really thinks that I will indulge with another person if I am committed to him,

"If you are not going out with someone else then what's the point of naming this thing an open relationship?" He pointed out,

"And, if you don't want to respect our marriage what's the point of getting married," I said and his face dropped.

"It's not like that I am going to fu*k any woman coming to me. It's just I don't know how not look at the good ass and not having the desire to f*ck her." He said and I looked at him confused. I really don't know how to answer that but then I said, "Thinking is another thing and doing another, and I am here don't even want a man who looks at another woman, looking at someone's ass is out of the question."

"But I always do whatever I think," He said and I looked at the person with zero self-control.

"It is not in me, Jane. I can't recall a single time when I decided to have something and didn't get it," He said with a proud smile.

"Don't worry; soon you will have a list," I replied and found myself pulled in his arms as he took my mouth in his. And, this is how our conversation ends but my mind was stuck on something. 

That maybe he has never been denied and raised wrong. There would be no man in this world that will not look at the hot girl and desire not to have her or maybe I can try to change him but no. It was a lot of work and I deserve better. I might be in love with him but I don't deserve to go through the pain and those torturous times. If a man is needed to keep I don't want that man. I am with a child now and far more mature to cost stability in my life for such temporary pleasures.

And while I am telling myself to say no to have such temporary pleasure I end up making out with him until his car was parked somewhere outside the city in a less populated area. The building was a piece of architecture and had almost five floors with yellow lights illuminating the exterior. Two huge bulky bodyguards came to escort us. 

There were two things I noticed so far. Bodyguards and cameras until the double doors to some hall opened. It looked like a casino and there were many gaming machines but not many people. In fact, there was only one table that had almost five people around it.

"Here comes the king," A man said holding his glass high to us as we made our way to their table. His jet black hair and, devilish smile was huge. But my focus was on the person sitting darkly at the head of the table. His aura was dense. I wonder who he is.

The moment, I made my way to their table that man looked at me and said. "I guess, she is the lucky one," And though he called me the lucky one the sarcasm in his voice was not hidden.

"Yup, but she is going to make you lost in a second." I heard Alex say and noticed how that person's demeanor changed.

But Alex didn't keep us in suspense for long when he said, "There is a girl named, Carol. The girl is her friend so you will forget about your money."

The person didn't faze and said, "Well, then consider it a gift from me at your wedding."

"Of course, Jane and I will be fine if your gift is half a million cheaper now," I heard Alex say and that person gave Alex a knowing smile.

Until now, I knew that this person was Antonio Guterres but I was yet to be introduced to the rest of the people. Alex introduced me to all but the name Ed, stuck. It was the same black-haired man who welcomed us first and the one Alex was talking about just in the evening.

The night was more than boring but at least Carol was off the hook. I came to know that Ed had a fiancé and was about to get married in eight months. Antonio was the silent type but I figured that he and Alex shared many secrets.

I don't know for how long their night will go but they played the cards and talk business. I figured that sometimes Alex and other people give Antonio projects to never get their name involved in shady businesses. Everyone was conversing or playing when one of the bodyguards came to say, "She is here," and everyone shared the glances. I was ready to see some hooker, dancer, striper or some way too elite woman but what I saw made my jaw dropped.

I saw a girl who barely looked eighteen with a belly that seems past months. Her clothes were not dirty and covered her decent because she was wearing a long light blue shirt and black pants, but seemed old and not enough to save her from this cold harsh weather. I felt a sudden urge to go and offer her my coat but I knew that it was decent inside.

"We have a company, Fiona, just do it and leave." I heard Antonio say,

That girl shivered a little before saying, "I am a disgrace to the whole womanhood and asked for Mr. Edward's apology for all the allegations I tried to make against him."

"Leave," Antonio ordered and I noticed how that little angel had her feet swollen when she started leaving.

"Who the real f*ck you think you are?" I growled slamming the table and the whole hall went silent. Even that girl looked taken aback but I knew one thing for sure that this little girl here will have a comfortable place to live tonight because I was taking her with me. 

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Very Important Note

There are going to be characters but the focus will always be Jane and Alex

 Major Characters 

Jane and Alex

Side Characters 

Antonio G, Fiona, Carol, and Frederick Erno 

(Remember they will have major roles, so don't complain later and make your mind already).

Characters having a least and minor appearance 

Alex's family

Jane's family

Paul's family

Alex's other friends

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