The next morning I wake up earlier than normal. I realize very fast that I'm sleeping in a bed, and there's a source of warmth beside me.

I carefully turn over and lock eyes on Kylo's sleeping figure, his face satisfyingly peaceful. I sleepily watch his chest rise and fall, his mouth slightly agape. Every time he breaths in, his eyelashes flutter, and not a single snore escapes him.

He opens his eyes, meeting mine. He looks exhausted, but he doesn't fail to give me a groggy smile, his dark eyes sparkling.

"I thought we agreed I wasn't sleeping in the bed with you." I smirk.

"You fell asleep in the meeting room and I didn't want to leave you on the floor." He admits. He rises from the bed slowly, already approaching his armor and helmet. He goes into the bathroom and changes, and when he steps out he looks less disheveled and more awake.

"Do you have a lot to do today?" I ask, as he never really gets ready this fast or early.

"Yes." His voice is modified. I like his real voice much better.

"Have fun." I guess, shrugging. He laughs slightly at my comment. He stops in his tracks, as he'd planned to leave the room without saying much else. He turns towards me and takes his helmet off again.

"I'll try not to read your thoughts anymore." He suggests kindly, coming forward to me again. I haven't even gotten out of bed, only sat up.

"Really? Why?" I ask curiously, slightly joyed that he'd actually offer something like this.

"I give you so many reasons to hate me.. I'm from the First Order, I've ruined so many innocent lives, and I haven't always been kind to you. But... I love having you here, Mali. I don't want you to hate me."

"I could never hate you." Those 5 words tumble out of my mouth, but they bring a new sense of brightness to Kylo's face, and I'm immediately happy that I've said them.

"Thank you." He exudes gratitude, now looking at his hands. I reach forward and let my fingers rest on his wrist.

"Be careful, okay?" I suggest, knowing that anything could happen outside that door and there's a possibility that I might not see him again. That's life, I guess.

"I'll be back soon. We'll do something then, alright?" He rises, letting my hand slip from his and onto the bed. I nod in agreement, folding my hands in my lap. He disappears from the room, and I pull out yet another book.

Suddenly, my tracker is buzzing again.

"Poe?" I frantically answer straight away. I hear breathing on the other line.

"I'm okay, Mali. We're coming to get you."

My heart pauses in my chest.

"You what?"

"We're coming to get you!" He sounds excited, but somehow I can't seem to mirror his feelings.

"Mali, what's wrong? Why won't you answer?" I can hear the happiness in his voice evolving into worry, and I shake my head repeatedly.

"N-no." I decide.

"What do you mean, no?"

"I d-don't need you to come get me, Poe. I'm okay here." I say, my lip slightly trembling. Besides Seeder, Poe has always been the most important person in the world to me, and disappointing him makes my heart hurt.

"Is he right behind you? Is he making you say this?" He whispers now, fully expecting that Kylo is holding me against my will. He couldn't be more wrong.

"No, Poe. I want to stay here... with Ky." There's a note of finality in my voice. The line is silent for an extended amount of time. I can hear him breath, and his breath has slowly built up in speed, as if he's ..... angry.

"Ky?" He growls, mocking my nickname.

"Uh-"

"As in, Kylo Ren?" He interrupts. He's never sounded so angry with me. He sounds angry to the point of tears.

"Y-yes." I stutter.

"YOU'RE A DIRTY TRAITOR." He screams. I flinch as if he'd slapped the words right into my face.

"Poe-"

"You'd do anything for your filthy understanding of love and care! You're so blind Mali! That screeching murdering traitor could never, ever care about you, it's impossible!"

I'm stunned into silence... I don't even try to respond.

"You know what, Mali? You know what? Fine! I'll do exactly as you wish, just like I always do; I'll leave you there forever. And when he breaks your heart and murders your soul and I'm the only one you have left to turn to, I won't fucking be there. I WON'T."

The line doesn't click dead after that. He's still there. I don't have the strength the hang up. I keep holding onto the thread of Poe still being there; I know that if I hang up now I'll never hear his voice again.

"I can't believe I fell in love with you."

And then he's gone.

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gahhhh

ok

let's see how Mali's gonna handle this..

do you think Ky's gonna find out??

I'll try to update as soon as possible, maybe even tonight:-)

ily

kait