At the edge of his shared bed with Aira along with his hands tugged in his hair tightly, Jungkook sat there with a heavy chain of thoughts roaming in his mind. He let out a groan out of frustration.

"God, not this time," he sighed while tapping his right foot in a way that described he was restless and tensed; tensed about results. His heart was beating rapidly that at any moment, it might burst out of his chest and his forehead was covered with bangs wet in sweat.

But still, he sat there, his ears covered with his palms, looking directly at the floor with a blank expression and quite wide eyes.

The dark blue aesthetic room had only a dim light on as the white moonlight came in the room from the window. The darkness of the night in the room was swallowing him up alive. He was losing his mind more because of his surroundings when suddenly a figure came out of the bathroom with a gloomy and disheartened expression.

He looked up in the direction of the bathroom and witnessed the figure coming towards him with a dejected look, enough to make him more tensed by looking at the state of her.

Yet, he hoped this time it would be a success, he didn't let his hope die even though his insides were almost dying because of it. He kept looking at her with his hopeful eyes when she opened her mouth to speak.

"It's negative again," Aira spoke in a low and mournful voice, clearly visible that she was broken just like him.

Hearing the sentence spoken by her in that mournful tone, his heart shattered into thousands of pieces as a droplet of tear escaped his eyes, making it change from the blank one to melancholy. His little bit of hope was gone.

Aira witnessed his state as she saw his tears trickling down his cheeks. She slowly went towards him and embraced him, trying her best to comfort him and herself too.

But her embrace broke him more as he hugged her and kept his head on her chest, allowing the tears to come out that he had been holding for so many days while trying his best to stay strong.

Aira knew how badly he wanted a child, how badly they wanted a child but God knew why every time their result was negative.

She was hurt and hopeless too but she couldn't let that show in front of him because if she did, he would break more and there was no way she would be able to endure twice the amount of pain she had been enduring till now. So, she tried her best to be hopeful, at least for him.

"W-Why is this happening? Why is it a failure? Just . . . why?" he sobbed in her chest, making Aira tear up as well but she held her tears back.

"Calm down, kookie. Stop crying, please," she cupped his face, brushing the tears off his cheeks while her own eyes were glistening with tears.

"We failed for the fourth time, Aira," his stare never left her face, reading every single expression with half-dried tears on his cheeks, waiting for an answer from her.

"What if we failed this time? I'm sure it'll be a success next time. Let's have some hope, hm?" she was trying her best to comfort him and stop those tears that were trickling down from his cheeks as she gave a soft reassuring smile to him.

But he kept looking at her, reading her expressions which were so obvious. He knew her well; he knew she was holding her tears and trying to be a strong woman for him just like she had always been. But he knew she was broken as well.

How come he was so lucky to have her as his life partner?

"But what are we gonna answer to my mom? I'm sure she will again say those ridiculous hurtful words to you and I really can't bear that again, Aira," he asked and saw her face turned into a pale one, this was the only thing that scared them.

He was scared to answer his mom about the results because his mom never liked Aira and supported their marriage in the first place. It was because he rejected the girl her mother chose for him but married Aira whom he loved wholeheartedly and his mother accepted them after his many desperate tries and begging.

"It's fine, we'll handle it like we've been doing before, okay?" that soft smile never left her face and he looked amused at her way of reassuring, amused that in such a situation she still kept a smile on her face, amused that she was stronger than him from mind and heart both.

She indeed was an angel in his life and he couldn't be more thankful for it.

"Now, no more tears and let's sleep. We'll be going to the hospital tomorrow to know the reason behind this," she softly caressed his cheeks, looking deeply into his eyes.

Jungkook could still see her wet eyes while she still smiled at him and he couldn't help but come closer and attach his lips softly on hers, hugging her body close to him as he kissed her slowly and softly.

Just when Aira felt his warmth and love through that kiss, a tear managed to escape from the corner of her eyes and Jungkook wiped it right away, deepening the kiss more, letting her melt slowly.

He parted from her, staring into her eyes and stroked her cheeks tenderly before coming closer once again and placing a soft peck on her forehead, letting their foreheads rest over each other for some time.

"I love you," he slowly whispered.

"I love you too."

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The couple sat in the waiting room of the hospital, waiting for their name to be called. Jungkook looked tensed.

"It's gonna be alright, don't worry," Aira spoke, keeping her hand over his to let him know that they were together in this and not alone.

"Mr and Mrs Jeon, please come!" a voice broke the silence and they looked up to see the nurse standing near the door.

"Let's get it!" Aira said and they both looked at each other. She gave him a soft smile and Jungkook scrunched his nose cutely before going inside the doctor's cabin.

"Please, sit down," the doctor politely said and they both took a seat on the opposite side of her where two chairs were placed.

"Yes, how can I help you?" she asked and they both glanced at each other as Jungkook started speaking.

"Doctor, we've been trying for a baby for almost a year but every time the results are always negative," his voice shook a bit while speaking this sentence but Aira kept her hand over his all the time, assuring him that it was going to be fine.

"We're worried what can be the reason behind this, Doctor," Aira said this time as the doctor listened carefully and nodded her head in understanding.

"Hmm . . . here, I'm writing some tests that you need to do. After the tests, you need to wait for two days for the reports," she slid a paper toward them.

"Okay. Thank you, Doctor," Jungkook took the piece of paper and thanked, passing a smile toward her.

"Anytime, have a good day ahead!" the doctor smiled, greeting them politely.

"Thank you and you too," after bidding their goodbyes, they made their way outside to get the tests done.

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Aira sat at one end of the bed as she kept her head hung low, letting her reddish-brown highlighted hair cover her face. Suddenly, the door cracked open as Jungkook came in and Aira looked up at him.

He saw her state, he witnessed that she was lost in some world, lost in the chain of thoughts. He quickly made his way towards her and sat beside her, resting his hand on her right shoulder, giving a slight rub.

"Is everything okay, baby? Why do you look so lost and pale?" he asked, making her look up to meet his eyes glistening with worry but she managed to stay calm.

"I-I am alright, Kookie. You don't need to be worried," she stammered but kept a smile on her face.

"Don't be so hard on yourself, Aira," he softly spoke before wrapping his arms around her and she let out a sigh of relief feeling his warmth.

"Everything is alright but it's just . . ." she stopped and hugged him more, ". . . I'm scared what the results would be," she sighed and continued while he listened to her silently.

"What if I c-can't become a mother? What will we answer Mom? What will she say?" her voice cracked amid but still managed to continue, "She has so many expectations from me. What will I do if I won't be able to fulfill it? What will I answer to her, Jungkook?"

She let out what was going on in her mind since they came back from the hospital and she couldn't help but be more stressed because this could be a possible reason behind their negative results.

Jungkook caressed her hair softly, letting her know that he was there for her before he pulled away and tucked a strand of her hair behind her ear, cupping her face in his large palms.

"Aira, we don't know what the result will be or what will happen after that so why worry about something that hasn't even happened yet?" he smiled slightly, "And even if it comes out to be true, I'll do my best to make my mom understand. She's a mother herself so she would understand it, right?"

"Don't stress yourself too much about it. It's going to be fine, hm?" he stroked her cheeks, keeping a small yet soft smile on his face.

"I hope so," she lowly said, coming forward and hugging him once again making Jungkook chuckle.

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Aira and Jungkook sat on the opposite side of the doctor as she went through the reports. Aira continuously tapped her right foot on the floor out of impatience and because she was stressed about the results.

"So, your reports are here and . . ." the doctor finally broke the silence and stopped amid the sentence, making the atmosphere more tensed than it already was.

"What happened, Doctor?" Jungkook asked, confused about the reaction on the doctor's face because that clearly didn't mean anything good.

"It's actually a bad news, Mr Jeon," for a moment, their heart stopped beating when they heard the word bad from the doctor. They were indeed afraid.

Was it true what Aira had been thinking last night?

"I'm sorry to say but the thing is that the possibilities of Mrs Jeon getting pregnant aren't there," this sentence made Aira's heart drop.

"What do you m-mean doctor?" Jungkook stammered, feeling a lump inside his throat, making it hard for him to swallow down.

"The reason Mrs Jeon cannot get pregnant is because . . ." she stopped amid, letting out a sigh. This was a hard job for doctors too.

Aira and Jungkook looked at her with patience yet worry in their eyes, waiting for her to continue further but the next thing that the doctor said made their eyes widen and heart skip several beats.

"It's because you're infertile, Mr Jeon."

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a/n:
this a short story. hope you liked the first chapter and will enjoy reading the rest of the book. happy reading!❄