A square of friends
Four in numbers
Living together for four years
It's just the four of us

We eat, we go to college
We seat in class together
We worship together
We do all things together

We loved each other
But something was not right
In our square
In my heart

The loved in the square suddenly change
They may not see it
But I saw everything
It's was not the same anymore

My heart grow weary
At their acts
My heart was fill half with jealousy and half with love

The loved we share is unequal
That's what I saw
Or maybe my feelings was messing with my mind
Wanting to build jealousy in my heart

I was selfish
I wanted love to be equal
But days goes by, it just got worser
And so jealousy build in my heart

I don't want jealousy in my heart
I pray
I cried
And God seems silent and no where to be found

But, I never gave up
I search God with all my heart for three days
I found him again and jealousy no longer found in my heart.

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Do you ever felt in your circle of friends that the way your friend treat you is different from your other friends which is in the same circle?
Or maybe they never did but it's just my imagination. I don't know whether they did or not but after struggling and praying so much I let myself think in a positive way, even if my eyes still see that they are treating me differently I never let  jealousy take control of me anymore. Whenever it happens I told myself that they are doing for the best. We should learn to control out feelings.

Our mind our imagination can create beautiful things if we think in a positive way. But you know what, sometimes we think, we imagine things like in this way ' if I go up on the stage to sing,  people will think I'm a really bad singer, they will think I don't have a good voice, my vote centre is just like a chicken'  well yeah! This is our imagination. This is how we let our imagination controls us. Yeah! People may think you're a bad singer but you never know that. If you never go up on stage and try you never know what they will say. But who cares, we should always explore our hidden talent that God gave us.

My point is that,  don't let your imagination or feelings take control of you. You have a power to say NO.

Don't let your feelings control you. Feelings and expectations can really hurt.

Please do read the continuation of this poem on my book 'INFINITY'.

Stay bless beautiful souls😇❤️