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Third person P.O.V

Entering his vast yet empty house, Taehyung threw his keys on the table before plopping on the couch. Just when he closed his eyes, he felt something poking his wrist.

Smiling with his eyes closed, he caressed the bracelet and slid it down.

"Will you stay incomplete for eternity?" He muttered, caressing the alphabet that never got the chance to be a word, a whole word.

All he received was the silence of his house, nothing else. He chuckled to himself, bitterly. What he could expect?

He glanced over his phone to see some messages from Euni about her day and he replied to her.

In front of everyone, he always pretended that he moved on, but in actuality, he never did. Did he try? No, he never even thought of trying to do so. Because, if Jungkook could love him in those dark times, then why he can't?

Another time, Jungkook was the main reason for the change in his behavior and he was grateful for that.

Tiredly, he trudged to his room and changed into his sweats after a hot shower. It was 10 pm. by that but he never had anything else to do when he was alone, except for missing the other.

Ironic? Well, it's well said that we get to know the actual worth of things when they're gone. That's what happened in his case as well.

After making a mug of hot chocolate, he sat near the window, occasionally sipping from the soothing liquid. It was a clear and calm night, stars were shining dimly because of the moon. The cold gust of December wind made him shiver a bit but the whole situation reminded him of that night.

A small smile formed on his lips as he remembered, how Jungkook was looking at him and how oblivious he was, so stupid of him.

But his smile turned upside down. That's how he was living in every moment because every second thing always reminded him of the one person who was nowhere to be found.

In his own daze, he kept sitting there until it was about midnight. As the clock struck 12, his phone was bombarded with the msgs and he silently bore it all.

Because once again it was the day he started to despise.

A small yawn escaped from his lips. He was tired, and his body was exhausted but he was afraid, afraid of sleeping.

After a while, he finally got up, washed his cup, and brushed his teeth before laying on the soft mattress.

Just when he closed his eyes, he was fast asleep because he was very much sleep-deprived.

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When he opened his eyes, he saw him, he saw Jungkook standing in the distance with the same broken smile he had in the kitchen after confessing.

"Hyung?" Taehyung called him but Jungkook just stepped back, shaking his head.

"You came, Hyung!" But Jungkook again stepped back.

"Hyung, please don't go again. I- I'm sorry.. please." But to his dismay, Jungkook turned his back to him and started walking away. He rushed behind him and they both were now near a busy road.

"Hyung!" Jungkook kept walking and suddenly started running to the road.

"I HATE YOU, KIM!" The words echoed in his ears just before a speedy car came towards the raventte.

"HYUNG!!!" Everything was like a blurry image as the blood smeared on the road.

When he rushed to the older, Jungkook was coughing blood but was smiling.

"You don't deserve love, Kim. You- you broke me beyond recovery.. and.. and I hate you for that." Taehyung felt his heart ripped off upon hearing that.

"No, I- I was afraid, hyung.. please.."

"Go, run as you did before." Another cough and a load of blood splattered out of his mouth before he closed his eyes.

"No.. n- no. HYUNG! PLEASE, NO!"

"HYUNG!" Taehyung shouted before sitting up on his bed. His tears were falling down his cheeks and his whole body was badly shaking... he was hyperventilating.

He looked around to find himself in his bedroom, just like every night.

The dazed mind took a moment before calming down and that's when he leaned back on the headboard. Tears still fall from his eyes as the horrible scene is fresh in his mind.

Every night was a terror for him, every day was exhausting for him and every moment was a pain for him. That's how he was getting his punishment, punishment for his insecurities, for his cowardly behavior, for being afraid. That's how much deeper he had fallen for the other, and was still falling, not only for him but away from everyone, in the abyss.

His sleep was long gone and every muscle was sore. That's when he saw his lifesaver, his pills. With his still lightly shaky hands, he got the pills from the drawer and gulped them down with water before laying back.

He was lonely, so lonely from inside and that was just making him depressed. But he never told anyone about it all. Euni and his mother were still back in their hometown because she wanted to study there. Also, he was kinda uncomfortable about his current condition. His mother would be heartbroken if she got to know about his depression and nightmares.

Deep down, he was so guilty of his behavior because of that, Jungkook had to move away from his normal life. He blamed himself for everything bad that happened to them.

The pillow was tightly squeezed to his chest, fists holding it as he breathed in the fabric, waiting for the pills to start their work.

He was in need of some medical attention, but he never ever thought about taking that. Just taking the sleeping pills and anti-depressants to at least get some very much-needed sleep.

"I hope, you're safe and healthy." He muttered under his breath, looking at the bracelet. The time was around 2 am. That means he barely slept for half an hour or so.

It again took a while before finally, the pills worked and he fell into an uncomfortable sleep.

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"You're coming and that's final!"

"Jimin, I'm not in the mood." Taehyung groaned and stared back at the screen of his laptop. The project was almost done and he needed to finalize the designs but the certain blond was eating his brain.

"Oh really? Fine then, I'm divorcing you, we aren't bff anymore." Taehyung rolled his eyes on hearing the same words like million times.

"Fine, go away. I've to finalize them." In the end, Jimin groaned and left his office, not before throwing his favorite cushion from the couch.

"You-!" Taehyung shouted but sighed.

He glanced over the date on his laptop screen.

30th December

The same day that he started to despise after that specific night.

Jimin was arranging a dinner for his birthday and he was just trying to have some break from all the things, his routine for the past 3 years.

The soft knock on the door made him look there. "Come in."

Just as expected, Yoongi was standing there with a very stern expression.

"Not you too, hyung. I don't want to go anywhere, please." Yoongi rolled his eyes and sat in front of him.

"Jin and Namjoon are coming, especially for you." Taehyung felt bad because he couldn't even attend Jin's birthday.

"Come on, we aren't going to kidnap you. Just have dinner and then you can go back to your boring bedroom." Yoongi deadpaned.

"Fine, but don't bring any gifts, please." Yoongi sighed and nodded his head because he knew that the younger was suffering.

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The rooftop was decorated beautifully and the glass walls were enough to stop the cold wind from entering the area.

Taehyung walked as per his personal guide known as Jimin and reached the area.

"Welcome, Birthday boy!" He chirped and Taehyung smiled when he was tackled in a hug.

Namjoon and Jin came out of nowhere and joined the hug.

"Let him breathe!" Yoongi shooed them away from a very grateful silver-haired.

"Happy birthday, Taebear!" Jin exclaimed and smacked his shoulder to which the other winced.

"Happy birthday, Taehyung." Namjoon softly rubbed his sore shoulder.

"Thank you." He smiled and they all sat on the table Jimin booked.

There were a few more tables and a few were booked. People were busy chatting and enjoying their dinner with their loved ones.

"Let's order food." Someone chirped behind them and they all were shocked to see the person standing there.

"OMG! Officer Jung Hoseok is here!" Jimin dramatically said but the said male twirled around more dramatically before hugging the birthday boy.

"Happy birthday, young man." Taehyung genuinely smiled. He kinda became friends with the older one and was very grateful for all the efforts he made to find the certain someone, but the other wasn't in his fate-

"He is daydreaming again."

"It's night, Jimin." Yoongi groaned and they both started arguing. Hoseok was busy telling his heroic entries at the crime scenes that caught Namjin's attention. They all continued chatting after ordering their food but while the food was served, Taehyung felt the need to go to the washroom.

He excused himself and went to the washroom. On his way back, something small bumped into his leg, and almost fell back.

"Oh, I'm so sorry." He looked down and found a small girl pouting at him.

"Are you hurt?" He softly asked when he knelt in front of the kid but the girl didn't reply, just kept staring at him.

"Hey, um- where are your parents?"

"Dada is sitting the-re." She said, keeping her eyes on his face and he smiled.

Dada-

"You should stay with your dada? Hm?" The little one nodded her head, her black hair bouncing up and down cutely and the silver-haired cooed.

"Fia!" Someone called her behind Taehyung's back and he felt his body freezing at the spot.

That voice...

"Dada!" The little girl, named Fia, rushed to her dada and the person laughed when she started peppering his face with kisses.

"Ok ok, now don't be like that. Dada is still angry because you ran away." The person again spoke and this time, Taehyung slowly turned his head to see the person.

Everything seemed like a dream when he found the person wholeheartedly laughing with the little kid and she was giggling as well because the older one was tickling her neck.

When the person pulled his face away from her neck, Taehyung's lips wobbled in happiness.

The person he was looking for, waiting for, was standing in front of him.. right in front of him, happy and healthy.

He stepped forward, feet unconsciously being desperate to reduce the distance while his heart running a marathon, a bit afraid of the reaction as well.

"H- hyung." He muttered when he was close enough to the older one.

The raven-haired looked up at him and Taehyung's smile dropped as he saw the other's smile disappearing.

"Fia! Oh, so you're here with your dada. Come on, I'm hungry." A girl, chirped before Jungkook could say anything.

The little one happily went to the lady when a waiter came to them.

"Mr. and Mrs. Jeon, this way please." The lady nodded her head and followed the waiter while Jungkook, kept looking around, not meeting his gaze with the silver-haired.

Mr. and Mrs. Jeon-

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Assalam o alaikum. Next chapter is Epilogue 💜