I don't like to talk about this so I'll keep it short. My first girlfriend broke my heart, she was my friend at first, which might have made it worse. To be honest, I'm not sure whether or not the entire relationship was a waste of time and a joke. She's got a promising looking future now and a new baby. I guess the worst thing for me is she's younger than me, goddamnit. I wished she'd completed her education first and been a little more stable before that, but what right have I got to say anything, right?

*update* Turns out the thing wasn't even real. She said she'd miscarried and lying was her way of dealing with it, but to be honest, we've heard similar bullshit before. So it wouldn't be a surprise if it wasn't real completely. But that's done. So. Onward...

On the plus side, it did start up a chain of events (some ok, mostly terrible) that led me to meet the current love of my life, whom I've been with for over a year now. And we're engaged, so that's awesome. Now, I love him more than anything else in this world, I can't describe exactly how because I'd end up wasting too much typing time. But the complicated thing is, she broke his heart too. I'm insanely protective of him, and as such I'm currently finding it very difficult to forgive because, in my mind, anyone who hurts my entire world deserves the worst punishment imaginable.

That good enough for y'all? :/