March 4

Dear Drew,

Alright. I won’t be talking about our past already. Reminiscing each and every moment breaks my heart even more. I just want to let you know that living without you is like living in hell. Yeah, I’ve never been in hell but one thing’s for sure, both things hurt.

Like I’ve said before, I’m not writing this to bug your conscience. I want to tell you the truth. The truth that I’m nothing without you.

Yes. I’ve been existing for some time before you came into my life. I thought I could survive with just me, Sam and my family. But heck, I was wrong. You came into my life and changed everything. You came without prior notice. You made me fall and I’ve been a fool because I fell at once.

Hey, I’m not saying that I regret falling for you. It’s just that it’s so hard to live alone again. I know I shouldn’t put the blame on anyone but please let me blame you this time. It’s your fault why I’m like this. 

Why did you even have to go into my life and make my heart beat for you?

Why did you have to go and leave me?

Why didn’t you even bother to return back my heart?

It’s so hard to live without the person who holds my heart. It’s so hard to live without you.

Could you please go back into my life? I’m not begging you to stay forever. It’s just that I want you to have a change of heart. I want you to be a part of my life once more. I want you to return my heart and make it beat for you.

I’m not thinking of impossible things right? Please tell me that it’s still possible. Please tell me that we still have a chance.

Don’t make it hard for me to continue living.

I loved you and I love you still.

Confessing my heart out,
Michelle