young boy rushed in  the hospital, tears were sliding down from his swollen eyes. he stopped the first nurse he ran into and asked with desperate voice, like his life depended  on her answer

"Xiao Zhan, where can i see him?"

"are you his relative?"

"i'm..."  he stopped, searching for proper words  "i'm someone precious for him, please i  need to be with him, i'm sure he'll get better after seeing me"

"sorry but only relatives can visit him" nurse comforted him with slight smile and left from there. 

Yibo looked around, seeing a few bodyguards in front of the one ward, hope appeared on his face "he is here, my Zhan is here"
he quickly walked forward but got trapped between bodyguards, Yibo  was struggling with all his strength but in vain, he was tired and totally wasted after finding out about Zhan's situation and catching first flight to arrive here, but now he was unable to even get close to him

"f*ck it, why is it so hard to meet him? who the hell are you to stop me from seeing my love? he needs me, can't you understand? let me, please let me go" Yibo was yelling and sobbing desperately, when finally familiar voice reached his ear. 

"aunt" Yibo cried out and fell in her arms

"my dear please calm down, it's ok" manager petted his soft hair, talking sweetly

"is my Zhan ok? tell me what happened, i'm going to see him" Yibo raised his hand but door opened itself and yibo's stare fell on the unconscious man, laying on the hospital bed

"they're preparing him for the surgery"

"Zhan"  Yibo's voice was low but full of the pain, longing, fear and despair, during this seven month, every day every minute he was dreaming about seeing Zhan's face again but like that? why he looked so pale and feeble? where was rosiness of his lips? if this was last time? no this couldn't be reality, this couldn't...

"gege look at me, i'm here next to you. finally i came to you, forgive me ok? forgive me for not following you before, your little boy is very sorry, please be upset and scold me just don't be quiet like that" Yibo held Zhan's slim fingers in his hand and softly careless his face with another one, his tears fell on Zhan's cheek, Yibo started  wiping  it when suddenly Zhan's finger moved slightly and it was only for seconds but Yibo still could see his lips's little movement. 

"he heard me, doctor look he wants to tell me something"

"there is no way, he is already under anesthesia. we have to start surgery now, calm down dear, we'll do our best" doctor petted Yibo's shoulder and signed others to keep going. 

"Zhan stay safe for me, bear it, come back for me"  Yibo slowly let go of his hand and collapsed on the floor, lowering his head

"Yibo you have to be strong, Zhan will be ok, that is why he forbid  me to call you. he can't bear seeing you in pain. he asked me to give this to you, before surgery, Zhan was never taking it off during all this time"

Yibo looked at the bracelet "bond" and burst into tears "so he kept it, he kept my gift. aunt please tell me, why is he in this condition? how serious is it?"

"it's heart illness, called "cardiomyopathy" caused by many stress. it could be healed just by taking medicines, but Zhan was always careless about himself. he had chest pain and shortness of breath very often but telling me it was just caused by his busy schedule, i should be more careful, i can't forgive myself if something bad happens"

"he will survive, so i can kill him myself later, for breaking his promises. he must be punished for always making me worry, suffer and cry" Yibo smiled painfully and tightly held Zhan's bracelet, trying to feel remaining warmth on it...

***

after a few hours waiting, doctor finally was out

"surgery  went well" his words made Yibo feel a little relieved "now everything depends on his will to live, we have to wait"

"can i see him?"

"we'll move him in the ward very soon, i'll let exception for you, as i can see how much you love him"

"thank you so much" Yibo bowed to the doctor and turned back to aunt again "what about his parents? 

"there was some problems about tickets, they'll be here soon"

"will they let me to stay here? i'm afraid"

"we'll see, now go to him, don't waste your time"

Yibo entered the ward and stopped at the door, afraid to keep walking. it was already second time he was on the edge of losing Zhan, he have to save him again. Yibo bent down and softly kissed  his forehead, next was his closed eyes and then... Zhan's lips were warm and soft as always, making younger one willing to never let it go.  Yibo  stayed like that for a while, feeling Zhan's weak breath against his lips. he is so close but yet so far...

Yibo was sitting next to his bed, unable to say anything just holding his hand and nonstop staring at his face  "i had too many things to talk to you if we meet again some day but now... nothing matters anymore, just open your eyes and look at me like before, i won't ask for more. think about our sweet memories, i was acting like brat at first but you know? i regret every seconds of hiding my feelings for you, not just holding you between my arms and kissing you until you become breathless.  i'll stay here with you until you're awake and safe and then... i'mn't sure"

Yibo was spending whole days with Zhan, nonstop talking to him and holding his hands to share his warmth, at the night he was placing Zhan's hand on his chest and falling asleep next to him

"you can't see me now, but you can feel my heart, beating for you"

***

Zhan slowly opened his eyes and looked around, his vision was still blurry. after a while he could see faces of people gathered around him "mom, dad" whispered Zhan, forming tears in his eyes

"my little boy, are you ok? you scared us to death" Ms Xiao slightly hug Zhan, not to hurt him

"i'm fine mom, so sorry for making you worry again" Zhan smiled and looked at the door, waiting for someone to open it "are you here alone? didn't someone other visit me"

"your manager is here too, he was taking care of you until we arrived here"

"no i mean..."  Zhan sighed, was it all his dream? hearing Yibo's voice feeling his touch was it all dream? he was fighting so hard for his life, thinking he was going to see Yibo after opening his eyes but he wasn't there... again, he has to live without him again

***

after one week Zhan  was discharged from the hospital, sitting in the car and resting his head on mom's shoulder, he was still feeling weak but everything was ok now. he just needed good sleep and eating well  "mom, how long are you and dad  going to stay here?"

"we can't son, our flight is today. we're going to leave after taking you at home"

Zhan felt like totally left alone, how can they treat him like that? he pouted and left the car after hugging his parents. they smiled and winked at each-other, accompanying Zhan with their eyes full of love "he will be ok, we made right decision"

"and i'm lonely again, in my empty house" murmured Zhan and turned over the key

"welcome back to home" sudden,  familiar voice made Zhan froze at the door, is he dreaming again? or it's really...

Hope i won't have to write sad chapter again, i really cried on this one, so silly from me 😅
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