There is this huge disconnect
Not a simple misunderstanding
An intense need to protect
The pieces that left for bonding
Pieces of the puzzle are missing
The methods are no longer fixing

Detached from all sense of life
But still living through every day

There's a greater detachment
And the feelings bubbling inside
Are no longer shown with excitement
Shoved out the way and pushed aside
The last feelings now are broken
Water from the bath tub is soaking

Floating through pain and emotion
Alone in the darkness of the sun

There's a sense of disembodied floats
When stuck in the mind of the damaged
When family begins with their gloats
Of how they lived and managed
When what is needed is a shoulder
But instead it's pushed to grow colder

Now I feel like my life is a shipwreck
A rollercoaster meant for disaster

My mind is clouded by my doubts
The fire is fuelled by my insecurities
Planting a seed in rocks, hoping it sprouts
Trying to forget to truth of all realities
Slowly fading away into the dark shadows
Wishing to fly away on the wings of sparrows

Guided through the feeling of pure bliss
That's provided by the cold steel of my blade

To follow a path already set but never guarded
Recognising the beginning of destruction
Ignoring it for a fantasy that's not light hearted
Degradation from family, the only obstruction
A growing sensation to spilt my skin apart
A burning desire to turn my blood into art

An itchy response to the denial of the steel
Turning my nails into harsh instruments of red