"Jungkook! Walk me inside." I pout as we pull up to my college after a long night.

"No! No one else is getting out but me." Suho says making me roll my eyes.

Me and Jungkook secretly make a plan to jump out and run for it together as we wait for Suho to park the car.

I get out and hold it open for him but Suho shuts the door and locks the car making me whine.

"Jungkook!" I whine and laugh as he presses his forehead against the window and runs his hand down the glass.

"Come on." Suho says a he pulls me.

"Suho! You're no fun, you party pooper." I say as he walks to fast for me to keep up.

"Give me your key." He says as I pout and hand it to him.

"Get in, don't forget to take your contacts out before you sleep."

"Screw that!" I yell and laugh before he rolls his eyes and forces me to go into my bathroom.

"Take them out." He commands as he leaves.

Okay, I can do this.

One.. by one.. by one?

What?

I already took that one out, duh.

I put them in the case and accident knock them into the sink.

"Whoops." I say as I pull up the case and watch them go down the drain.

"Brush your teeth too, you smell like a bar." Suho says as I look up and find myself wearing my glasses, when did I put these on?

"Yes, your highness." I say as I grab my toothbrush and do as he says.

"I'm leaving, be good." He says before I look at myself in the mirror and mimic him before rolling my eyes.

"You think I can't take care of myself? I sure as hell can! See, I brushed my teeth, I took my contacts out, and they went down the drain, but hey! It's oh kay, it's gonna. Be. All. Right. Bro." I say to myself as I continue brushing my teeth.

"Luhan?" I hear and look over to see Sehun looking at me.

"Hey." I giggle as I rinse my toothbrush off.

"Are you drunk?"

"No! Are you?"

"You are, aren't you?"

"No! I just took out my contacts and brush my teeth all by myself!.. Drunk." I scoff.

"Why'd you get drunk?" He asks as he crosses his arms in front of him.

"I. Am. Not. Drunk. You are drunk, so go to bed before you hurt yourself and let me finish doing my grown up stuff." I say as I point my finger at him.

"Why were you being such a dick to me earlier?" He says making me gasp.

"M-me?" I stutter as I point to myself and look behind me to make sure there's no one standing behind me.

"Yeah."

"I have never been a dick to anyone in my entire life!" I say as I walk over to him and poke him in the chest.

"You were the one that was spreading lies about me."

"Which was?"

"That me and you were screwing, we haven't, we aren't. Well, I have seen you on your knees more than standing, I forgot you were taller tha -"

"Screw you." He glares as he pushes me back making me stumble slightly .

"What? It's true! Most people would probably think it was the other way around considering our social statuses but nope. You suck me off likes it's your job." I point out before he comes over to me and slams me against the wall.

"What? Are you going to smash my head into the wall or something?" I laugh at him.

"Or are you about to get down on you knees again because I'm getting hard." I cackle as I look into his beautiful brown eyes.

I can't help but admire them, even in the dim lighting they still seem to shine so brightly. Though they are glaring into mine I still can softness behind them.

"Luhan!" He says as he pulls me forward slightly and slams me back again but I feel nothing.

"Yes?" I say, completely mesmerized by his charming looks.

"Did you hear me?"

"Nope." I smile lazily at him as I tilt my head to the side.

"You're pretty." I giggle before he rolls his eyes.

"Why so sour, Sehunnie?" I say as I reach my hand up to cup his face but he smacks it away.

"You're a fucking dick to me." He growls.

"I-I'm sorry. I don't mean to be."

"Well you are."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry I can't be with you and that I'm being rude to you."

"Why can't you be with me?"

"I don't want to get attached, I don't want to get feelings but I already have them." I mumble as his grip softens.

"Why don't you want to get feelings for me?"

"Because, you don't understand the position I'm in right now." I barely know it right now but I know I'm in some kind of position.

"Then tell me."

"I don't know. I can't concentrate, I want to sleep." I whine.

"Tell me and you can sleep." He offers.

"Sehun, I don't know, but I really want you to kiss me." I say as I look at his beautiful, plump, pink lips.

"Go to bed." He says as he lets go of me and leaves to his bed.

"Sehun." I whine.

He doesn't answer, he just leaves me standing there.

"Sehun!" I whine again and stop my feet but still get no response.

I sigh before going over to my bed and pull my pants off before getting in.

It's cold as hell in here, where are all my blankets?

I roll over and find them on the ground and quickly pick them up and pull them around me.

Why can't he just understand why I won't be in a relationship with him? I've dedicated my whole life to my research and I'm close, so extremely close to finishing it. I can't be focusing on him or anyone else for that matter, I just need myself, and my brain.

I can't have distractions, I can't have people worrying about me, or have me worry about myself so I won't want to die. Not that I want to. There's always a possibility that I will when I'm working with such high voltages of electricity. I could touch one wrong wire and instantly be vaporized, I will proudly die that way. But that's because I have no one worth living for.

Yeah, I have all my friends, but they understand because they're in the same position as me.

I know that if I let him yes then I will never finish this, and I can't have that happen.

AN// Is it just me or do any of you hate EXO fanfics that aren't gay? Like I hate reading ones about Sehun and some girl or Lay and a girl I'm just like NO! Stop it! You can't f*cking be with another girl! You can be with each other or you can be with me, there's no in between!!😒😂 love you all, take care! -Meg