Hey everyone! Before I get started, please have a cookie <3 🍪 maybe some candy too- 🍭🍦🍬🍫

Okay now that you're hyped up on sugar, like me all the time, we can get started on explaining the stories in this book-

Oh! But before we start, like most things nowadays, there is a trigger warning, although I know you guys don't listen, because it's my stories, you guys are reading- so uh- I dunno how to do this- I'll try tho-

⚠Warnings:⚠️

☠ Bullying
💉 Blood / Gore
🍼 Sexual Abuse
💢 Mentions of Depression

So uh- now that we've gotten that out of the way, let's go to the introduction.

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The reason my main character is 6 years old, is because that was the age that I first got sexually abused. My main character also cannot talk, which is how I was when I was younger. Everyone talked for me. Oh yeah, he also doesn't have a mouth. So, his face is just kind of like Hello Kitty's.

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👁Eyes👁 ~ So, I have this huge problem with just everyone looking at me. I've always just been different than everyone else. And so I hate it when people look at me because my classmates and people do it a lot.

💤Naptime💤 ~ This one was just kind of an introduction to the "Guardian", which their real name is Camilla. It's also a reference to me seeing my room being made when I was younger. I got to see my room getting painted and decorated when I was about 4 years old.

🕸Familiar🕸 ~ A lot of times when I was younger, my brother made me go downstairs into the basement to get something, and then he would scare me. So, the reason that the jail cells are there, is because when I was down there, I always brought this big security flashlight. So for me, that was kind of like my way of keeping the 'monsters' in the basement in jail cells. But, my brother would also like to take the flashlight at the last second before we got upstairs.

🖍Drawing🖍 ~ Yeah kids like to make fun of my name a lot. And the saying at the end of the story in the note is what I was told by someone. Can't remember who though...

🍓Strawberry Fields🍓 ~ This story is explaining my fear of religion and wanting to get away from it and anyone who tries to push their beliefs on anyone else.

💬Silence💬 ~ Just like the familiar story, my brother used to close the door on me while I was in the basement.

🌸Guns🌸 ~ This one has to be my favorite story I have ever written because it's the first one that I have ever really talked about my sexual abuse in a way that hasn't made me cry. It's mostly shown as my brother being the monster, being aggressive and manipulative. And the Hello Kitty gun part is when I was 11 and my mom found out about the sexual abuse.

☁Sleepy angel☁ ~ It's about waking up to something you're not supposed to see or hear. It's a huge reference to the time that I woke up in the middle of the night and heard my mom tell my dad that she was worried about me and a dark story I wrote.

👼Daycare👼 ~ This doesn't need much info, I'm just terrified of daycares-

🌈Lost🌈 ~ Once my brother told me while we were at the park. I was 4, he was 8. After I said I wanted to stay and play more, he threatened to leave me here, and now I have abandonment issues.

☁Pools☁ ~ I decided to take a swimming class with my brother, and then 2 weeks in, the teacher wanted us to jump In the deep end. I was scared after the twins in our class jumped in, and I took off my goggles and tried to back out. My brother pushed me in and I choked on the pool water. My mom got me out and I cried and didn't go back in for the next week.

⛅Neighborhood⛅ ~ I've never been able to go outside without my parents knowing exactly where I am, what I'm doing, and who I'm with. So, this story was just showing the opposite of my life.

💕Crybaby💕 ~ This is the first time that he ever officially sexually abused me, and I remember just feeling awful and sick.

🎁Stuffed Animals🎁 ~ This is my birthday party, and I remember all my parties were either crowded or empty. We ate food and watched TV. I always kind of just wanted a small party- my family and my best friend. Maybe her family too, since they are nice.

🍥Fluffy🍥 ~ I sometimes cry so hard that I accidentally hurt myself-

💛Angels💛 ~ It's an introduction to Mineta (the angel at the end) and also what I think that angels look like if they exist.

🎠Carousel🎠 ~ This was the story I wanted to write the most. A lot of the time, I forget what I'm doing while I think of my childhood trauma, and it usually ends in nothing good. Such as, tripping on the last stair on a staircase, or cutting my finger while I'm trying to make apple slices.

🍰Auntie Julie🍰 ~ I never really had that person when I was younger. You guys know that one person, who sneaks you candy before dinner and says 'don't tell your mother I gave you this.' So, I made Auntie Julie.

🍀Green🍀 ~ Exactly like the Guns story and the Carousel story, this one represents my sexual abuse as well. The green paint means the spots he touched me in.

🔪11:23 pm🔪 ~ My brother bought a fucking knife from the Halloween store, then tried to scare me with it. And woke me up. At hecking 11:20 at night.

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Well, that's it, hope this makes it clearer now. Bye-bye! I hope you liked your cookies!! 👼🍼💙