i fell

cause i'm. sad-tired and can't stand up

sad-tiredness makes it very difficult to type

wish i could turn down the music but mr loverman makes me cry and i want to fucking. cry already

none of you deserve me, you deserve better

especially. them

both of them

they both deserve so much more

i regret that one thing so much

my dad is an abuser. regardless of whether his neglect is bad enough and meanspirited enough to be abuse he emotionally abused my mom

and i don't

i don't

i don't

i HATE HER not my mom i hate her but i love her and i like her and i hate hate hate myself for hating her

and why is this song so relatable i'm not even relating to the issue of the song and its relatable

i love you

why am i jealous

why am i everything

i want to drink something but i'm too tired to stand up

that whole "the ways in which you talk to me/have me wishing i were gone/the ways in which you say my name/have me runnng on and on" is relatable and i don tknow why

is my dad a bad person????

is she a bad person????

is the other she a bad person????

am i a bad perron????

why do i feel so bad if i've recovered????

why can't i tell my parents i hate eating????

why can't i stop eating???? why do i want to???? i'm skinny. i have a fucking thigh gap, for crying out loud. i'm not underweight, but i'm skinny. why isn't that good enough for me???????

why is my writing and art good but not good enough for me????

do i want to die?? do i want to live?? does it matter either way?? what DO i want??

am i a good person? if i'm a good person, why don't i deserve more??

why is everything temporary??

do i still have a crush on her?? i don't want to. i'm scared i do

that actually applies to two people for entirely different reasons

am i a lesbian?? i want to be a lesbian so bad but what if i'm not

i want to die but i don't

aaaaaa