My whole chest burns, and my stomach churns as I toss around in the bed. I softly whine to myself as I lift my hand up to pull on my hair, trying to get the pain to go away.

"Well shit." I mumble as I realize my hairs falling out.

Of course it is, why didn't I tell myself about all this shit?!

"Luhan, here's your lunch." The woman says as she comes into my room with a tray.

"I'm not hungry." I say as my stomach bubbles giving me a sick feeling throughout my entire body.

"You didn't eat this morning or last night, you need to eat." She says as she sets it in front of me.

"My stomach hurts, it hurts when I eat." I point out as I look anywhere else but at her.

"Would you prefer a feeding tube that we have to put up your nose?"

"N-not necessary." I say as she puts the bed up as I rub my eyes.

"Then eat, I'm not leaving until you at least eat your apple sauce." She says as she crosses her arms over her chest.

Bitch..

I whine as she makes me eat the disgusting food from my plate before she finally lets me go back to sleep while I try not to think about the pain in my stomach.

Sehun's POV:

Is this any better than death? Having to suffer everyday like this? This isn't the way he should have to live, locked up in this damn hospital with an aching body.

He won't even let me come in to see him anymore, I don't care how he looks. Yeah, he lost some hair because of the radiation treatments they're doing, but that's not going to make me love him any less. It's hair.

-Can I come see you today?-

I text him as I sit down and eat my breakfast, it's Saturday and I want to spend it with him.

He got his cast off finally yesterday he had it on for almost two months, I bet he's happy to have it off.

I want to see him so badly, he doesn't understand that I don't care what he looks like, he's sick, he can't help it.

-No, I don't really want you to waste your day here, it's Saturday, go have fun.(:-

-I will if you let me come- I text back.

-They said I can't have visitors..-

-I know that's not true! I went yesterday and said you didn't want visitors! Let me come see you, I miss you so much.-

-Sehun..-

-Sehun what?!? Babe, I miss you. I don't care that you lost some hair and weight, you told me everything's gonna be okay.-

-It is, I just don't want you to see me like this-

He says and I roll my eyes to myself.

-I'll be down there in twenty minutes, Love you.- I send before shoving my phone in my pocket and finish eating.

"Bye guys." I say as they dogs run around my legs and bark at me.

"I'll be back later." I say as I pet both of their heads and hurry to my car.

When I get to the hospital I go inside and ask to see Luhan.

It takes about ten minutes before the lady comes back and tells me that he'll see me and I happily jump up from my seat and hurry to his room.

When I get in there I find him with the bed covers over his head.

"Luhan, what are you doing?" I chuckle as I walk over and sit on the chair next to his bed.

"I don't want you to see me." He mumbles.

"Give me your hand." I say as I search around for it.

I find it and pull it out from under the sheets while I wrap fingers around it. He's gotten thiner, is he eating?

I press my lips to the back of it before holding it to my cheek as I enjoy the feeling of his touch.

"You're annoying." He sighs as he pulls the sheets off.

"You're so beautiful." I say making him roll his eyes.

"No, I'm not." He says as he lays back and rubs his dark eyes.

His face has thinned out and his arms look like sticks but I still think he's the most beautiful person I've ever laid eyes on.

"Yes you are, I don't have to fight with you about this." I chuckle as I thread my fingers through his.

"You're so annoying." He says with a small smile making my heart melt.

His hair has thinned out, he has dark circles around his eyes, he is extremely underweight, but that doesn't mean shit to me. I still love him, and that's all that matters.

...

"Yeah, they've gotten really big. But they act like puppies still." I chuckle making his smile grow.

"I can't wait to see them again." He says with a soft smile.

I've missed his smile so much, he has such a beautiful smile.

"You have such a nice smile." I say, completely adoring my baby.

"Thank you, yours isn't that bad either, I guess." He says dramatically making me laugh.

"You're such a turd." I chuckle.

"Why thank you." He says as he slowly shuts his eyes and opens them.

"Are you tired?" I ask and he nods his head.

"Just a little." He answers softly.

"Do you want me to leave?"

"No, not if you don't want to." He says. I can tell by the tone of his voice that he wants me to stay.

"I don't." I tell him before he nods and smiles softly.

"So, tell me about what it looks like outside." He says as he readjusts himself trying to get comfortable.

"Well, it's cloudy-"

"What kind of clouds are they?" He says as he shuts his eyes.

"They're a darkish gray and were big and puffy." I say as he falls asleep.

"Don't stop, keep talking, I'm imagining it." He chuckles.

"Well, earlier it was raining and the wind was blowing the leaves around the ground." I say as he smiles and nods his head. "It wasn't raining very hard at first but then it started poring, but you know I like the rain."

"I do, I like it too sometimes." He smiles.

"When the wind blew by you could smell that nice fresh rain smell so I opened the windows and let it blow through the house for a little. It's one of my favorite smells." I tell him as I hold his hand with one hand and softly rub my fingers over the top of it with my other.

I continue explaining everything with the most detail I could give as he slowly falls asleep.

I sit there for hours, softly rubbing the skin on his hand while I enjoy having him here with me. This is everything I could have ever asked for, I just wish he wasn't sick, I can tell he's hurting, he just doesn't want to say it.

AN// So I think we're getting close to the end.. I kinda stopped writing on it will never be the same because I haven't felt very motivated to write on it. ㅠ.ㅠ but I will finish all the books I write! I'm not gonna leave it so don't worry hehe. I hope you enjoyed the chapter and check out my new one shot book! I'm probably gonna post a baekyeol chapter next so I hope you guys will like it(: love you all and thanks for the love on my books(: -Meg