Tomoyo's View

I smiled sadly while I watched the car drive away to the destination I assigned Wakame-san. 'Lakeside', the name of a house I have on a small mountain besides a lake, proved to be a great place for Kaoru to stay at for the time being. After all, seeing that he's not getting along so well with his brother or anyone else for that matter just helps me prove my point.

I looked down the road, "It was really fun while it lasted, huh, Kaoru-kun?" I whispered with a small smile.

It was really fun and I'm going to miss being by your side.

I walked the opposite direction that the car went in. I had a few things I wanted to do before...before ending it. What I want to do may not be the best of all things, but I have to do what I have to do...

I'm sorry, Kaoru... You're going to hate me after this, maybe even have some disappointment in what I'm about to do.

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I grabbed a pile of clothing I found laying around. It may be considered stealing, but no one knew about it so I'm okay for the time being. I ran inside one of the bathroom stalls and changed into the clothing I found. It was a simple white shirt and a pair of shorts that went below my knees. All the clothing was pretty loose on me, so it's safe to assume that I took some boys clothes.

I eyed my panda sweater and small black shorts in disgust, "Finally, I'm getting rid of this damned clothing. I think I managed to get over all the panda stuff I have." I muttered out to myself, practically sneering at the clothing in disgust.

I don't know what got to me. I just felt like it wasn't me anymore... I needed to wear something else for the time being so I could feel free for a bit, even if it may be my last time feeling free.

I sighed and glanced over my shoulder upon hearing the restroom door slam shut. Who else was at a convenience store this late?

"I can't believe some shit-head took my fucking clothes when I turned my back to get something! You can't trust anyone nowadays!" A woman yelled in anger.

I rose an eyebrow at this. She was talking about me, but... Was she this mad over losing some run down clothes like this? They really don't look to be of much worth... I glared down at my feet and decided to listen in a bit more. I smirked slightly.

"I swear, if I catch that little bastard who took my clothes...I'm gonna, I'm gonna..." She trailed off loudly, her ragged breaths echoing throughout the bathroom stalls. "Kill them!"

My smirk faltered and fear bubbled up in the pit of my stomach. I took a quick glance at the woman from the small cracks in the bathroom stall. She looks angry, delirious even. She was staring into the mirror with a glare that could kill. Her red eyes really suited her rage. She didn't look like the type of person to get this angry though. I sneered. Looks can be deceiving, I know that well enough.

I gulped and gripped the area where my heart was. This feeling...did I actually feel attacked?!

I clicked my tongue softly and turned around, the toilet flushing automatically. My head snapped back at the toilet and I internally cursed like a mad woman. Stupid Japan and their fancy toilets!

"Who's there?!" The woman demanded, anger pouring out of her.

"Kuso..." I muttered, clenching my fists at my side. This wasn't supposed to happen. She wasn't supposed to spot me!

I guess it can't be helped...

I stayed silent for a few more seconds to see what she'd do.

"I said who the fuck is there?! Come out now or I'll hunt your dumb ass down!" She threatened with pure malice in her tone.

I smirked at the amount of colorful words she had in her vocabulary. They were...nice? I might as well go out and introduce myself. I reached over to the small lock and twisted it to the right, unlocking the stall door. I walked out and hung my head in fake shame.

It was time to act innocent, even if that innocence of mine is forever lost....

As I walked out, I could her her scoff and growl in anger.

"You! You're the little shit who stole my clothes!" She spat out.

I bit my lip, bringing tears to my eyes. Once I felt like my eyes were brimming with tears, I looked up at her.

"G-Gomenasai...! I-I didn't mean t-to, b-but I w-was h-hurt and I-I h-had no clothes t-to w-wear!" I cried, rubbing my eyes as I sobbed.

Kill her...

Her evil demeanor disappeared and she immediately ran to my side and apologized for her attitude.

Make her bleed...

Her arms slowly wrapped around my frail form. I let her do as she pleased as I continued to sob.

Show her what it feels like to be...-

A malicious grin found it way to my lips

-killed.

I stopped the act and shoved her away from me roughly. She yelped and glared at me softly.

"Hey? What's your problem?!" She shouted, eyeing me curiously to why I suddenly pushed.

I hung my head, my blonde bangs covering my eyes. I grinned madly as the little piece of insanity inside me took over, the insanity that was created from my problems

"I'm sorry if I barged right into your space... I didn't mean to get all close up and personal, you just broke down in front of me. What else was I supposed to do...watch?" She rambled on.

I giggled and looked straight into her eyes. My purple eyes sparkling with pure evil.

"Wh-What are you d-doing?!" She exclaimed in a demanding tone.

I giggled again, but this time I frowned in apology.

"Doing what she's telling me to do." I answered, quickly replacing my frown with a smile.

"Back the fuck up!"

I approached her and when I was close enough, I attacked. The thoughts of seeing her sparkling red blood on my hands taking over my mind. The blood lust was too strong for me to handle.

I couldn't stop it...

"HELP ME!"

She let out a ear piercing scream.

"I'm sorry...forgive me."

Do it, my beloved Tomoyo.

"K-KYAAA! HELP M-ME! G-GA-...."

Show your true self. Let her out!

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Right as I reached into my pocket to take out a small blade I had, the doors were yanked open.

"Police! Put your hands up now!"

I gasped and stared at them shocked. This wasn't good...not at all! I was never going to get out of this in the position I'm currently in! Hovering over a woman with one arm pressed down against her throat, and the other holding a small blade, ready to be used...

It wasn't a pleasant sight.

I stood up and grabbed the ladies hair with my hands. She whimpered in pain as I yanked on her hair. I held the knife to her neck.

"Don't move any closer or I'll kill her!" I yelled out, causing the police officers to halt and back up. The weapons they had aimed at me were starting to make me sweat.

I was in a really, really bad situation. If only that stupid girl didn't scream so much they wouldn't have come here! This is bad!

I pulled her closer to me and held the blade closer to her throat as an officer took a step closer. Doing exactly what I said not to do.

"I said don't move! Do you want her to die!?" I yelled.

The officer who moved stepped back a few steps as the other officers gave him a disapproving look. The officers didn't say a word, they simply eyed me, almost waiting for me to do something so they could shoot me.

"Let the girl go and we can work this out." One of the older looking males said.

I glared at him, "Why should I believe that? You're probably just lying to me, right?" I sneered out.

They didn't answer.

"Just as I said." I stated blandly.

The officer who spoke from before stared into my eyes, "Put the weapon down and hand over the woman. This can end here..." He offered.

I scoffed and contemplated on whether to listen to him or not. If I threw her to them, maybe that would give me a chance to break for it. There is a window behind me.

So be it, I'll give it a shot.

"Fine then," I muttered, tossing the woman towards the officers. They caught her and rushed her outside the bathroom.

"Surrender now or we have the right to take action." He said.

What? Are they going to kill me?

I smirked, "It's too late for that."

I held the blade up to my throat.

"I already thought about that for you. I'll end my life here, it's what needs to be done." I stated boldly

The officers froze and all murmured to themselves quietly. They weren't expecting such a twist, huh?

I frowned sadly and let a tear escape.

"I have to...I need to end it here. I'm just hurting more people than I want to!" I blurted out, a sudden rush of emotions hitting me like a wave.

My hand shook as I slowly grew closer to my neck, so close that a drip of blood cascaded down my neck.

"Please, let me do this. Let me end it here." I pleaded.

The commanding officer glared at me, "Don't, face what you've done." He said.

You worthless piece of garbage.

I winced.

You couldn't even do the simple task of ending that girls life?

How disappointing...

My heart pounded inside my chest.

And to think you were actually useful...

I shook my head as tears fell.

Seems like I was wrong. I have no use for you anymore then.

The blade inched closer to my neck.

Goodbye, Tomoyo.

I lost control over my hand and I swiped the knife across my neck right as the officers shouted for back up.

See you in hell.

I fell forward and hit the ground with a thud. My vision was blurry and all I could see were black dots clouding my vision. This was it. I lost...

Throughout the officers shouts, I swear I could hear Kaoru telling me he loved me in my ear. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I smiled painfully, blood oozing out my mouth.

I'm so sorry, Kaoru.

I didn't mean for this to happen.

Please forgive me.

I coughed up blood and took in raggedy breaths. I didn't have much time left. I was a goner...

Kaoru, never forget that I love you.

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You're the only true light I had in my dark world. The only light that never died out on me.

Don't forget me.

Tomo-chan loves you with all her heart...

-and always will.

Till death do us part.