It was not a happy morning,
To wake up;
When suddenly your past haunts you down.
I tried not to think
But my mind couldn't help it anymore
My desire keeps on pushing me
And this is the war I'm fighting inside
Guilt built inside of me.
I'm ashamed of myself,
I'm ashamed to go in the presence of God
I broke my boundaries,
My wall,
My heart.
Letting darkness into the light
I was dumb on the outside
But thoughts tangled up in the inside
Regretting for breaking my own boundaries
My silence wasn't helping me in building the boundaries I tore down
Wanted to feel God's presence again,
Wanted to rebuild it.
I couldn't rebuild it alone
Because the boundaries was never set by me alone
God and me set it together.
This wall needed to build again
And God restore it in a second when I call His name
His mercy flooded my life
Calling me to go back to him
Him- my happiness!