~NAMJOON POV~

I just collapsed into my chair, exhausted with stress and guilt that has been eating away at me over a month now. What I did to her haunts me every single day and I'll have to live with that. But now there's a child to be that constant reminder of what happened between us. It's not what I had ever imagined how my child would come to be but I cant change it.

Speaking to Y/n I just wanted to make it clear to her that I was and am very sorry about it. It wont change anything but all this time since I never got the change to apologise and so when the doctor that came by told us that she's pregnant I just knew I needed to speak to her alone. Even if I didn't get that chance alone with her I was still able to say something to her.

I'll spend forever making it up to her.

In my thoughts of Y/n and the current situation that is entirely my fault did I sit up as I cracked my neck on both sides, groaning at I had done so. Picking up that bottle of straight vodka on my desk that I had been drinking since Jungkook took Y/n back home. I hid in my office to drink while she slept and the doctor checked her over. Now it's time to get back to it.

I didn't even bother getting a glass to pour it in like I usually do, drinking out the bottle would be just fine. Taking a bit swing I scrunched up my nose, feeling that burn down my throat that somehow eased the pain slightly to how I was feeling inside.

When I did what I did I knew what I was doing but I didn't care in that moment. I was too angry to care and with alcohol in my system at the time I couldn't of cared less. But I had no idea that I would feel this way afterwards. Knowing I hurt her is just heart breaking to me. I barely know the girl but yet every time she looks at me before and after my stomach flutters and my head becomes dizzy with thoughts of her beauty.

Haru isn't my soulmate. Y/n is.

And I just fucked it all up.

To be rejected my your soulmate slowly kills you on the inside and that will be my punishment for my actions.

Cutting off my thoughts when I heard a knock on the door I looked up to it as it opened without permission and in came a twirling Haru, spinning in circles happily where as I just roll my eyes at her wanting her to leave me alone and go away.

"Go away Haru."

I groaned just before taking another swig of the bottle, glaring at me wife that I've grown to hate so much. She stopped in her dancing just to frown at me, tilting her head to the side stunned by my attitude.

"Why are you so grumpy? We're about to be parents Namjoonie." Haru

"Stop calling me that and if you haven't noticed I want to be alone."

Waving the half empty bottle in my hands in front of her. She just eyed the bottle blankly before that stupid grin crawled up on her face.

"Are you sure that's wise after what happened last time you drank? The proof is in the belly of our surrogate now." Haru

That was it.

I stood up from my chair, kicking it over as I had done so and threw the bottle towards the nearest wall shattering glass thrown across the room, cutting Haru on the arm. She gasped and stepped back but I just angrily pointed my finger at her.

"Get. The. Fuck. Out."

For several seconds her shocked eyes locked to mine, staring back at me in silence but I was in no mood to be around her or anyone. I wanted to be alone. Now that Y/n is pregnant with my child I have to be close to her most of the time, according to the law. This means every time we leave this house both Y/n and I will have that constant reminder of the pain I have given her.

But when Haru laughed at me, clapping her hands as she had done so it took be back a little bit.

"Oh Namjoonie you almost had me there. Good one, now shall we tell your parents of the news first or mine?(Gasp) Let's go shopping for the nursery!!" Haru

Her big brown eyes lit up and grew wide with excitement. The same eyes I once use to adore but I don't anymore. I hate them, her. Everything about her makes my skin crawl.

"We're not doing anything together. Now fuck off."

I waved my hand at her, turning my back to her just to grab another full bottle of vodka from the cabinet and take it out to down as much as my throat could bare.

"Now, now Namjoonie. Take it easy there, we don't want another attack on Y/n do we? She's in delicate condition now, you should be more careful." Haru

I slammed the bottle on the table, spun around on my heel when a loud growl left from my throat. With out a second thought I just picked up the first thing that I could lay my hands on. My desk. Then with that solid wood in my hands did I use my strength to throw it across the room. A shriek left from the so called wife, Haru as it shattered on impact against the wall to the floor. I just charged towards her but she ran towards the door but I quickly grabbed her by the back of the neck and pinned her against the wall beside the door.

"I told you to fuck off and leave me alone yet you continue to stay here and torment me with your constant reminder of what I did. I know what I did and you better fucking stop right now or I swear I'll k-"

"You'll what Namjoonie? Kill me? Do what you did to Dr Chu?" Haru

My eyes grew in size since I was surprised that she knew about that. She smirked up at me but winced in pain and held her hand over mine that pinned her to the wall by her neck.

"That's right I know dear husband. I know you purposely left him for dead because of his inappropriate behaviour towards the whore you like so much." Haru

I pulled her close just to slam her back to the wall, earning a grunt from her.

"Don't call her a whore."

Growling in her face but she just laughed at me again, irritating me more if that were possible.

"That is what she is. Seven soulmates that are my husbands, that brands her as a whore for the rest of her life." Haru

Now it was my turn to laugh in her face. I guess we didn't try hard enough to hide it from her, we knew this a long time ago, even before Y/n came here. That is why we insisted she come and be with us, signing a ten year contract which had never been done with any half breed before.

Haru gazed up at me strangely because of my laughter but I just suddenly stopped and leaned in so close to her that our lips were almost touching but I wouldn't dare to kiss her like she thought I would.

"Oh honey, the only whore here is you. You know the sin for marrying someone elses soulmates with this knowledge. I'm afraid to say that now Y/n is pregnant with my child and is my soulmate you're nothing but a spec of shit on my foot and you don't matter anymore. Just a cover up from the governor finding out."

It was satisfying to see her eyes grow with shock and I laughed once again, pushing back away from her and across the room once again to my vodka.

"You used me?!" Haru

I shrugged my shoulders at her without looking at her and drank some of the clear liquid once again.

"I guess the cat is out of the bag now huh?"

"I'll tell Governor Lang!!" Haru

Slowly did I turn around to see her already head back towards the door, ready to stomp her way out this room but my next words stopped her.

"If you do, I'll make sure he knows everything about you Haru. About you, your family but now that they're dead, who do you think he'll turn to for punishment to those crimes you helped commit, hm?"

A smug look upon my face when I noticed the way her shoulders tensed and her back towards me.

"Don't fuck with me and my family Haru because I will fucking destroy you. Play along, do as I say from now on and everything will be smooth sailing. No problems."

"You're threatening me?" Haru

I choked a laugh at her, staring at the back of her head.

"Fuck yes I am. Don't touch Y/n or even speak to her. From now on Haru things go my way and if you dare to challenge me then see what happens after."

Glaring at her back, drinking more vodka did she pause there in thought before she spoke in whisper towards me and took off after.

"Fuck you Kim Namjoon." Haru

Watching her leave gave me great triumph knowing I put my point across from her. I've had enough of her for a ling time now and it's best she knows her real position in this place. The sooner I can get rid of her the better and I don't have to speak to any of the guys to know they would agree.

Now to sit on my chair, bottle in hand resting on my lap did I take out my phone just to open up my contacts list and go through it. It's about time I get started on making Y/n's requests come true. Pressing on a name I brought my phone to my ear, waiting for the other to pick up. It took a few rings until someone did.

"What do you want Mr Kim, I'm a very busy man." ?

"I know but I'd like to come in and discuss some things with you if you don't mind."

"Come to my office tomorrow. 1pm, don't be late." ?

The man hung up and I just grinned to myself. It was that easy.

I may not be able to make up things to Y/n in other ways but at least this way I can and do what she would if she had the power to speak up. That's all about to change if I have anything to do with it.