Ok I suck at gushy gushy stuff so ama end it the way I always think love ends either way.

You caught my eye in the fourth grade and I have loved you ever since. We were in all classes from elementary school and up. I would always watch you and would hate that you dated girls who would destroy you. I was right behind you forever yet you never noticed. Until. You saw me at spring formal.

I was wearing my deep blood red dress with my hair in braids cascading down my back. You asked me to dance and from that moment on we were together. Years we spent in each other's arms on the coach, watching old time movies and laughing at corny jokes. We spent years loving each other until you asked me. "Are you ready?" I knew what you talking about and I was confident enough to say yes. I was wrong. You were my first everything.

And I was a fool. For years you said you loved me but you lied straight through your teeth and I fell for it like a stupid little girl I was. You used me and took what little innocence I had left from the world. You cut out my heart with your lies and shredded it to pieces. I trusted you but you were the devil in disguise. You don't love anyone but your disgusting, unbearable self.

You took me and the very next you dumped me out into the street. You made me leave the home we bought together. We loved in together. It's fine though because I didn't want a constant remind of what you did to me when I was still young and stupid.

I cried for days because all I felt was pain. Unbelievable pain. My wrist are covered with scars from those days. It still hurts so much that there is some new cuts. I am standing on the edge of the bridge looking at the sunrise. It looks beautiful unlike me. I knew you would pass bye here in the morning. I also knew you have kids and a wife right now. All these years made you forget about me, huh? I see you now. People have stopped and gotten out of their cars trying to get me down. I turn around letting the sun hit my back. Your out of your car. You stand there frozen in shock as you see me.

You face softens, looking guilty. I smile at you as tears stream down my cheeks. I call out to you love the noise. "The pain is unbearable. You made me this way." I lean back as screams arise from the crowd. I feel like I am flying. I look back up to see standing there crying. Why? Why are you crying when your the one who made me this way? You don't care so cont cry because it makes me feel like Ivan the one at fault here. My body hits the water knocking the air out of me. It engulfs me as I sink lower in to the pit of darkness. This is where I belong and this is where I would stay. Darkness is my only friend.

Darkness is my only friend.