~Astrid's P.O.V~

Me and Hiccup decided to have a picnic at the Hidden Forest, as it was a very sunny day, Hiccup was getting better at walking on his own, a little faster than before. But still uses his cane.

"We're almost there"I said to him.

"Oh good"Hiccup responded, as we we pass through the bushes and saw the tree we used to have our moment.

"We're here!"I called out.

"Wow..."Hiccup stops and stare back at the tree"the tree is becoming more beautiful than ever, just like you".

I look away slightly blush"c'mon knucklehead, let's get set up".

I grabbed his hand as walk towards the tree, placing down the blanket on the ground while we set up, Hiccup took a glance around the forest.

"What a view"He mutters, laying down on the blanket.

"This place hasn't change at all"I said, unpacking the basket.

"What changed is us"

"What do you mean?"I look over at Hiccup.

"We've changed a lot. Our relationship kept us together"He smiles at me as I look away felt a little embarrassed and felt loved by his affection.

"You're so cheesy Hiccup"I giggled"I'm glad it's working out".

About an hour later we finished having our lunch we stayed around for abit to relax, catch the nice breeze as this day was just too perfect. But I couldn't get this unforgettable feeling of being conflicted with my urges.

"Is something in your mind Astrid?"Hiccup interrupted my thoughts as he notice I was quiet for too long.

"Oh! Umm I was just thinking"I said, looking back at the view"I....well...I can't stop thinking about it".

"Thinking about what?"He place his hand on top of mines"whatever you want to talk about, I'm here to listen".

I slight smile at him as I held my breath in and figure out what words to say.

"Hiccup, do you think anyone will forget, of what happened. The pain, the sadness, and the fear I created in this city. I....can't forget what happened".

"Astrid, I wouldn't understand how hard it'd be for you to face that feeling. But I understand you're feeling guilt. Do you still think about it? The urges?".

I hold his hand and tried to look at him"honestly, the urges. I can't seem to control them. It's hard Hiccup, I can't fight it much longer".

Hiccup then puts his arm around me"we'll get through this, I will always be here for you".

I smile and lean my head against his chest"thanks Love".

After we finished having our picnic we head back to our car as we went through the bushes as we continue the walk path towards the parking lot.

As we started packing our things in the trunk, something caught my eye at a board where people usually put posters or notices. I automatically walked over there and looked closer on one of the posters, it was a missing person poster.

My eyes went widen as I thought did I end this person, did I commit thus horrific act.

Hiccup place a hand on my shoulder as he slowly limps next to me.

I look at him with a very concerning face and stare back at the board.

"Do you know this person?"He asks, softly.

"No, I don't think so. Let's go home"I walked away from the board as we got on the car.

Throughout the car ride it was quiet, not even the radio station was turned on until Hiccup finally said something.

"Berk is a huge place so maybe another crime was committed. However, I hope that missing person will be found safe".

"I sure hope so"I muttered, as we walk back to the car, leaving the park but with many thoughts that's going on in my head. I don't know.

I dropped him off home as I drove back to mines, feeling exhausted and relieved that I get to spend time with Hiccup all day. After telling him how I feel, I get the understanding of him supporting me. But does he feel guilty of loving me or does he wants what best for me.

My Mother was out so that leaves me to be by myself. I enter my room feeling so tired that I crashed onto my bed and inhaled.

"What am I gonna do with my life"I said out loud"this feeling is building up, I can't seem to not forget my wrongful doings".

Stormfly then flew beside her on the edge of her bed.

"Argh! Astrid tired, Astrid tired"Stormfly then slightly poke my shoulder.

"Hi Stormfly, ugh I'm so stressed about myself"I picked her up"maybe I should just sleep in now".

I put her back in her cage as I let out a yawn and look over my window as seeing the sunset.

"Good night Hiccup"as I closed my curtains and crashed out.

Several Hours Later...

Astrid was deep asleep as she was mumbling in her sleep, moving around, as if she was having a nightmare again.

"You monster! Why!!!"

"I didn't do it!! It's not me!!!"

"Murderer!"

"Nooooo!"

Astrid then got up right away as she was experiencing a nightmare once again. She panted looking around her as Stormfly was awake from her disturbance. It was already near 3am.

"Argh! Bad dream!? Bad dream?!"the bird flock away in her cage as she lands on Astrid's shoulder.

"Oh Stormfly! Why is this happening to me!"Astrid cried out, as she felt her face sweating"why the same dream".

Astrid then got up from her bed and went downstairs to grab a drink of water. She couldn't bare sleeping again so she stayed on the couch staring blankly at the tv and around the room.

She yawns as she needs to sleep more but whatever she's thinking, is causing her to be drowsy her health and mentally.

Astrid leans back on the couch as stare at the ceiling then back at the kitchen.

"What is wrong with me"She whispers, glancing down at her hands which appear to be trembling in fear, more like can't control her urges.

She grunts"stop it!".

Astrid then decides to scream out loud as she grabbed a tuck of her hair and slightly pull in frustration.

"Ahhh!"She screams out.

That is when her Mom walked in on her"Astrid dear! Are you okay??".

Her Mom came home while she was sleeping as She was awake by Astrid's episode.

Her Mom then sits beside her, embracing around her Daughter.

"Shhh, it's okay. I'm here"Her Mom whispers softly in comfort.

Astrid whimpers, as her stress levels is through the roof, for abit she was finally calm.

"Are you okay sweetie?"Her Mom asks.

Astrid looks at her"I'm okay, thank you Mom. I'm just so.....so....".

"It's okay, we all have those days"Her Mom hugs her as Astrid returns the hug and breath out.

"Thank you"She whispers.

Astrid has been having nightmares lately and it's distressing her a lot. Knowing all the evil deeds she has caused, how could she bring this out towards her Mother.

Astrid returns back to her bedroom, as Stormfly was happy to see her calm.

Her Mom walked in as she sits on the edge of her bed.

"Mom"Astrid says softly.

"Yes"Her Mom looks over.

"Can you make sure I fall asleep? I know it's childish to ask-"

"Of course! It's not childish sweetheart. You're still my Babygirl, I'll always be there for you no matter what"Her Mom comforts her, tucking her in.

Astrid smiles as she whipped off her tears"thanks Mom! I love you".

"I love you too"She kissed Astrid's forehead"Everything will be okay, good night"Her Mom smiles, as Astrid closed her eyes to finally get back to sleep as she felt well protected by her Mother.