June 27th, 2016 - Warm coffee and midnight conversations.

Teni: I am sad

Teni: false I am catastrophically sad

Luke: no no no what's wrong :-(

Teni: I don't know I just made a cup of hazelnut coffee and I thought it would be poetic if I opened the window and stared at the night sky and then I was suddenly drowned by a tidal wave of deep emotional pain

Luke: I understand that you're not feeling well but that was beautiful explained

Teni: thanks I try

Teni: I don't even know why I'm so upset my heart just feels heavy

Teni: my whole body feels heavy, with the exception of my eyelids. the coffee pried them open

Luke: it's like 3am there, why would you drink coffee

Teni: coffee sometimes has a really soothing effect on me and it can put me to sleep

Teni: but it's a gamble

Teni: and instead of peacefully drifting off into a blissful dream, I'm stuck counting the stars that separate us :-)

Luke: are you always this poetic at night

Teni: I'm like a werewolf but instead of turning into a wolf I turn into a tragically bored teen who is about as deep as her sink

Luke: well what can I do to help

Teni: i don't know i truly don't

Teni: your fans partially want us to get married and partially want me to drop dead

Luke: you have to ignore them they can be slightly possessive

Teni: I know but it feels like everything has lost its fun you know

Teni: even Twitter lost its fun

Teni: I haven't felt like this since my mother died

Luke: depression

Teni: sí señor

Luke: I didn't know you struggled with depression

Teni: everyone gets depressed. it's a feeling

Luke: but you should be feeling like a million dollars!!!! you are such a special person!! I wish I could be there for you physically but I'm kinda across the world

Luke: I love you though, Teni, and plenty of others love you too. you should try sleeping and maybe you'll feel better in the morning

Teni: if I lay down I'm gonna cry and crying is the worst so I'm just gonna hang out the window a little longer

Teni: I probably look crazy

Teni: I probably SOUND crazy I am so sorry for telling you this

Luke: it's totally fine I'm just prepping for morning practice. it's actually morning here

Luke: but you don't sound crazy I just wanna make sure you're alright

Teni: I'll be okay

Luke: do you know what we should do

Teni: what

Luke: log on to club penguin. I'll meet you by the lighthouse on slushy like always

Teni: awh I love you Luke

Luke: :-) love you more

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@teni_nicole tweeted: I am 19 years old and club penguin and a good friends still rid me of my midnight blues

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pull yourself together paige this chapter is such a mess DAMMIT

things are about to get real as fuck tho lol lol :-) lol

other than that I met two internet friends today and we just cuddled for like two hours and it was great!!! how was your day

have a dooty day