Please check if you've read the previous update "E.17. Welcome to the Paradise" before you begin to read this chapter.

This is for everyone who loves this book. ❤️❤️ The story will continue to progress as I planned earlier.

Thank you.. 🥰
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She opened her eyes and found his face just few inches away from hers. She placed her hand infront of her face when she realised that he was about to kiss her.

"Nooo!!!", She panicked as she pushed him away and got down swiftly from the bed.

"Ouuucchhhhh!!", He shrieked.

She turned and looked at him holding his chest. She had pushed him by his chest unknowingly.

Sana, you hurt him. It isn't his fault. For him you are his wife.

"Sidharth? Oh God! I am sorry. Let me see.", She says feeling guilty.

"No Sana, please go away!", He shovelled her away with his one hand while with other he held his chest.

"I am very very sorry Sidharth. Please please please!! Please let me see.", She pleaded with tears.

"No, I am fine. And I am sorry for whatever I was doing. Please go away.", He yelled loudly without looking at her.

"No, I won't. I am guilty and I have to look at it now.", She yelled back at him more loudly.

He put down his weapons and allowed her to come closer. He didn't wanted to look into her eyes so he looked down but then he realised that she was just wearing a huge shirt which was exposing her thighs. He shifted his vision from her to the wall on the side. She realised her state and quickly wrapped the additional duvet lying on the bed around her waist.

She then unbuttoned his sweater and shirt. There was some blood spotting on the bandage. She quickly pulled out the bag in which she had kept the fresh bandages. She applied medicine and quickly did the dressing of the wound. All this time, she held her tears back.

Once done, she helped him lie down on the bed and closed the balcony door.

"If you need anything, please call me.", She said with her head down as she picked up her phone lying on the bed and went back upstairs to her room. She quickly got dressed and glanced at Manvi sleeping in her cradle. She went down and asked Manju to look after Manvi and went out of the mansion.

She walked a few distance into wood forest and sat on the log of the fallen tree. She then unlocked and looked at her phone screen. The same heart emoticon was beating. Tears starts forming in her eyes and she looked up at the sky amidst those tall trees.

"Agastyaaaa.... Agastyaaaa.... Agastyaaaa....", She stood up and screamed his name on top of her voice right from her lungs which went unheard by anyone in that jungle. The only witness to her breakdown were the mute trees and the blue sky. She cried her heart aloud without fearing anyone who would hear, interfere or stop her from doing so.

It was her piled up emotions from a whole month which erupted like a suppressed volcano from years.

"I am sorry Agastya, my love for you isn't letting you go. We needed you with us now and forever but you left us. When your heart was transplanted into Sidharth, I would have let you go but his memory loss filled me with greed. I thought probably I can keep your heart which you always said belonged to me. The greed turned into stubbornness when I saw Manvi also find her solace in his arms listening to your heart beat.

I gave him our memories by replacing your name with his to instill a thought that he is married to me. But I failed to foresee the consequences of it. I played with his mind to keep your heart with me forever and now when he came closer to me, I am scared of losing myself in the fight to keep you alive.

I now realise that if I lose myself then I will lose you as well because you are not in this world physically now but you are within me. It wasn't your heart which belonged to me, it was your love which belonged to me. Heart doesn't even has the memory of it's own and I was so wrong in running behind it.

I will let Sidharth free. I will tell him everything. I will let him live his life and not chain him with the shackles of my memories. He doesn't have to be bound by my memories.

But before that, I will make sure he is strong enough. Strong enough to survive on his own even without his 9 year old memories. I won't let me go without getting fully recovered from his injury. 3 more weeks, I will take good care of him so that he lives his own life with your heart. I won't fill him with our memories anymore. Will let him make his own memories from now on."

She wipes her tears and walked back stronger towards the mansion. As she walked inside the mansion, she heard Manvi crying upstairs. She ran up to her and took her in her arms. Manju was having difficulty in handling her.

Manju: Thank God you are here, ma'am. I was thinking of going to sir's room now. She was just uncontrollable.

Sana: I am here now. Please don't trouble Sidharth. Call me whenever there is such situation. Keep Manvi away from him.

Manju nods her head.

Sana's thoughts - I want Manvi to learn staying alone without her father now. She should try to overcome his loss and let him go just the way I am trying to do so.

Manvi doesn't cease to cry.

Sana: What happened sweetheart? Maa is here. You want to eat something?

Manju: No Ma'am, I tried giving her the baby food but she didn't wanted it.

Sana: No problem. Mumma will feed her Mumma's doodhu.. (in baby tone)

Sana tries breast feeding her but she doesn't accept.

Sana: Oh!! Perhaps your Manju nanny didn't check your diaper for the surprise. Let me check it!! (She said sweetly)

Manju: Nothing there ma'am. I already checked it. I think she is missing her daddy because it's been so long that she hadn't played with him.

Sana: (glares at her) Manju, I told you not to trouble him. He.. he.. he needs rest. (Fumbles)

Manju: Sorry ma'am.

Sana: No.. it's okay. I'll take her out for sometime in her pram.

Sana takes crying Manvi downstairs, she places her in the pram and struggles to fasten the seat belt as Manvi continuously wiggled trying to jump off the pram.

"Paaa...", Manvi said in between her cries. Sana's hand froze when she heard Paa from her mouth.

Flashback:

Agastya sat with his knees bent towards his stomach and held the 15 days old Manvi in his hand which were resting them on his knees. Her face was directly facing to him. He conversed with her sweetly doing a baby talk while Sana was sleeping after a tiresome day of nursing her.

She opened her eyes to find the most beautiful sight. 'My two cute little munchkins' she thought. Agastya was unaware of her being awake.

"...and then paa saw your maa dancing. You know baby your maa dances so nicely that your paa was lost looking at her just the way paa forgets everything around when his little Manvi is in her paa's hand.. (Kisses her tiny forehead softly) Manvi can you say Paaa.. say Paaa.."

His attention was diverted towards Sana when he hears her giggling.

Agastya: Hmmm.. you are awake? Why are you giggling like mad?

Sana: Because you are behaving like mad. She is just 15 days old Agastya. How can she say Paa so early? I know.. You seem to be in hurry to throw a party.

Agastya: (Shows her tongue) I know that she is 15 days old and I am just training her so that she can say Paa by the time she is 6 months old. I read it that babies can say Maa or Paa as early as when they are 6 months old. I don't want to waste time and you know how determined I am when I want something for myself. Did you forget how I dragged you out of your engagement ceremony with some insane person?

Sana: Huh!! How can I forget that? And the fact that I ended up with a bigger insane person.

Agastya: Huh? Look baby your maa is calling your paa insane. How rude? Tell your maa that we aren't going to speak with her now.

Sana: Huh? (Laughs) You know what, you are younger than Manvi.. my cutie cutie baby..(pulls his cheeks)

Agastya: Hush!! Don't touch me! First decide for yourself if I am insane or your baby?

Sana: Hmmm.. decided!! I'll stick with my baby. (Hugs his arms) By-the-way, why didn't you wake me up if she was awake already?

Agastya: Because Maa needs to rest since she is taking care of little Manvi the entire day. Night times are reserved for Paa. Right baby? Say Paaa... Paaaa.. (in baby tone)

Sana kisses his shoulder and looks at little Manvi who was already fast asleep listening to her paa's conversation.

Flashback ends..

Sana: Baby!! Did you just say Paa?

She was smiling through her tears which was difficult to guess whether she was smiling in pain remembering Agastya or crying in happiness for hearing Manvi say her first word as Paa.

Sana: Baby, say it again.. say paaa..

"Paaa...", Said Manvi still whining..

Sana picked her up and turned around with tearful joy but soon her smile vanished when she saw Sidharth standing behind her.

Manvi jumped from her hand and went into Sidharth's arm. Sana heart sunk looking at Manvi keep quite in his embrace.

Sana's thoughts: While I was smiling thinking Agastya might be celebrating in heaven for she said paa for the first time, I was mistaken. She said paa to Sidharth? I am sorry Agastya, I know you would be hurt to see her calling someone else as paa.

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To be continued.. ❤️❤️