I pray.

Because i want God's intervention. I can't do it on my own, I don't want to drift away from His majestic presence. When confusion strikes, uncertainty high on my mind and my human thinking consume me... i dare to pray, for I am weak... and i know my God is strong, when He spoke and it came to pass... He has overcome the grave. Forever He is alive. Right now as i am writing this, i feel weak, and i am confuse... my life uncertain, i think... but i dare pray because i trust God. This past few months I've been struggling spiritually and i don't know what i am going thru... i still read my Bible, do my devotions every night, i dare not forsake the assembly of my fellow followers in Christ... i listen to our pastor and kept myself from watching my obesession (kdrama/kpop/movies) not that i am forced, no not at all, I've realize in order to gain Christ Jesus i must some how let go of the things that distract me from Him. I am happy... but there are other things that confuse me... not about God but about my identity as a Christian.

And so i pray...

Lord, what is it that i should do for you? i feel so incomplete right now... I'm so sorry for failing You, my God. I'm serving You but i think my life is still a mess, Lord i know its not about You, its about me... that i am certain. I lack. And so I am asking for Your help for i am weak, strengthen me oh Lord. I am nothing without You. Help me stand firm in my faith, Lord. Cover me with Your precious blood, Jesus, so that harm will not come near me. Lord, take away this negativity in me... I don't want to stay in the darkness for You my God, the light i so desire. Make me a light oh Lord... a light glorifying Your name and lifting all praises to You, my Savior. I trust you Lord. I love You, my Lord. In Jesus' name i pray. Amen.

Update:

God answered me, satan was sowing lies in my mind, the confusion and uncertainty are the enemies weapon, I am free... that i know. Jesus set me free. :) To God be the glory! Thank You, Lord.