Francis

My body refused to move, I stabbed her. I can't believe I did that. I stabbed her. Even if she betrayed me this was too much. Even if she were to die, I never wanted to be a part of that.

Despite her hurting me I still loved her.
Minutes trickled by and Lyra was still unconscious. Her body is cold and unmoving. It seemed as if I was looking at a cold lifeless being and that scared me.

Why hasn't she woken up? Why is it taking so long? The healer told me that she was in critical condition and she was lucky that I had carried her here so quickly or else she would have died.

I apparently seemed to have  hit a very vital organ in her body and the only reason it is still functioning is because of some strange power fueling her lifesource to heal and her getting immediate medical attention.

I was growing impatient at the lack of progress. The anxiety I was feeling kept me on my feet as I paced back and forth, like a continuous rhythm in the same place in her room at the healers house.

I had walked the same path for hours now and at some point my legs hurt but I just couldn't stop. This was my own personal punishment. I hated this place,the scent of the disinfectant reminded me of my own failure. I failed to protect her,even though I thought that I was finished with her.

I was lying to myself, Lyra wasn't the only liar. I was the king of it all. I gritted my teeth as my jaw tightened.
At some point I stopped and my thoughts became deeper, I ran my hand through my hair for the fifth time out of frustration now it had this disheveled look.

I turned my head to look at her,she was still unmoving. I shook my head with great intensity, I couldn't even have a moment of rest with Lyra's current condition. I was exhausted, I'm very sure the dark circles I developed had gotten worse and my eyes felt heavy. This made me feel like I had gotten a decade older.

My heart was prickling the more I saw her unmoving state, even if she was a little paler, I still thought she was beautiful. I looked on a little more and she was still not moving, was the healer lying because if she was, I would kill her. As much as I try to bury this side of me, It has become more and more powerful and I can't deny it any further.

Her beautiful eyelids were still shut, I folded my fist. I felt absolute terror when she became unconscious and no matter how much I tried reviving her,her lids were still stubbornly closed tightly.

I had never felt so terrified of losing someone until today,not even Kyle. When I laid her body upon the bed as I reluctantly released her, I found myself covered in her blood. It's a crimson color, one I wish to never see again.
When she fell, it was as if time stopped,this was the first time I thought I might lose her.

That scared me. She looked frighteningly pale and her finger turned blue because of the loss of excessive blood. Her abdomen was the reason for her critical condition and I hated that I caused that.

As I paced again inside her room, memories of a few hours ago haunted me. I could never forget the way my heart stilled when her eyes became foggy as they rolled back and her body slumped against mine. I could never forget the heartbroken look in her eyes. I regretted all my thoughts and decisions of being so unforgivable.

I regretted not being able to retract that sword and I knew that this would scar me for life. I would never hurt her again,even if it meant leaving.
Five hours had passed and I was on my last nerve. The machine she was stringed up to kept beeping and as much as it annoyed me,it reminded me of her heart beating.

I wanted to kill that healer, she was pushing my button and if Lyra didn't wake up in the next hour, I would kill her. I was now seated near the entrance of her room when I heard her voice as she groaned I looked up to see that she had this look of agitation on her face and it seems as if the sound of the machine annoyed her as she moved one of her hand to her ear and another to her stomach but she winced in pain on the slightest impact.

Even though she was hurting, I was happy. She was awake. I ran to her however I didn't seem to see the vase as I hit it  and it fell and broke. Her body tensed at the loud sound of glass.
"Francis?", she could barely speak as her throat was scratchy from  dehydration.

Her hair was unkempt from moving her but despite all the flaws in her appearance,to me she had this ethereal glow and I was awestruck at the sight of her. "Shh, don't speak", I said as I passed her a glass of water. She took the glass and drank it as if she never had water in her life before.

"Where am I?",she asked.

" You're at a healer's house near Avermore".

"Why are you here?I thought you didn't want me near you anymore, I thought you hated me", she voiced out,her eyes looking down to the bandage on her stomach.

I didn't respond to her immediately because I was too busy trying to sort through my thoughts,but after a while. I said "not only did I not want to be around you I also loathed you, I could not imagine being in the same room as you. That's how much I was hurt but at the same time I loved you.

Lyra I know that you aren't feeling well and it's my fault which is why I'm even giving you a chance to talk to me,so use it wisely. Lyra, do not  try to hide the truth from me. Tell me everything, it's the only way I can ever forgive you. Don't try to keep me in  the dark", I demanded,leaving no room for objections.

" It's a long story",she said, trying to avoid answering.

"Not long enough. I have time". I said and she sighs and then hesitantly began to speak, telling me about all the things she and her dad planned about. I was angry to the point I  got up to slam my fist into the wall. I turned my body to Lyra,my voice elevating as I speak.
" How could you betray me Lyra?I would do anything for you". I said, staring into her eyes.

" But it's my parents, I thought this was the only way to get my revenge".
“You would get your revenge but at what cause, the loss of innocent lives".
“I didn't want that”.

“You didn't want that? That's what you would get, and you would get sometime more too, maybe the loss of my life. Is that worth losing too".

“I'm sorry”, She said with tears in her eyes. “ I'm sorry Francis,so,so,sorry”, she kept on repeating the same words. Looking at her made me feel sorry for being so hard on her but at the same time I had to make her feel what I felt.
Just then a knock was heard at the door and the healer came in.

“ Sorry for the interruption but I just wanted to check up on her”, the healer, Marty said. She was a tall blond-haired,green-eyed person.

“ We were talking about something important but I guess it can wait '', the healer nodded feeling ackward and gathered her equipment.

“ Alright Lyra, My name is Marty Alton, I am from Avermore,where we are currently located and I will be taking your vitals and  doing some additional check up, is that ok with you?".
Lyra looked at me to ask if she was a good and safe person  and I gave her a slight nod of confirmation and she replied

" Y-yes".

Marty went ahead with the procedure and I took a seat to watch."How are you feeling Lyra?"." I'm okay, a little sore but I'm sure I'll heal soon,Marty nodded.

" Yes, your lab results are back and it seems you're healing rapidly. You'll be out of here in no time.", she says smiling.

"Thank you Marty".

"You're welcome hun, we'll send some food soon".After she was finished with her, she left the room and we began talking further.

I looked back at Lyra trying to figure out what I should do. I really wanted to hate her but my heart already forgave her and the worse part is I agreed. I sighed and  then looked at her.

"Francis", she goes on to say, however I stopped her by saying."Zaria, I forgive you but on one condition. Never betray me again. I understand that you want to avenge your parents but this is not the way, doing this won't bring them back and it won't ease the pain, so promise me you'll call this thing off." I looked her in the face.

"I won't, I promise on my life".She looked at me and sighed in relief, "I already did, I tried talking my parents out of it but they weren't convinced. My father still insisted we do it anyway. I never truly wanted to be a part of all of this. I just wanted them to pay. I didn't want anyone to get hurt.That's why I don't think my father will ever give up on me doing this".

I approached her near the bed, grasped her hand, and slowly moved it to my lips to kiss her while watching her expression. She was flushing, and it made me feel amazing to know that I was the reason she felt that way.

" Gosh I missed you".

"Caspian". I stopped her from speaking again by lifting my finger to her lips.
"Shh don't speak. I missed holding you,would you let me?". She bit her lips, she looked at me shyly and  looked away from me but when she turned to me her confident bad girl attitude came back.

"I would want nothing more,".
I smirked at her then a smile took over my face." Good cause neither would I", I kissed her, my body leaning over her like a hovering butterfly upon a flower looking for nectar. She grasped the back of my neck,her hand playing in my hair as a moan escaped her.

I grunted at that sound, I loved that I was able to make that happen, her making that sound.  I pulled away only when I felt her needing air. " I needed that",she replied. I laughed, then I sighed and said " I almost lost you".
"You can't get rid of me so easily lover boy".

I knelt up off her only for her to pull me back. "Who told you that I was finished with you?". I smiled at her, her eyes held a little twinkle."Oh Zaria when I am finished with you, you will be begging me to stop ".

"Caspian stop!,stop!", Z called out to me as she took a deep breath to gather air into her lungs. I started tickling her after finding out she was ticklish along her waist and her back and I couldn't help myself from using this as a punishment for her teasing me and then stopping me from going further with her.

I also used this as a source of laughter, as I missed these moments with her and I'm glad that we got to have them again. Gosh, I love her.

"I told you, you would be begging me to stop", I smirked

"Cass, I. Need. Some. Water", she said slowly in between breaths,tears running out of her eyes. " You sure you need water or you're trying to escape my wrath",she immediately shook her head. "No, please have mercy upon this humble hot girl of yours. I really need that water, can you please go get it for me?".

"Sure humble hot girl, can't have you burning yourself up now. Give me a moment",I said leaving the room but as soon as I left the room the healer was making her way towards it. She nodded at me as she passed me and  entered the room.

I walked down the hall,passed a couple rooms to the snack area to get the water for Z. I went up to the man in charge of the area. "Hello, where is the hot and cold water located?", the man gave me a "are you blind" kind of look and pointed to the area that had the sign " Free water".  I wonder who stole his firstborn from him to make him be so angry and lacking customer service.

"Thanks",I said and the man replied with a "hmmm". I went over to the water and grabbed three bottles in case Zaria wanted more and had a preference for hot or cold water.

I journeyed back to the hall that led to her room and knocked on the door to let her know that I'm coming in, however I heard no response so I pushed the door to the room open only to find a well made bed.

"Zaria?". I called out looking around the room wondering where she could be but I never found her and I became angry but also worried.  Did she betray me again?

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