Breaking Us

I came to walk you to school, like I did every day. You walked ahead of me to talk to Lily while Sophie talked to me. She didn't talk about much. Mainly about what she done while I was away. She was focused on music, almost like you. I think she looked up to you. Like an idol.

When we got to the school, Lucas, Daniella and Laura were talking about the Halloween Bash. Laura filled you in about the annual event. They told you how Ava wouldn't be too thrilled about you being here.

She was the performer for the past three years. She wouldn't be happy for you to take her spotlight away from her.

You didn't want to be nominated because you didn't want any more drama with Ava. But you didn't have a choice if you did get nominated.

You walked into your first class and I stood in my usual spot, in the back of the class. Mrs. Garner told about old English and your writing assignment.

By the time lunch time came, you were tired of hearing about the bash, so was Lily. Laura informed you tomorrow would be the nomination day and I could tell you didn't want to go.

As the day went on, the bash wasn't brought up as much. Ezra explained the next assignment. He was still picking the partners but this time you could pick the song. He partnered you with Lucas.

You raised your hand and brought up breast cancer awareness. You wanted to put on a performance for the cause. Ezra told you that it was a wonderful idea but it wasn't safe.

Sophie agreed with the whole idea and involved the dancers and musicians. Ezra said he would talk to Selena and Abe about it.

Ava bumped into you after school and I stepped forward but stopped when you told me to. Ava told you, you weren't going to take her spot and you said you didn't care about the bash but since it meant so much to her, you were going to take it.

And you did.

The following day, you couldn't wait until they announced the nominations. Lily pulled you back as the rest walked into the cafeteria. She told you not to let your powers get the best of you. You promised her you wouldn't.

We walked in the cafeteria and you talked about the cancer performance. Lily was designing the shirts but Abe hasn't said anything about it yet.

"If it is a yes, how many guardians do you think we'll need?" Sophie asked.

You shrugged. "It depends on how many people go."

"How many people are you looking at?" Lucas asked.

"Umm about....twenty roughly."

"What kind of performance are you trying to pull off?" Laura questioned.

"An incredible one. Twenty people isn't a lot." You pointed out.

"Yeah it is." I said, joining the conversation. "It's way more than what it should be."

"I didn't think it would be a problem." You said.

"Yeah because you don't think" I told you, harshly.

"Well excuse me for trying to do something out of this hellhole for a change." You scooted your chair back and got up. "Don't follow me." You told me as you walked out the cafeteria.

I was going to follow you but Sophie told me to give her five minutes before coming. She went after you and I stood there, thinking about what I said.

I didn't mean to be rude about it. I was looking out for your safety. The more people that went, the more chances the Morches or Ramadi would come. I didn't want you or anyone to get hurt.

If we were going to do this, we were going to have to be very careful. One small mistake and everything would be ruined.

It wasn't until we walked into Ezra's class when I finally decided to say something.

"Look, I'm sorry for everything I did." I said. "I'm not hoping for you to blow pass everything but I am hoping we can still be friends again"

You looked me into my eyes.

"You broke my heart and you want us to be friends?" You shook your head. "You're not sorry and you were never my friend because if you were you would have never done it."

I didn't want us to be friends. I wanted more but at least being friends I could get somewhere. I knew it was wrong what I did to you but you didn't understand why I did it. The only way I could make you understand if I were to tell you but you wouldn't like it. Yet I made the choice to tell you anyway.

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You had morning practice with Ezra. You messed up a few times but then you managed to get through the parts Ezra wanted you to sing. He made a comment about you looking worn out.

You told him, you were trying to work on the cancer song. He told you not to worry about it. That it would come to you.

After going over the chorus one last time, practice was over. You met up with Lily and Sophie. Lily asked you something and you glanced my way.

Sophie asked you if you could help her with her song and you told her you couldn't today. You had a lot on your plate.

After school, you had practice with Lucas. You were supposed to be working on the your assignment but instead you two were messing around. That made me jealous. You were smiling and laughing with him. I couldn't watch it any longer.

"If you two are done with your practice, I would like to leave now."

You grabbed your bag and walked out the music room.

"What was that for?" You asked.

"What was what for?"

"You know exactly what I'm talking about. You never say anything at our practice and all sudden you're mad."

I didn't look at you. "I'm not mad. I just didn't want to spend more time in there than I have to."

"You mean you didn't want to spend more time with me than you already have to." You corrected me.

"No. It's my-"

"It's your job." You interrupted me. "I know already."

We walked outside and you wrapped your arms around yourself. You seemed happy when you were around Lucas and it made me think you had a thing for him.

"Do you like him?" I asked out of no where.

"Yeah. Lucas is an incredible person. Why wouldn't I like him?" You told me, as we continue our walk to the dorm.

I figured now would be a good thing to explain why I did what I did but it came out all wrong.

"I know I messed up things between us but at the time I didn't realize how much this would mean to you until I saw the hurt and betrayal in your eyes."

"Why wouldn't you think about how much my feelings would get hurt?" You asked.

I sighed. "To be honest, I really wasn't thinking straight at the time. At first it was all a bet to see if you would fall for me then it turned into something more. Abe wanted you to be yourself again and not be sad, hurt, dead. He wanted you to be alive." I told you, leaving a few parts out. "I didn't really care for you but I wasn't going to miss an opportunity to get with you."

I knew it sounded horrible and I didn't mean for it to come out that way. I was player but that was before I got with you. You changed me and I knew I broke you heart and I broke us apart but I wanted it back.

"I know what you're thinking but I was use to getting any girl I wanted. But with you it was different and I wasn't use to it. I didn't know how to react. It was confusing. So I just pretended at first to be a cocky guy and eventually it turned into me saying things I know you wanted to hear and-"

You stopped me. You were close to tears and I felt like an asshole for making you feel that way.

"Don't go on." You said. "You're not making it any better."

"Let me finish."

You shook your head. "No. You said what you had to say and now you know you'll always be the player you wanted to be."

"Millie." I tried again once we get to your door.

"Bye, Hayes." You said, opening the door and closing it in my face.

Right then, I knew I made the biggest mistake ever. I should've knocked on your door. I should've done anything except walk away.

The next day, you were the first one to perform and as you sang you looked at me every now and then. The song told me everything you wanted to tell me but you couldn't. I hurt you and I didn't think I could ever fix that.

You walked off the stage and exited the auditorium. Lily went after you and I didn't move. Five minutes later, you returned. I could tell you were crying but you forced a smile on your face.

This whole week was a rollercoaster for you. First you were sick of hearing about the bash, then you wanted to be nominated, to being overworked, then having your heart broken, again.  You had so much on your mind you didn't even notice when Selena announced the winner.

You won but that was the last thing on your mind.  You found out instead of getting a song to sing, you had to write it yourself. You freaked out but Ezra told you it would fine.

Before we left to for the weekend, you had practice with Lucas. You two were doing a mash up song. You hadn't figured out the lyrics yet but you at least had the music down.

You didn't sit behind me like usual. I pretended like I didn't notice you staring at me every now and then as you rest your head against the window. Reid and Lily argued over a song and once a heard a piece of the new, I glanced at you through the mirror.

Not because of the topic of song but because you weren't mine anymore. You could never be mine. This wasn't a secret we could keep hidden. This was forbidden. This was Romeo and Juliet. We were never meant to be together but somehow we did; for that short amount of time.

But unlike Romeo and Juliet's family, Abe wouldn't dare change his mind about his law. Why would he? He wanted you to have the best because you deserved the best.

I was just your guardian. The one swore to protect your live at all cost but I was also the only breaking your heart. If I could, I would've stopped myself from ever getting involved with you. Maybe then you wouldn't have been in so much pain. Maybe then, he, wouldn't have did what he did. You two would've been happy until it ended and you found someone worthy.

You went to your room after giving Abe a quick hug and he asked me if you were okay. I lied to him and told him you were fine. You just had a long day.

I went to my room and looked at my parents' file. For the first time in weeks, Ramadi managed to get inside my head again.

Find out how Millian sound when she's had enough. I want you to make her angry. Whatever it takes. I'm giving you three weeks and let me know if anyone is planning an attack on me.

You were hurt and he wanted you to get mad. He wanted to unlock you powers but there was no way I could do that without causing damage. But if I didn't do it he would hurt them if he hadn't already.

He wanted you broke yet you were already broken.