March 29

Dear Drew,

It’s official. I’ll be leaving the country. I’ll go out there and try to find myself. I think I lost myself when we were in the midst of our relationship. But don’t worry. It’s not your fault. This time, it’s my fault. Maybe I gave too much that’s why I lost myself and my battle to your heart as well.

Anyways, I’ll be having a little party at my place. I hope you could come. You may ask why. I’ll only tell you one thing. When I leave, I’m not leaving alone for I’ll be bringing all of our happy memories together as well as those with my family and other friends.

Honestly, the bruises that you brought to my heart are still there. It would really take a while before all of those would heal. Maybe that’s why I’m going to give myself a chance to be alone. To be able to explore different places. To be able to experience different things.

My bandmates are right. Even if you left, you’ll always be a part of my life and that would never change. It’s our status that changed. But we would never change. We’re still here. Alive and making things possible. 

As much as I want to, I don’t want you to know where I’ll be going. Don’t bother asking me the reason why. I don’t know as well. But I promised myself that I’ll keep you posted about what’s  happening in my life so I really thought of a way on how my letters would reach you without you knowing where I am. Guess what? I already found a way. But that I won’t be telling you. =P

Drew, it’s been nice knowing you. I really wish that there would come a time when we could look at each other in the eyes and say that we’ve both moved on. That we’re both happy where we are right now and that we didn’t regret meeting and loving each other. I know that day would come. I just don’t know when. But surely, I’ll wait for it.

I guess this is it. This would be my last letter from this country for now. Hope to see you at my party.

Confessing my heart out,
Michelle