These poems may be triggering for some.
                          Hello ~
             
      So, so sorry for the late update

    Hope you all are feeling amazing ☆
              
              no gifs today im afraid
 
I couldn't find a more better song than Orange Juice by Melanie Martinez for this chapter
 
DISCLAIMER:

These poems are NOT celebrating or romantasizing eating disorders in anyway. I will not get into details.

Please, do not think that this is ok.

                         •○•○•○•○•

                    isnt it amazing
                     being perfect
               no flaws to point out
          no such thing as self-doubt
             and most importantly
            everyones proud of you

                         •○•○•○•○•
                         
                 i think it all started
    when i was belittled for my weight
   harsh words in a sweet hushed tone
             so the only thing i could do
was live up to their cruel expectations
          hurting myself for validation 
                       yet i never
            had a say in the first place
                         
                         •○•○•○•○•

                           the pain
                            it hurt
             my stomach, screaming
                  my body, shaking
                   but theyre happy
                 their smiles so wide
         so i return a faux one in return
              why do i have this feeling
        i wasnt the only one in disguise

                         •○•○•○•○•

  "why cant you see that you need to be healthy. you shouldn't go through this, no one should have to do this to themselves."

                         •○•○•○•○•
                  
                           i think
                          its time
                            i stop
                     loosing myself
                         to people
                who couldnt care less

                          •○•○•○•○•

               there is no such thing as
                a perfect human being
                 no matter how much
          you want to be that person
                 we are all imperfect
            and thats just fine with me
                      
                           •○•○•○•○•

This is my interpretation of what I went through.

I, thankfully, am fine now and I have gained some of my weight back.

I made this because I saw someone on Wattpad ask how to make yourself throw up and I just broke down.

Society has made it seem okay, but it's far from it.

Your body is yours, it'll be the only one you'll ever have. Cherish it, nourish it, and most importantly, keep it healthy.

To end this chapter on a higher note, I just want to say you are loved and you should leave this book knowing that you are worth so much.

The best thing for anyone going through something like this is TALKING TO SOMEONE YOU TRUST. It's important because that person will be the one to stop you.

Until next time, my wonderful friends.

♡